My Samadhi Experience

[SpaceLaika01]

Sometime before Halloween I went on a hike nearby my home. I took some marijuana put it in a bag and took it with me with the intent to smoke it on the hike. The intention was to have some alone time in nature, and I was going to use weed as a tool to "connect with nature". The trail was narrow and looped around many hills. It is simply a runoff area behind everyone's home for rain to pour down, but there are stairs leading up it for people to go up there to hike. Most of the time, there is no one. Complete and total peace. I felt totally free. Everyone is usually too busy working or isolating themselves cause of Covid-19.

The first thing I did was sit down at a nice spot on the hill. There was nothing particularly special about the spot. Sure, there was a view of the city, but there were plenty of other spaces like it along the path. I sat down, took out my "straight-shooter" and smoked some weed. Now this wasn't any special high value strain or anything else for that matter. It was just some cheap weed I got from a nearby store for $25. After smoking, instead of doing the usual thing and taking out my phone and maybe watching a video or browsing the web, I decided to just sit still, clear my mind, meditate, and just notice what was happening. First peculiar thing I noticed was the sun starting to warm my back. Now, there wasn't sun shining there before. I looked behind and saw the sun shining through a hole in the mass of bushes and canopied trees. I looked around, nowhere else in sight did the sun shine on the path. Somehow through sheer luck or divine intuition if you will, I had picked the specific spot where the sun would shine. I sunk deeper into a meditative state.

The second peculiar thing I noticed was all the synchronicities that was happening around me. First, my attention was drawn towards a group of trees. Something told me to count it so I did, and to my surprise, the number of trees mirrored my birthday. I tried doing something "funny", and started talking with God/the Universe/spirit. To my surprise it seemed that the universe reacted to me, waving hello, making jokes, etc. If I didn't understand a joke, I would see a plane or bird fly by "That one flew over your head". Only for me to get it afterwards (sometimes).I'd ask the universe a question, and sometimes it answers. After a while, I got angry at the universe/God for making me transgender, and putting me through so much pain and confusion in my life. The universe stopped answering after that. I hurt the universe's feelings probably.

Then I started talking to the trees. For some reason, I felt that they were screaming. Maybe they were afraid of my lighter. The next thing I did was look down and lo and behold I saw some ants going about their day. Instead of going "they're just ants", I thought "why not have some fun with it". So I put my head between my legs and just focused on the scene. I saw infinity in the tiny bit of dirt. To the ants, infinitely complex geometrical hills of which to navigate. I wanted to try naming them, but realized it was just too difficult to keep track of which is which. After a while, I felt I was probably intruding upon their home, and probably putting them on alert, I decided to leave.

I kept walking and walking. Each trail looking identical to the next. Looking back was the same as looking forward. Here again was infinity. I walk forward, once again it was infinity. But eventually the trail ended at spot with the best view on the hill. I felt a sensation of Deja vu which felt like infinity.

On my way, I saw a tree fallen over on the path roots and all. I intended to move it to the side, but a playful side of me thought "what if I tried bringing this tree back to life." So I took both my hands, placed it on the tree trunk, and asked the Grim Reaper to bring back the tree, even for just a moment. Then I asked "How much life force from a human would it take to bring back a tree?", then an answer "A fraction of a fraction of a fraction." Completely negligible. I had asked the universe before, how long I would remain on the earth, and the answer came "118 years", so I thought it was fine. Dandy even. So I closed my eyes, placed my hands on the tree trunk, and asked for the tree to be brought back for a moment, so that it may live a precious moment more. To the tree, it was probably everything. I couldn't tell if it worked or not; I  saw some of leaves rustle, but still it could have simply been the wind that was blowing periodically. So I got up, moved the tree to the side, and continued on my path. Once I reached the clearing mentioned earlier and sat down, I noticed a single droplet of seed stuck to my hair from the tree. Then I smiled, cried a bit, and knew that it had worked.

I stayed and looked at the view, had a bit more to smoke, and continued on my path. I slid (more accurately scooted my way) down the hill. After a while of walking around, I  wanted to go home, but I had lost the path. It was getting dark, but for some reason I had no fear. I knew that if I simply followed my intuition and kept walking forward, I would arrive home. My intuition took me through all sorts of places. Down the stairs. Behind some people's homes. At one point, I saw two creepy scarecrow dolls hung up for Halloween. I suppose it wouldn't be fun without some terror. Eventually I somehow found my way back to a familiar area: my neighbor's home. Somehow through all those weird paths, loops, stairways, I had found my way there. Sheer luck? Nah. I saw a large poster of the virgin Mary staring right at me through the window. I put my hands together, apologized for intruding, and went home. It's been a while since then, but the incident was memorable enough and impactful enough for me to remember it today.

Those of you who are "far on the spiritual path", do you have any interesting experiences to share?

Edited November 8, 2020 by SpaceLaika01