Getting Started

[selva]

I finished my college one and half year before,during my college days i was totally depressed.Actually i dont express myself too often and that introvet kind.People arond me was very active in all activities.I just tried to copy their behaviour,but that didnt work.I was not able focus on my studies too.Its hard to tell the emotion i had undergone those days ,i feel lonely always, eventhough friends are with me.It was like hell,always felt living in a dark world.I am not able to understand whats happening to myself.Still i used to hangout with friends every place they used to go,but that dark feeling is always with me.I decided to do something on my situations.After thinking about whats going wrong,i came to know that my perception of reality is totally silly.My mind is full of illusion thoughts not related to reality,not having the common perception that everyone has.From there i started doing work on myself,doing meditation ,watching self help videos,jornaling like that.After finishing college i was at house not going anywhere ,slowly i got out from that dark feeling.Now i am FEELING POSITIVE , understand things and decided to move forward.So I decided to focus  on my CAREER.The first thing i am gonnna do is get a job because its already late,so practically i can move out of my house get in touch with people and my minds also stays in reality.After that i will work on other areas of my life.Like this i planned,but in the process of searching job itself i feel like lot of things to be worked.Everything is interelated,SO MY QUESTION IS WHERE TO FOCUS,HOW TO KICKSTART THE WHOLE PROCESS,i am confused.Now i came to a point where my mind is wide open to LEARN GROW EXPERIENCE life.

Please suggest your view and ideas.

THANK YOU

[The Monk]

@selva I personally think the best thing to do in order to kickstart your life for an amazing future, would be to firstly find your life purpose, and once that's done you'll be on your way to an amazing life, with outstanding amounts of motivation and determination to meet goals and objectives. Which can be bought on Leo's Website. 

[selva]

@Aamir King thanks.Finding life purpose will take a  long period.Right now what i need is taking steps in current situation that is getting a job because its already late due to my bad mindset.

[The Monk]

@selva Then motivate your self and just do it!