Transpersonal Journal

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One key and tricky difference between the personal stage and the transpersonal stage is the sense of free will. Transpersonal must as I see it mean the absence of free will or it would be the personal stage.

In theory it's really simple. There is only one reality, hence only one will. I will practice experiencing reality as this one will. So that my actions and other people's actions are the same will.

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An insight that now came to me is that if it's true that there is only one will, then it's that will which will make me realize it or not. And it may be impossible to predict beforehand when that will happen because each moment is more complex than the previous one.

Stephen Wolfram has shown how it's impossible to predict the results of even many simple processes. One has to actually do all the calculations needed, step by step in order to find the answer. In the same way reality progresses step by step and cannot generally be predicted beforehand.

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I started listening to this long video where Brian Scott is reading one of Joseph Benner's books. I had never heard of Benner before Brian's live stream of another Benner book. It sounds like Benner is talking about the transpersonal stage.

 

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I found two traps in spiritual development: to gather information as beliefs and measuring progress in terms of those beliefs. In these videos Peter Ralston talks about the danger of beliefs and Teal Swan talks about the problem with wanting to reach a goal. Teal also talked about how desires themselves are not the problem. The problem is the fixed ideas about needing desires fulfilled.

I will examine my own beliefs. One thing I can notice is that my beliefs, even those that might be correct, are a part of my crystallized ego! And I will practice taking my desires as being a compass instead of trying to transcend desires.

Heck, the fluid ego that I equate with the transpersonal stage might simply be a recognition of the limitation of fixed beliefs and desires. And when the fixedness of the mind at the personal stage is recognized an opening may happen into the fluid state. I was unsure about the word "fixedness" that I used now, but there actually is such a term! And it matches in part the idea of lack of flow:

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"Fixedness is the inability to realize that something known to have a particular use may also be used to perform other functions. When one is faced with a new problem, fixedness blocks one’s ability to use old tools in novel ways." - Psychology Today

 

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Is the state of a fluid ego possible. I think that there is a hint about that possibility in what in psychology is called the flow state.

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"In positive psychology, a flow state, also known colloquially as being in the zone, is the mental state in which a person performing some activity is fully immersed in a feeling of energized focus, full involvement, and enjoyment in the process of the activity. In essence, flow is characterized by the complete absorption in what one does, and a resulting transformation in one's sense of time." - Wikipedia

The main difference between the flow state and the fluid ego is that the flow state is only a temporary escape from the crystallized ego and when the activity is over the crystallized ego state returns. Also, another difference is that the flow state requires some focused activity that allows the escape from the crystallized ego.

The fluid ego as I imagine it is a flow state without the need for focused activity and is a permanent stage since there is no crystallized ego state to return to. The fluid ego totally replaces the crystallized ego instead of being just a temporary state of flow.

I will shift my practice to observing the fixedness of my own thoughts, emotions and physical condition. This will still involve inner body awareness practice for example since that's a way of observing the fixedness. The same with conscious confusion and conscious suffering. The idea is to combine the different forms of practice into a single mindful observation of my crystallized ego. If it works as I imagine it, it will produce a deliberate separation between what is flow and what is fixedness and make the fluid stage grow and the fixedness gradually dissolve.

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I found that Teal Swan also has other videos related to flow and fixedness. I will take a look at these two.

 

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Maybe the trickiest thing with the fluid ego is that practicing flow is still to do something! Even meditation is a form of doing something. The same with all kinds of mindfulness practice and spiritual exercises.

Even hatha yoga, the kind about practicing of different body postures, that's a form of doing and the same with tai chi. The tricky part is that practices like yoga and meditation do produce beneficial results, yet they cement the doing aspect of the crystallized ego.

So what to do then? My approach for the moment is to stick to the simple practice of observing my fixedness and questioning it. It's still a practice but a minimal one. And to have the intent to reach a flow state without needing an activity in order to activate it.

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I started listening to the first part of Leo's new video. He said that our society is still a kind of Dark Ages. Good analogy! That's the collective personal stage of development. And he also uses a computer metaphor for how our minds become programmed.

