I am aware

[Necrolord]

Hey Guys,

i am pretty new to this stuff, i am sorry if I express myself in a way that offends someone, also english is not my first language.

With that out of the way I want to say hello, share my experience and try to find out what your progress is.

I started meditating about 2 months ago. I went through a rough time and I was looking for some way to ease the depression i was developing.

So i discovered some interesting videos on youtube. I watched several videos by Rupert Spira, Teal Swan etc. read some books by Ramana Maharshi.

At the moment I am at the point where I can intellectually understand, that I am awareness, however I still have the desire to feel what I am. That might not make sense, because feeling is something I am aware of, so it is not me, but what I experience. How are you guys living your life with your knowledge? I really would like to feel some sort of enlightenment or awakening to know that I am on the right path. That is probably overambitious, because I am only on the topic for 2 months, however I need some sort of experience sharing. 

Do you know what I feel? I would like to know what your opinion is.

[WaveInTheOcean]

psychedelic mushrooms

[allislove]

Continue meditating every day, and yes, maybe try any classical psychedelic, like acid or shrooms.

[Necrolord]

I don't know, isn't this some kind of cheating? I mean I am doing third eye meditation every day, I can literally feel the sensation on my forehead when i concentrate. My concern is Am I doing something wrong, or could I do something better. I want to be as efficient as possible to not waste time. I don't have a problem working on it, I just wanna make it my time worthwile, if you know what I mean.

[Nahm]

5 hours ago, WaveInTheOcean said:

psychedelic mushrooms

 

4 hours ago, allislove said:

Continue meditating every day, and yes, maybe try any classical psychedelic, like acid or shrooms.

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