Meditation

[Harvey]

i need your advise guys i have one issue on meditation usually i do meditation session morning  at 7  to 7:30 AM when someone from my family making me busy at that time then i missed my session that is make me so angry but i'm consciously aware of that i'am angry  so i need your help what to do? is it OK  being angry ? how to overcome this issue?

[Prabhaker]

There is no need to throw anger on anybody. You can go to your bathroom, you can go on a long walk; it means that something is inside that needs fast activity so that it is released. Just do a little jogging and you will feel it is released, or take a pillow and beat the pillow, fight with the pillow, and bite the pillow until your hands and teeth are relaxed. Within a five-minute catharsis you will feel unburdened, and once you know this you will never throw it on anybody, because that is absolutely foolish.

[Guivs]

Anger is not a problem, but look@Harvey , the issue is just right here.  

The ego claims everything, I really mean every f.. thing! Anger is not an issue, but when it becomes "MY anger", it gets so heavy! Every thought passing through would have no impact whatsoever, but as soon as it is considered "MINE", oh boy!

In the same way, meditation is not an issue, but then the ego claims it also : now you are THE MEDITATOR instead of meditating or being meditated. And therefore, you want to attain something, have spiritual experiences, so that your ego can claim a new identity of being "a spiritual seeker", which is the same problem really...

Every thought or emotion would be so light and uncared for, but now that you claim it to be YOURS, it carries the weight to traumatize you. So, just realize that thoughts were never yours to begin with, and have no care for any of them. 

Look for the MY in every situation, there lies the problem.

Why do you think you have so much thoughts during a day?

It is because the ego does not exist and needs to make you believe that it does, bombarding you with thousands of thoughts a day (instead of meditating, you are THE meditator - instead of SEEING, you are the Seer... )

Recognize the illusion of "MY, ME, MINE". 

Embrace everything that is happening in meditation, because this is the only experience that truly exists right now. All thoughts in your head entertain what's NOT happening and a sense of YOU to whom all experiences happen, but you are the experience itself  

Try this, if you feel like meditating, do it, but recognize the illusion of "I" and therefore accept every moment of life as it is the only truth  

[Harvey]

@Prabhaker I will try the pillow that one comes easy

[Harvey]

@Guivs  you are right it's ego asking for doing meditation on the same time in order to prove to himself he is controlling time I just realized that he makes me angry because I didn't feed him on time.

but during mediation I try to not be meditator as your said instead I'm trying to here and now observing whatever thought is coming without going after each thoughts.

[Guivs]

@HarveyYes, and it needs the concept of time to make a case that it exists