Can you analyze me please?

[LearningPodo]

Hey so I know none of you guys know me in real life, but sometimes I suspect there's something mysterious inside of me.

I like social interaction but I am also really comfortable in my head. I feel like sometimes I project a certain self image outwards that may not be consistent with the traits that I actually have, and anything that contradicts that self image I have of myself in my head tends to make me feel resistance and anxiety. I have a lot of empathy for people. A lot of people say that I am extremely perceptive and can almost see into their soul. Sometimes I can be manipulative to try and get what I want. Sometimes I actively suppress parts of my psyche in order to deal with stress and uncomfortable situations. Sometimes I do certain things in order to make myself feel more normal lol. Just like how I said lol in that last sentence to soften the blow. I always have conversations in my own head with myself. I have incredibly self-disciplined and am really good at managing my inner states. I've been isolated A LOT. My parents are really old fasioned and not really sensible, so I'm always in my head.

Background info: I'm an only child, went through quite some traumas growing up. Didn't have many friends. I've been in love so it's not like I'm a sociopath or anything lmao.

Edited August 13, 2020 by LearningPodo

[Artsu]

I think you are ENFJ and haven't let go of your ego.

Don't worry, it would be rare to actualise by 19. You will discover a lot about yourself over the coming years.

[Osaid]

Oh yeah this sounds very similar to me

1 hour ago, LearningPodo said:

I feel like sometimes I project a certain self image outwards that may not be consistent with the traits that I actually have, and anything that contradicts that self image I have of myself in my head tends to make me feel resistance and anxiety.

This is very relatable

I am not sure how to help or analyze you since I'm in the same boat, I just found it interesting how similar we are. Literally everything I relate to. Only thing different I'd say is I haven't had any shortage of friends.

You probably know this already, but I think most of this stems from social problems. Things like "what does he think of me" and "did I looks weird when I did that".

I have gotten better over the years by actually talking to people and entering social situations, but I still relate to this stuff.

 

 

[Espaim]

You seem to have some issues regarding social anxiety that may be related to traumas as you said. There's nothing "wrong" with you if that's what you think.

You can work on releasing those knots you have with therapy and maybe psychedelics. Or just by doing self-development.

[ArchangelG]

Sounds to me that theres a lot of self-doubt going on, which is prevelent troughout the whole spiritual process. 

The core of self-doubt is doubting our authenticity.

[Johnny5]

On 8/13/2020 at 11:45 PM, LearningPodo said:

Can you analyze me please?

 

[Byun Sean]

heres a challenge for you. Try to open up to people as the authentic you instead of trying to be someone else or manipulate others to get what you want. The more you do it, the stronger you'll get at it and the less socially anxious you will become. 

Try it out and see if it works