Feeling dead inside / dissociation

[LearningPodo]

Hey guys,

How can I deal with the feeling of almost being dead inside? There has been a lot of traumas in my life including a heartbreak that completely shook my world. I'm in college now but I can't help but feel like a zombie living in autopilot. There is almost zero sense of soulful emotion that I exhibit. How can I get more in touch with my soul? I find it increasingly hard to connect with others on an authentic basis. All of my acquiantances and friends are so fake and I don't even really know them. I only know them from a narrow view of mind in which I've repressed all of the pain that is a part of me.