How do I get myself motivated again?

[InterruptReQuest]

For some time now I've felt lack of motivation towards almost everything. Basically most things I do are simply the things I need to stay alive. The rest of the time I have, I'm not doing anything useful. Basically I'm just wasting time until the day ends. I have ideas on things I want to do and what I want to achieve, but I'm not able to take the action on them. It almost feels like my body is disagreeing with me when I want to do something I want or I know is good for me.

Even making a small habit change is difficult. Usually I'm able to make small changes for few days, but then I just fall back on my previous habits. It's like I've dug myself in a hole that is too deep to climb out of. If I am able to do something it's usually something that has consequences if I don't do it. I guess willpower has something to do with this as well.

At this point I'm not sure which direction I should be heading to get out of this state. It feels like every direction I go results to a dead end. There probably is some underlying cause for this, but I just don't know what could have caused this and what I should be doing about it.

[bejapuskas]

Do you do the practices like yoga and meditation?

[Artsu]

Do you want to do these things, or do you just think you should?

Listen to yourself.

[InterruptReQuest]

1 hour ago, bejapuskas said:

Do you do the practices like yoga and meditation?

I have tried meditation, but I'm not able to make it as a habit to do it daily. I end up doing it every once in a while at the moment.

20 minutes ago, Artsu said:

Do you want to do these things, or do you just think you should?

Listen to yourself.

I actually do want to do them because I enjoy them. Before this issue started I did do those things way more often.

[bejapuskas]

@InterruptReQuest  What was your main motivation to start meditating? 

Is it that you get fed up with those things, or is it that you don't have enough energy to keep doing them?

[InterruptReQuest]

2 hours ago, bejapuskas said:

@InterruptReQuest  What was your main motivation to start meditating? 

Is it that you get fed up with those things, or is it that you don't have enough energy to keep doing them?

Mainly my motivation was the benefits that meditation has. Regardless of knowing that the real benefits don't show up until few weeks to few months of daily meditation

Edited August 4, 2020 by InterruptReQuest

[bejapuskas]

@InterruptReQuest  I see, in your opinion, what are the benefits you should be getting out of meditation?

[Nahm]

@InterruptReQuest

You’ve tricked yourself into believing you’re doing based on need. Retrace your steps. You chose all of it. The circumstances are how they are because of your wants. In seeing this, you see you are simply continuing the same. What, from your experiencing, have you come to realize you want next?