Enlightenment Experience, The Implosion Of Identity

[Yang Noctus]

Hello all!

So a few weeks ago during my meditation session I started trying to observe things without putting a label on it, I started moving my hand around and looked at my hand to see it as it is, to see the formless thing it was, and then the awareness of my mental sensations shot backward (inward) I felt a huge vast open space and nothingness, it was frightening and i felt a surge of panic, I didn't know who i was anymore, All i felt was a vast ocean of emptiness. It only lasted for a minute and then i lost it again. Since then  I ''know'' on an  emotional level that I don't exist, because I've experienced nothingness, but somehow it wasn't a permanent transformation like for example Eckhart Tolle went through. Any suggestions to make it reoccur and make it permanent? 

[WelcometoReality]

"Lean" into that open space. Ground "yourself" in that space. The rest will take care of itself.

[comp13]

@Yang Noctus When you looked at your hand, was it no different than the space around it?

[Yang Noctus]

@comp13  No it wasn't, I just looked at my hand and a thought rose up out of nowhere ''Who is controlling this hand?'' And then the ''implosion'' happened. I was kind of hyperfocussing  my hand only, It takes alot of effort for me to see things as they are, It's an effort I can't describe in words but somehow you ''just do it''. And even then I get brief experiences of just seeing it, and then the mental labels and shape recognition come back.

[comp13]

@Yang Noctus I had the experience as well, but I cannot remember what was in my sight at the time. I know my eyes were open, but can't remember what I was 'optically' looking at.

Congratulations to you for having the experience. We are very fortunate!

Edited September 6, 2016 by comp13

[cetus]

2 hours ago, Yang Noctus said:

I was kind of hyperfocussing  

@Yang Noctus I got the same exact impression when it first happened to me. It was as if awareness had suddenly come to a point of hyperfocus. I remember thinking to myself  "I never knew my mind could do this". It blew me away! Like it tuned to a higher frequency or something.

 

23 minutes ago, comp13 said:

I had the experience as well, but I cannot remember what was in my sight at the time. I know my eyes were open, but can't remember what I was 'optically' looking at.

@comp13 Same here again. My eyes were open but consciousness was in a totally different space. The experience first started when I dropped the sense of body/self.  Suddenly consciousness was no longer restricted to the usual body location but in the surrounding field in front of me.  At this point I'm still seeing the room around me and experiencing this happening. It freaked me out and I withdrew for a moment. I never experienced anything like that before. Than I thought, something is presenting itself. Let go and go with it. And I did through complete trust and surrender. That is when conscionseness seemed to enter into a different dimension or something. I was no longer in the room. For a long time after that experiance I thought. "what was that?" "what happened then?" "where did I go?"  "what did I become?"  I realize now what the answer to all that is, Pure conscionseness. It has no location. It has no thingness to it. But yet all this owes itself to it. It does seem like switching channels on a radio. If your tuned to mind, that's the station you'll recieve. If you switch the mind to pure consciousness, you get that station. You can't have both tuned in at the same time.

[cetus]

Pure consciousness is a lot like a focused laser beam. When the mind is involved , it acts like a diffraction filter. It creates an interference pattern.

Edited September 6, 2016 by cetus56