Moving from stage red to stage blue

[Raptorsin7]

Does anyone have thoughts or experience on moving from stage red to a healthy stage blue. I have a large blue shadow where i have issues with responsibility, maturity, self esteem, etc and i'm curious if other people went through this in their adult life. I'm starting to see that most people must have gone through this developmental stage in childhood or teen years, but i'm trying to figure this stuff out now at 24, and it's been very difficult as someone who's been narcissistic, and spoiled most of my life.

[zeroISinfinity]

Oh God damn. 

Ok here is what's you gonna do. 

Forget everything you know. Like you are born right this second. 

Live your life the way you do. 

Meditate pure senses no thinking relax let go surrender as much as you can. 

Thoughts appear focus to sensations of breathing. Do that for a month. 

No pressure.