Transpersonal Journal

[Anderz]

Aren't I self-biased by assuming that the transpersonal stage will lead to inner peace and harmony and things like that? Yes, but I will cling to that belief because that's how I want it to be. For example Ken Wilber said that higher levels of consciousness means more suffering and at the same time more capacity for accepting suffering, something like that. That sounds horrible to me and also it seems wrong, because suffering is a form of inner conflict in my opinion.

Sure, suffering serves a purpose both as a warning signal and also as a way for nature to push us to develop into higher stages, but suffering in my opinion is also a sign of an imbalance. And the transpersonal stage is a state of balance. That's my self-biased definition. For more information about self-bias, Leo has this video:

 

[Anderz]

But self-bias based on wishful thinking just because I want it to be true, isn't that crazy and even potentially a dangerous belief? Well, it's not entirely just my own wishful thinking. Religions often talk about inner peace such as "the peace of God that transcends all understanding" in the Bible.

And it seems rational to me that a higher stage of development means more harmony by comprising a larger whole than in the lower stages. And suffering to me is disharmony even though necessary at the lower stages of development.

[Anderz]

The personal stage is very much about control. And collectively the accelerating technological progress needs to be controlled. And I think that Trump knowingly or unknowingly killed the U.S. semiconductor industry with all his China bans because it removes a lot of profit from the U.S. companies and saves China's face when it comes to detaching from western dependence and launch their own superior microchips, both in terms of price and performance.

This will allow China to become dominating in the world in terms of information technology which then in turn allows the technology to become Orwellian with surveillance and with control over who can use the technology and who is allow to develop the core technologies. It also opens up the move into digital currencies, first with the Chinese e-yuan (DCEP) which will then force the western world to counter it with a global currency such as issued by the IMF.

[Anderz]

Conspiracy theories are basically just a distraction. The real control is the process of evolution into a larger holon, at first a "New World Order" at the collective personal stage which then will be transformed into a new-world order at the transpersonal stage globally.

The first stage will includes more top-down control with surveillance and development of new technologies such as AI, robotics and 3D printing in the hands of trusted tech companies and institutions. The reason is that this kind of powerful technology is too dangerous in the hands of the masses if unchecked. For example 3D printing of weapons and later on even nanotech and biotech weapons needs to be kept away from criminals, terrorists and unstable people. Even AI and robotics have similar dangers.

[Anderz]

Eckhart Tolle has this new video where he makes an interesting comparison between the kind of turbulence that individuals go through as a part of the evolution of consciousness and what is happening right now as the turbulence in society, also that as a part of evolution of consciousness but on a collective level. Seemingly a very different perspective than my global technology control view but it's the same process!

 

[Anderz]

Leo presented in the self-bias video a clear explanation of what I think of as the personal stage of development. He basically said that we don't give a sh*t about other people. Very true! Someone can have lost their child and other horrors presented in the news and we hardly even bother or notice it. If our own child would get murdered on the other hand, that's an incredible trauma.

Why is that? My take on it is that we have to separate our feelings like that at the personal stage because otherwise the burden of suffering would be far to great to handle. It's only at the transpersonal stage that we genuinely can feel the same about other people. At the transpersonal stage there is harmony with others, so there is a joining of emotions instead of conflicts and a disconnect as in the personal stage.

[Anderz]

Aha! This is powerful. Inner peace is a result of shared feelings. I started experiencing an increase of inner peace when I had the idea that feelings are connected between people. And I believe it's a real effect and not a form of autosuggestion.

And the inner peace can be shared even with people in a very conflict-ridden personal stage, because if they resonate with the inner peace then their crystallized egos will start to dissolve too! And if they aren't ready for that it will have no effect. So the inner peace can safely be shared with everybody.

[Anderz]

I think one needs to feel both the peace and the suffering at the same time. Because reality is one wholeness. I have started to feel both peace and suffering and focusing on only one side feels lopsided.