My take on that analogy is that not only does the apps in the computer need to change, not only the operating system, not even the bios. The whole software stack needs to be replaced from a standalone isolated one to a distributed system which adapts instantly to different situations and can access information globally instead of locally in the form of memories in the crystallized ego. This much more flexible system is the transpersonal stage.

I will compare my view of the transpersonal stage with how Leo uses the computer metaphor.

 

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Ouch, if I take my own computer system analogy seriously, it means that I need to let my whole mind melt basically, including all my personal memories and knowledge. This could be seriously crazy stuff, haha.

Will I try that? Dissolve my whole mind? Well, first of all, that's not something I can do as a crystallized ego. It's the crystallized ego itself that has to dissolve! But I can open up my mind to the possibility of such radical change and see what happens. That's pretty safe.

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Leo's final point [spoiler alert ] in the video is that ideas change our life. Total understanding of reality is possible, he said.

I actually had a similar idea just minutes before I heard Leo mentioning it. My idea is related to my previous computer analogy. How can I allow all my personal memories to dissolve? Isn't that destruction? No, it isn't. Because my personal memories are a part of the Akashic records.

And instead of only having access to my own personal and isolated memories, I instead let that narrow standalone structure dissolve and plug into the Akashic records directly. Presto! Access to total reality. Leo probably meant something different such as direct perception of reality, but anyway.

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The Akashic records have all information. Does that mean that with access to the Akashic records someone could for example look up the password to Bill Gates' bank account and take all his money? In principle yes, but in practice no, because that would be a very low personal stage behavior. Even looking up Donald Trump's tax returns is low personal stage devilry.

At the transpersonal stage there must as I see it be an automatic integrity which means that we can only access information that is necessary for us and is in harmony with totality. And even accessing the Akashic records is probably something that depends on the level of development even at the transpersonal stage and beyond. But it's a huge shift and even things like collective memory access will be possible I think.

 

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I found that Brian Scott has guided meditations about the Akashic records. I doubt that it's the same as I have in mind but as a start I will listen to at least this video.

 

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I find that there are hints here and there on the internet about a transpersonal stage, but it's very vague, very compartmentalized and still heavily focused on the personal stage.

It's almost as if the combined information on the internet about the transpersonal stage is pointing to something beyond information. And I guess that makes sense if the transpersonal stage as I assume also means trans-conceptual. Meaning, the transpersonal stage can't be described! Or at least, can't be revealed to us yet.

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Leo said that we were never born physically. And Bruce Lipton said that humanity is not born yet. And Jesus Christ came with a sword to break up the family unit.

Well, I don't know if Jesus existed or not as an actual individual, but if he did, not even he was born physically. So animalistic life with a family is perhaps a false view of reality, and being married is just to slap a government licence and a pretty party on top of animal pairing behavior, very primitive, instinctual and low consciousness stuff.

This, then, means that our world is not even born yet, and that the coronavirus crisis is just exaggerating the lack of unity our fallen (unborn) world still is in. Leo also said that we are still in the Dark Ages. And that's similar to Plato's analogy of the cave. We are still living in the cave, metaphorically speaking.

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The most far out New Age teachings are likely false, especially when they conflict with each other. However, to really think outside the box (or cave) it's useful to look at New Age information. The idea of walk-ins for example may have truth to it. And even as was mentioned on an Ayahuasca channel, there are people who are NPCs, that means non-playing characters.

That's two extremely far-out concepts, walk-ins and NPCs. But putting them together actually makes sense, because the NPCs don't have consciousness to begin with and only when a walk-in enters the NPC does it become a real human. Think movies like Avatar and the Matrix but for real. And the purpose of walk-ins I speculate is to raise the consciousness of the planet, so then walk-ins would likely be at the transpersonal stage.

I will take a look at this video to see if walk-ins are considered to be at the transpersonal stage or if they are some demonic possessions at lower stages of development.

 

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Now I will really go woo woo  but maybe with some truth to it. Bruce Lipton said that the Matrix movie is a documentary. Does this mean that we are living in a computer simulation? No, I think Lipton meant it literally in how humanity at the moment is split into different kinds of people.

