Releasing unconscious repression and anger

[Lyubov]

Sometimes I feel like I have sort of pent up emotions of anger and hurt that expresses itself through various outlets of life, subtly. I’ve done a lot to release it about 60% of it is gone, but it still feels like these is some still energetically left. It makes me feel ashamed and disgusted I have it. It feels like it’s part of my shadow and I’m maybe 70% conscious of the pattern. How can I further work to release it? Some of it feels trapped. As a young child I was made to feel deeply ashamed when I was angry and was not given enough love by my parent when I felt this way. They were dysfunctional and ignorant didn’t know how to regulate their own emotions or how to give proper love and understanding to a child. This was only compounded growing up and in adolescence where I felt further shame and repression as a rebellious teen in trouble at home and at school. How can I further let go of this trapped energy and accept how it has subtly seeped it’s way into aspects of my life?

Edited October 21, 2020 by Lyubov

[PurpleTree]

how have you released these other 60%?

[Lyubov]

1 minute ago, PurpleTree said:

how have you released these other 60%?

Psychedelics, therapy and journaling. Cultivating compassion and self love. Meditation did a little but the formers were most powerful.

Edited October 21, 2020 by Lyubov

[mandyjw]

Explore, dream, go for those dreams, follow your heart and go with the flow of your inspiration. Anything in the way of THAT gets burned up. It has to. 

[Lyubov]

23 minutes ago, mandyjw said:

Explore, dream, go for those dreams, follow your heart and go with the flow of your inspiration. Anything in the way of THAT gets burned up. It has to. 

Thanks, great advice. I am focusing on my art and I have been making progress in this domain recently which feels amazing

[mandyjw]

1 hour ago, Lyubov said:

Thanks, great advice. I am focusing on my art and I have been making progress in this domain recently which feels amazing

Awesome!  I've found that art has a weird way of healing, it can even point out stuff about ourselves that we never saw before. Everything comes full circle.