Thoughts are different. The "me" is itself a thought form so even though separating thoughts from feelings is a split too it's a useful practice. The idea is that in the ordinary state of consciousness at the personal stage thoughts and feelings are glued together so it's useful to unglue that bondage to allow it to become sorted out.

[Anderz]

Leo said in the toxic life video that what narcotics do is giving a simulated higher state of consciousness. That seems valid. And for example heroin gives the person temporarily a feeling of inner peace. So what Leo indirectly is saying is that a higher states of consciousness result in inner peace.

But what if both inner peace and suffering are connected between people? If I focus on both, how do I know that the inner peace will increase instead of the suffering? My answer is that evolution leads to increased complexity and larger and more harmonious wholes. so the inner peace is actually a stronger force than the suffering in the long run.

What this means if correct is that by focusing on all my feelings the inner peace will gradually and perhaps even suddenly increase while the suffering will dissolve. And my way of knowing if that's true is to actually do the practice which may take months, hopefully not years, yikes.

Edited September 28, 2020 by Anderz

[Anderz]

I find it difficult to know for sure how reality works, but I think my current view might be accurate especially with the recent Wolfram Physics Project being similar. In this view what has happened in the past in inevitable. And that's useful for questioning regrets. And even for questioning evil things done in the past.

And another consequence of that I realized is that the future is the same way! What will happen in the future is set in stone and is perfect order and even as I believe a structure of infinite intelligence, and I even think of God as being that intelligence, not some separate being or something like that.

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"I the Lord do not change. So you, the descendants of Jacob, are not destroyed." - Malachi 3:6

 

[Anderz]

If life is an automatic process and leading to higher consciousness, shouldn't we be able to just kick back and let the universe transport us into the transpersonal stage effortlessly? Absolutely! BUT, as long as we remain at the personal stage of development the idea of an automatic life seems horrible, mechanical, meaningless and like being a victim. Not good.

So my guess at the moment is that we need to reach a high enough level of development at the personal stage where the automatic option becomes available and useful. And I think it will start to happen when we recognize that personal control is a delusional and phony stage of development.

[Anderz]

Actually, I have started practicing the automatic life approach. It looks like I'm changing my practice every minute but the automatic life practice could be really effective. I can see intellectually how it would work so I will give it a try.

How to do the automatic life practice? I use the method of assuming that life is automatic and then explore what happens. It's necessarily phony at the beginning since I still feel like I have free will and personal control. The idea is that after a while the sense of personal control will start to melt away.

[Anderz]

The crystallized ego is always uncertain and is fueled by the confusion caused by the belief in separation. It believes that the past is certain and that the future is uncertain. I am challenging that belief and propose that both the past and the future are certain.

With the future being certain, the thoughts of uncertainty are illusions. It's a necessary illusion for the purpose of developing unique individuals and a unique civilization. It's an illusion necessary only at the personal stage of development however. The era of uncertainty I argue is over. Historically we have been there, done that and got the bloody T-shirt.

[Anderz]

I found this older video where Leo talks about becoming a sage. That gave me the idea of becoming an automatic sage. The idea is based on the belief that reality is certain, determined and changeless at the unmanifested level. And my initial practice is to deliberately experiencing life including myself as mechanical. That's actually a false perspective because reality is an increase of novelty and not some mechanical machine, but it's the perspective that the crystallized ego has about automatic life so I will start at the personal stage and see if  the experience starts to change into the transpersonal stage governed by the Tao rather than by mechanical laws.

 

[Anderz]

I just realized that my automatic sage practice is similar to the Matrix movie where the machine world was the evil artificial intelligence that had put humans into pods to be harvested like batteries.

The difference, or maybe the deeper similarity is that the machine world is in my analogy how automatic life appears to us at the personal stage. That's the mechanical world in the Matrix ruled by the Architect. The transpersonal stage is represented by the Oracle, who also is from the machine world but who is intuitive rather than analytical.