There are mainstream experts today who believe that we live in a computer simulation. Leo said that we are NOT living in a computer simulation. And according to my model we can't be living in a simulation because reality manifests instantly, which means that there is no past outside of the now available for the creation of simulations.

In the Matrix movie there were people trapped in the Matrix and a group of people outside the matrix in Zion and agents of the machine world outside the Matrix who could "walk in" into people's bodies. In reality I do believe that there is a split between three groups of people, and, crazy as it might sound at first, one group could be NPCs!

Brian Scott talked about Ruth Montgomery's description of walk ins, and indeed they seem to be at a high stage of development such as the transpersonal stage. And more and more walk ins will enter our world according to the video. So the scenario as I speculate is that the NPCs will be replaced by walk-ins over time.

Since there isn't any computer simulation running our world, the machine world agents are not computer programs. My current guess is that they instead are the Nephilim:

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"The Nephilim were on the earth in those days—and also afterward—when the sons of God went to the daughters of humans and had children by them. They were the heroes of old, men of renown." - Genesis 6:4

But where do the walk-ins come from? Here my guess is that the walk-ins come from the breakaway civilization. The Bible talks about a third of humanity being killed and also in another passage that one fourth of humanity will be killed. So which is it? My answer is that it's both! When the walk-ins are considered separate from the NPCs, then it's one fourth, and when they are counted as one, it's a one third, so both passages in the Bible are correct. And 'death' here means an NPC being replaced by a walk-in, so there is no actual death since the NPCs are just animated avatars without consciousness.

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If the outrageous claim that NCPs are real, then what is their purpose? It's fair to assume that the breakaway civilization has reached and gone beyond a technological singularity. This means as Arthur C. Clarke put it, technology indistinguishable from magic. And in turn it means that the NPCs are extremely advanced technology avatars.

The purpose of the NPCs as I see it is as a placeholder for the members of the breakaway civilization. At some point they need to integrate with the public society, but it would be tedious as heck for them to participate in our low stage of development with wars, famine, disease and all kinds of horrible situations. So they created NPCs to function in the public society until we have reached a high enough level of development (the transpersonal stage) and then they can replace the NPCs with their real selves.

I got the idea of NPCs from this show called Beyond The Veil:

 

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Ayahuasca that they talk about in Beyond The Veil contains DMT which is a powerful psychedelics. Carl Calleman has a theory about evolution based on the Mayan calendar with nine waves. Each wave is a new evolutionary stage that brings in new capabilities. One of these waves started our human civilization and that was related to the mind being able to handle dualities.

Today we are in the ninth and last wave, Calleman says, and it's about unity consciousness. Only a few people today have reached the level of unity, he thinks. To me that sounds like the transpersonal stage. What psychedelics do Calleman said is to temporarily remove the compartmentalization of the mind that leads to dualities, so the mind enters a kind of unity which can be useful he said, especially for people who are very stuck in the dualistic stage.

But he also said that the unity stage is entered, not alone, but as a connection between people. A collective consciousness! That is what I think it is. And it makes sense, because a single individual having unity consciousness alone is an incomplete form of unity.

 

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I think I have enough ideas now for a while, about the transpersonal stage, all the way from mainstream science to far-out New Age ideas. Now I will focus on relaxing my mind and let things happen automatically. Roger Castillo said in this most recent video that an automatic process of deepening understanding can happen. He also says that life as a whole is an automatic process, which I believe is correct. A bit of confirmation bias on my part but I think it's useful to stick to some beliefs or there will be too much contradicting information in the mind. If some information is false then that will sooner or later become known.

 

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Haha, I got angry and sent a complaint (hopefully polite enough) to a company that has been spamming me. Interestingly the company was hired by the government (municipal level) and it's surprising that they lack competence since they recruited a corrupt company (it's unlikely a mistake since the same thing has happened before).

I seldom do things like that because I find conflicts tedious. The good thing (besides preventing corruption) is that it made me realize that this is how the personal stage will become more and more crippled! As society becomes more interconnected it will become more and more difficult to get away with corruption. This will basically force individuals and organizations to evolve into higher stages of development.