Understanding Nothingness on Weed

[Leo Gura]

44 minutes ago, Kazman said:

 

@Leo Gura I’ve read that book but didn’t think too much of his anxiety attack. Just re-read that passage, seems like his ego was struggling through its toss into the great abyss. 
Here it is, for fun:

MY LIFE HAD BEEN ALTERNATELY inching or leaping upward: I was proud of my job on the Smothers Brothers’ show. I had some cash. My sex life was abundant and selfish. Things were rolling along nicely when I experienced a crushing psychological surprise. One night I was off to the movies with my friends John McClure, George McKelvey, and his wife, Carole. We were going to see Mel Brooks’s The Producers, and we decided to smoke a little pot, which had become a dietary staple for me. So now I was high. In the car on the way to the theater, I felt my mind being torn from its present location and lifted into the ether. My discomfort intensified, and I experienced an eerie distancing from my own self that crystallized into morbid doom. I mutely waited for the feeling to pass. It didn’t, and I finally said, “I feel strange.” We got out of the car, and John, George, and Carole walked me along Sunset Boulevard in the night. I decided to go into the theater, thinking it might be distracting. During the film, I sat in stoic silence as my heart began to race above two hundred beats per minute and the saliva drained from my mouth so completely that I could not move my tongue. I assumed this was the heart attack I had been waiting for, though I wasn’t feeling pain. I was, however, experiencing extreme fear; I thought I was dying, and I can’t explain to you why I just sat there. After the movie, I considered checking myself in to a hospital. But if I went to the hospital, I would miss work the next day, which might make me expendable at CBS, where my career was just launching. My friends walked me along Sunset again, and I remember humming, “Whenever I feel afraid, I hold my head erect and whistle a happy tune” from The King and I. I spent the night on George and Carole’s couch in absolute terror. I kept wondering, “Am I dying?” but was more concerned with the question “Do I have to quit my job?” I survived the night and struggled in to work the next morning. I was not relieved, but I was calmer; I confessed to Bob Einstein what had happened and found that as soon as I discussed the symptoms, they arose again with full intensity. However, I somehow maintained my implacable façade. The cycle was unbreakable. Any relief was followed by the worry of recurrence, which itself provoked the symptoms. After a few weeks, a list of triggers developed. I couldn’t go back into a movie theater, and I didn’t for at least ten years. I never smoked pot again, or got involved in the era’s preoccupation with illicit substances (I’m sure this event helped me avoid the scourge of cocaine)

A classic normie reaction to a nondual/mystical experience.

That's how most ignorant teens react to a dose of psychedelics. It feels like death or madness so they try to forget it as quickly as possible and never peak behind that curtain again.

It takes a mature mind to appreciate such an excursion beyond material reality. 

[arlin]

33 minutes ago, Leo Gura said:

That's how most ignorant teens react to a dose of psychedelics. It feels like death or madness so they try to forget it as quickly as possible and never peak behind that curtain again.

It takes a mature mind to appreciate such an excursion beyond material reality. 

OMG this is me.

And you know what? Im pretty glad to forget about all of this. LOL. 

[Arthur]

Understanding reality using science:

[Espaim]

Lol this is hilarious

[Kazman]

Hi all again!
So to follow up on this topic: what are your recommendations for me?
Leo talks about 50 psychedelic trips in his video about psychedelics. In my case, do you think one ganja-night qualifies as one trip?
About a week ago I smoked a pipe and had maybe my strongest awakening so far, it got me crying and laughing and shocked me several times.

I feel like it's happening without substance as well, meditation, inquiry, it's all getting super-boosted, I feel more like I'm channeling things and that I have more power to release suffering since I notice it much quicker when it occurs. I'm almost afraid to keep smoking. Should I stick to a once a week commitment for growth and understanding, or chill for a while ? I don't wanna stop but I'm afraid of the powerful effect it has over me.

I also worry that it's making my brain foggy, but it could also be a lack of mental activity that actually brings me MORE clarity. 

I'm feeling kind of alone and scared in all of this... as we all are. Thank you for your support.

[oysterman]

@Kazman What would Martin do?