And our society is still at the personal stage so it's like a Matrix where our crystallized egos are programmed by society and used as "batteries" to fuel society. Unplugging from the personal stage Matrix can be done by recognizing that we are feeding it with our worry and uncertainty and instead start living as one with reality.

Edited September 28, 2020 by Anderz

[Anderz]

As a practical example of the automatic life practice, when we are at the personal stage a common notion is that we have to worry about paying our bills. We are then slaves to society and are "serving money" as Jesus said.

First of all, why the need for worry? Worry about paying the bills? It's perhaps just a figure of speech but the word 'worry' is suspicious. And also 'have to', says who? Do we really have to worry or even pay our bills?

The automatic life practice in this example is to do nothing about the bills. And then see what happens! Maybe the bills get payed, maybe they don't, in either case what we do we do as the Tao and not as slaves to society at the personal stage.

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"The sage does nothing, yet he leaves nothing undone. The ordinary person is always doing things, yet many more are left to be done." - Tao Te Ching 38:15

 

Edited September 28, 2020 by Anderz

[Anderz]

One funny, or scary practice depending on how to look at it is to let the body control itself. Then the body including muscle movements is only observed by the mind without volitional control over it.

Breathing is an example of a function that sits between volitional and autonomous control. Usually the breathing is automatic but we can also use willpower and breathe with volitional control. The automatic breathing is a subconscious activity which can also be made conscious by observing and being consciously aware of one's breathing happening automatically.

The automatic body practice is like the mindful breathing where the breathing is just observed without controlling it. The difference is that in the automatic body practice all the muscle movements of the body are observed! Not just the breathing. So that's the scary part, because who knows what the body will do by itself, haha.

[Anderz]

This is deep. I haven't checked if any scientific research has been done about it but I'm pretty sure that traumas from past generations are stored in the body through epigenetic inheritance. And mainly through the maternal lineage. In the Bible and other texts like that huge importance is put on paternal lineages. I think that's silly because it's the mother's whole body that develops the fetus, including programming it with emotions and hormons and stuff.

So the body not only stores traumans from our own life in it, also all the past generations' traumas are stored in it to lesser or greater extent. And all those past generations, what is that? That's the personal stage of development! And even the prepersonal stage before that if primates were our early ancestors. So the body is massively programmed and conditioned by the personal stage of development and even with earlier traumas throughout the history of life on earth.

[Anderz]

On a second thought, maybe paternal lineages are not entirely silly, since evolution has several "dimensions" to it.

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"In Evolution in Four Dimensions, Eva Jablonka and Marion Lamb argue that there is more to heredity than genes. They trace four "dimensions" in evolution—four inheritance systems that play a role in evolution: genetic, epigenetic (or non-DNA cellular transmission of traits), behavioral, and symbolic (transmission through language and other forms of symbolic communication). These systems, they argue, can all provide variations on which natural selection can act. Evolution in Four Dimensions offers a richer, more complex view of evolution than the gene-based, one-dimensional view held by many today. The new synthesis advanced by Jablonka and Lamb makes clear that induced and acquired changes also play a role in evolution." - MIT Press

So the personal stage then is inherited through both the maternal and paternal lineages and also from society and the environment. And since society is a holon we carry the whole personal stage in our bodies and minds.

At first it may seem impossible to budge that kind of heavy conditioning and move from the personal stage to the transpersonal stage. The power necessary comes from accelerating evolutionary progress. Yes, the past is enormous and heavy but each moment is an explosion into massively more information and complexity so in theory the transformation into the transpersonal stage can happen in the twinkling of an eye.

[Anderz]

The biggest trauma inherited is of course death. The history of life on earth is an orgy of death and society today is a death cult that is the latest iteration of that hideous scenario.

So what to do about death? My answer is: to overcome it. Not only spiritually whatever that means, I mean overcoming physical death and transforming our bodies to avatars. Anything less than that is just more of the horror show of the death cult.