Hello, I have a questions about some self inquiry methods that work for you. I have had a lot of awakenings and semi-awakenings (how I call them) I define the semi-awakenings by the thinning out of reality. The sense of detachements and unsubstantiateness of the objects of perception. I find myself most of the time IN the illusion of the ego, and still trapped by it. I have had a lot of sober awakenings, some of them were so beautiful, others were maybe even more incredible but not necessarily beautiful. Unfortunately the awakening always comes down, and I am trapped into the ego elusion again.
So I am asking what methods do you guys find very useful to make the ego/reality "thinner".
Its kind of frustrating to remembering that the suffering that comes with the ego is illusion, but it feels real.
In some sense I am an awakening-junkie, because awakening is the only thing that is really satisfying me deeply. I'm sure I am not the only one who struggles with this, and struggling with not-being free of the ego makes it even worse. How do I deal with the ego desperately trying to awakening, while simoultaneaously trying not to try to awaken?
What methods/habits do you guys use to make reality thinner that can work 24/7. It doesn't even need to be very noticeable.
For now I don't really want to use psychedelics, because I don't want to break through with violence to avoid the dark night of the soul.
I'm sure there will be a time for that though.