i need advice . life purpose, taking time seriously

[Avi Khomutovsky]

 

hey everybody this is my first post here, i really feel a little bit confused and little bit helpless right now

i also wanted to say i love the vibes here i read a lot of posts and it feels good to see so many people which are like minded and knows about leos content and more and are so engaged)) 

i work at a 9 to 5 job as a cook, and its been two years since i work there

at the last couple of months i worked really hard because of lack of employees at this restaurant, the bosses are really not doing it from passion more like a  Extinguishing fires approach to their business you know what i mean?  

so i kind of know after doing lots of different thing like photography, a tried to go to art school but then realized i love movies more and i had a phase that i really wanted to pursue that and now then i realized i have big passion for music and playing the guitar and creating a band and i have some cool vision and i enjoy perusing that. but then life hits me and all the employees that i worked with almost all gone so i had a feeling i should move faster toward my dreams. and my best guess was doing a digital marketing course so i can accomplish better  Conditions at my  day to day  life job because right now i work physically so much that i am too exhausted when its weekend.

couple of months go by, i moved to live alone, and now i see how its boring for me and i cant see myself doing that marketing stuff, i even got to know someone in that course that had some connecting and wanted me to basically do a business when we sell some scams on the internet of make money online,bitcoin revolution wolf of wall street movie kind of thing . and that didn't feel right so i am not gonna do it, so now i am thinking about changing my course to ethical hacking because that sound more interesting suddenly although at the start my plan was learning something which have guaranteed job, and this one has even more money pay check in it. so i really have this jump here and there mechanism in me i see that. and i am thinking wait i am going to study then work for a year or two to save and what then i can work on my music and do that? and i am worried that then if i need money and i want to go back to work i cant because a lot of things changed and if i am not perusing that career seriously i cant have a real value there, because i need to be aware always of the changes in this neigh and i cant really approach it like that comfy pillow approach to get money in good conditions and something which is pretty interesting and challenging  can you see the way i see it?

i told my boss i want to quit for half time job to be able to study this course and have enough just to pay my bills. but i see it will take a long time since he will find enough workers. 

i am thinking maybe i am just fooling myself and i should quit that job that my boss said he will give me a raise after i asked twice and he said yes and he didn't. i work too hard there and they dont seem to care or even fix stuff in their business that just basic and they are waiting for it to be broken. they dont even help get the whole food done they prefer let their employees  run without rest and literally smoke weed and just chill, i love them and the place but those are real things that are going on and its hard to be positive all the time when you see the approach is still Complacent you know? nothing seems to really change on a deep level and i know its the easiest to say this things on others but its real, you work there and it gets worse and one of the employees that left told me that when i just started there my I laughed and didn't really felt that, it is like that. they simply dont have management skills you know.

  not i am thinking maybe i should just quit, give them a month or two and say goodbye and just find a job that i am able to just pay enough for rent basic survival needs and work on my music, that kind of garyvee approach, and  read books, do consciousness work  , exercise, contemplate, take time off sometimes for a trip and do retreats, later doing psychedelics.  

i really looking for advice, i know i should be strategic but maybe i am doing it backward what do you brothers and sisters think? 

i wish you all a wonder full life if you actually read all that, and even if you dont, for all of you here, leo thank you for your work, and your life purpose course is really a work of genius that really opened my to so much stuff, i changed a lot because of you, you are fascinating human being. 

i highly recommend it, if you though that maybe you should but it, you should you wont regret it!

wish you all the best! 

 

Edited September 4, 2020 by Avi Khomutovsky