Meditation Injury

[Flyboy]

So I really didn't think this was possible, but I seem to have "burned" something in my brain.

I was using the Kriya yoga technique of focusing on your third eye, and after a week or so noticed I could definitely feel a "bulge" in the middle of my head.  As I continued to meditate on it, the bulge felt like it was growing and exerting pressure, and even made "left/right" brain switching feel cumbersome like it was in the way.  I was hoping this was my 3rd eye starting to open, so I continued to concentrate on it.  Being Type A and sometimes prone to aggressive impatience, I focused pretty effortfully on this point on several occasions.  About a week ago as I was doing this, I felt a powerfully sharp nerve-like point in the middle of my head.  I thought at first that maybe this was Kundalini energy or something of that sort, so I focused directly on it a few times, which led to this kind of extreme overstimulation feeling, like pinching an exposed nerve (in hindsight I would say it was bad pain, not good pain).  Ever since, this spot is extremely painful to focus on.  Since it is right in the middle of my brain, any intense focus with both eyes, deep thought, or thoughts that come near the center of my head cause it to "wake up".  It feels like I literally burned a hole in my head.

I'm very worried about this, it's been a week and it is really affecting my quality of life and ability to sleep.  I hope that with time it heals, but I've had to essentially stop all meditation or concentration practice.  As soon as it starts hurting it is almost impossible to keep my attention off of it, and attention is what makes it hurt

Does anyone know what happened or what I should do?  This feels very real and physical, so "grounding my chakras" isn't the answer here.  Can attention focused down to a single point can do something like a magnifying glass focusing the sun?

[Lenny]

@Flyboy

I am sorry to hear about this and I hope that the issue heals. I think that you should visit a medical practitioner for what you are describing. Especially if you are feeling a physical sensation or "bulge".

Have you arranged a meeting with a general practitioner (doctor)?

 

 

[Flyboy]

I just wanted to follow up on this for anyone else who might encounter something similar.

What I originally thought was an "injury" turned out to be the very beginning of my 3rd eye going through some kind of process.  For about 4 weeks this pain, electrical stimulation, and whole-brain takeover continued, and I got to the point where I could not sleep AT ALL without strong sleeping pills.  When I did sleep, dreams took on a visionary quality and I would frequently wake up feeling like I had been dealing with the mysteries of the universe.  It eventually became obvious that whatever was happening was a process... gradually pressure built up and released, like an egg hatching.  As this happened, I could also feel nerve connections "burning" pathways into different parts of my brain--it literally felt like electrical potential that would create pressure and eventually "connect" to wherever it was trying to go.  After weeks, the pineal itself eventually reached a state where there was no more sharp pain or pressure, just intense electrical activity whenever my focus touched it (almost felt like a vibrating massager IN my head).  This final excitatory stage lasted a few days, then dramatically calmed down and I was able to sleep naturally again, finally.

What happened?  I have no idea, but my best guess is that through intensive concentration on my 3rd eye I started a "decalcification process" that became self-sustaining until it finished.  My pineal gland now feels alive and accessible, though I think this may be just the beginning of a larger energetic awakening process.  The spiritual journey is getting real.

For anyone else considering trying to get this to happen, please assess your life situation carefully.  This was nearly debilitating for about a month, and involved considerable pain, terrible insomnia, and existential dread (of eternal lightening pain in my head).  Perhaps it was necessary for future growth, but just please be careful and don't rush things.