100 µg 1cP LSD - Clusterfucked

[cle103]

For the kids at home 1cP becomes regular LSD once absorbed. Main reason I used it is that it’s legal where I live. 

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Well, that was my second ever LSD experience. I tried it first a couple weeks ago at a rave. I only took about 20-30 µg and was surprised how strong it hit. That’s why I decided to be on the safe side with only 100 µg. Well, it still hit me harder than I expected. 

I was prepared to trip longer than on shrooms but I didn’t expect a full 10-12 hours. My ass and lower back are still sore from all the rolling around on the floor. I also prepared some fruit but wasn’t prepared for wanting something hearty half way through. But let’s get to that later. 

The come up took a long while. Probably 50 minutes. Then it hit quickly. I felt surprisingly high, lightweight and a strong sense of fidgeting and vibrating. Quite pleasant, even euphoric... 

 

Hit the peak about 1:30 in and stayed there for 4 hours. 

Was thinking about myself and about how little I know. Was shown myself looking outside a window. Then the vision zoomed out. It zoomed out and out and hit a limit. This was the level which was comprehensible by a human mind (quite a lot actually). Then it zoomed out further and further. It got more and more abstract and complex beyond belief. 

I became a sort of super AI and looked at the world from that POV. At that point life is so utterly complex that it becomes simple again. I realized what consciousness is doing via the means of evolution. It builds on top of itself to understand itself more fully. It will come to such an advanced stage that it’s just one touch from understanding itself fully. At which it will destroy itself as the only way out. Because it cannot understand itself. It can only be itself. 

 

At which point there was only a morphing singularity left.

Then there was the question: What is the room which in this singularity takes place? 

It’s God’s mind. It’s all in God’s mind.

What’s on God’s mind?

Love. That’s the thing God is “thinking” about. 

So simple. So astonishing. Beyond tears. 

Love asking you to hold within it the crippled and ugly. Even the evil and demonic. Who could ever hold that? Well, that is what it takes to be God. Though it doesn't "take" anything. It's ultimate willingness. Ultimate Love. 

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The way to get there was kinda ugly though. So simple to write about the big insights. I think a lot of people don’t talk about how the sausage gets made these days. Like looking at all the nasty bits of yourself and the world. Within these hours I lived life from the POV of a woman, a transgender, a sadist, a psychopath and an insane person who cut off his hand just for the fuck of it.

Encountering my fear of needles over and over again.

It was quite a trip in the truest sense of the word.

And it went on and on and on.

Was looking at the clock whilst I was peaking. Time seemed like 30-60 minutes... turned out to be only 2 lol. I thought a lot about art and love with a lower and upper case. Way too much to comprehend at this point. I will include some worldly learnings. 

 

Notes to myself (not polished, might still be interesting for some):

• Be aware of what you’re putting in your mind. Your mind is your number one tool. It needs to be sharp. A true artist is conscious of what he puts there. The food you eat, the amount of social media you consume, even the quality of porn you watch. 
• Live as the person you’d want to become. Regarding work flow and the simplicity of life. 
• To become a great artist you need to be clear on what you want to do. What do I want to do? I want to bring magic. This spark of Divinity which finalizes in a single stroke of the brush. 
• To become a truly great artist there is a need of focused, deep practice AND a spark of the divine. 
• The truest, deepest form of healing is to realize nothing was ever broken or hurt. This may or may not entail grieving and hurting in the short term to realize this final insight.

[Leo Gura]

Sounds like a good trip.

[cle103]

@Leo Gura It was indeed. Amazing to peak that long, though quite taxing as well.  

[cetus]

@cle103 Will these labors result in some form of art to be shared with us?

[cle103]

@cetus I certainly hope so  More focused practice and painting first though. 

[cetus]

8 minutes ago, cle103 said:

@cetus I certainly hope so  More focused practice and painting first though. 

Why wait? I say strike now while the iron is still hot.

[cle103]

@cetus Haha, I'll think about it  Is that sculpt yours? 

[AcaciaConfusa]

@cle103 Nice trip, i'm quite impressed that you got that much out of 1cp lsd.  I tried 1p lsd a couple times and it was always a quite shallow trip and i got basically nothing out of it

[Ry4n]

Nice man

[cle103]

@AcaciaConfusa I was surprised as well lol. Either I have a low Acid tolerance or it's just high quality. Though I've done 25+ mushroom trips prior, that will have played into this trip as well.  

@Ry4n Thanks!