What Are Your Self-Deceptions?

[Twega]

What are/were the biggest self-deceptions in your life? How did you detect them? How did you correct them? What do you expect is a current self-deception you hold and will discover years from now?

[Moksha]

The biggest self-deception was mistaking my thoughts for myself. I suffered a lot because of it, but didn't know why I was suffering, or how to escape. I found a good therapist that carved out space for me to explore. I studied the insights of ancient and modern people that realized peace. I started meditating. All of this made a good garden. But I had built the same garden years ago, only to revert to complacency, once the storm had passed. My early garden fell fallow.

This time, it was different. The decision that exposed my garden to the sun was the primal choice to let go of my suffering, no matter where it took me. I released my claw grip on the precipice that I had clung to my entire life, and fell into the void. I saw my conditioned mind for the devil that it was. Scary, confusing, but also liberating. The light caught me, and kept me safe in the middle of the void. My garden sprang to life. I finally found abundant peace.

If there is a current self-deception, it is the desperate whispering of my ego back on the precipice, promising peace without a price, if I would just come back. But I know better, now. I hope I will always know better.

[Leo Nordin]

2 hours ago, Twega said:

What are/were the biggest self-deceptions in your life? How did you detect them? How did you correct them? 

Waiting for the right time to let my energies run free. Perhaps it is not a deception but it is creating unpleasantness within my experience of life instead of pleasantness. (ego vs love). I detected it after awakening or self realisation.

If I were to stop creating suffering then my surroundings would halt my preperations to change my lifestyle which would allow for a powerful way of living. 

Writing here is suffering for me. I wouldn't do it if I wasn't stuck in where I am right now in my life. 

[inFlow]

Hah this one is tricky. One time I was so aware and conscious that I literally saw my mind lying to itself and believing. That opened my eyes to what a beast the mind actually is. It's not even describable and it's really scary when you notice it. But that hyper aware state was over in a few minutes and then I just accepted the self-deception and continued living as usual with my self-deception.

Self-deception on a self-deception on a self-deception. You lie to yourself and believe it, even when it felt so real. The realness is what is the scariest part of it.

[Breakingthewall]

my biggest self-deception was to betray myself in exchange for "success", to stop being me and live in the fight, to lose myself to the point of not even remembering who I was, without realizing that without love there is only an empty shadow.

[Bulgarianspirit]

That i am in control of my life decisions and i can hold onto things, people and even myself. That i have free will, or a way to change what i become. After this self acceptance is easier and you become more chill.

But this clinging causes suffering and resistance, a great pain, which can be stopped through acceptance. 

[Mvrs]

The one i can never correct; others exist.