I have had some amazing awakenings to love, However I still feel like I am interrupting something wrong. Intuitively I believe I should do my part in making the world a better place. I should be nice to people and work on my life purpose. But I have this darkness that says there is no point if this is illusory. Then I have a counter point: Like Neem Karoli Baba says " All One" , possibly meaning that God Consciousness / Love, and life are all one thing. Should I do good for my Karma / make the world better for others and reincarnations.  What is the point in being good in life? It feels bad to dis engage and fuck off in life. But I have a hard time engaging when I can't see the reason to do good. Should I just do it for goodness' sake itself?  Are people even real? I got glimpses that we are all one. Are other people as real as me and why should I try to help and improve peoples lives.? (Please note I currently do do this, I'm just feeling a bit stuck right now. )  Thanks very much, TLDR: Why bother loving and engaging in life ?