The sense of 'I' does not want to except it's unreal

[VeganAwake]

It will fight tooth and nail through and through.

Why?

Because it does not want to disappear. It simply cannot conceive of its own unreality, it doesn't have the capacity.

It typically has decades of energy or inertia keeping the hamster wheel spinning.(running the rat race) (identifying with the thoughts)

The trick however is not in denying or fighting this illusion.

Rather look closely and notice its unreality.

When it's really been rattled or loosened up good, one of it's last ditch emergency attempts to keep itself intact is to become the Spiritual do-gooder 'self/ego.

The spiritual ego is extra sneaky because it appears to fall away and then sneaks in the back door as the new higher 'true self' or Self with a capital S.

But this new spiritual do-gooder Self will eventually start showing its incredibly High levels of spiritual narcissism (usually within a short amount of time). It's very good at disguising it's egoic love agenda as unconditional love... and why wouldn't it? , it wants to survive.... it says why get rid of me, I'm all about goodness and love.

Notice the special spiritual ego!!

Look and simply notice, that's all it takes!!

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[zeroISinfinity]

You are Infinite Goodness and Love. Wake up. 

 

[mandyjw]

Isn't it interesting how similar yet vastly different narcissism and self inquiry is? Narcissus ignores all others to stare back at himself only. Good or bad? 

I guess we can see ourSelves. I find this both beautiful and incredibly obnoxious sometimes. It's like throwing a boomerang in order to hit someone else and then smack, hits you right in the head. All you can do is laugh at yourself. 

[SoonHei]

The SELF wants to deny it's the only ONE.

[The0Self]

It’s only as real as it seems.

[VeganAwake]

The spiritual search is by nature a very self centered desire and awakening ends up being a very personal and impersonal experience simultaneously.

What ends up being rather surprising is that often that drive to go out and save the universe actually falls away because it's then recognized that the only mechanism that was fueling that desire was in fact the ego with its relentless(something needs to be done and I'm just the one to do it) specialness requirement.

Ultimately it ends up being fair game... and whatever happens is what's happening.

[Tim R]

Just now, VeganAwake said:

Ultimately it ends up being fair game... and whatever happens is what's happening.

That's exactly the point?