Starting To Get Confused And A Bit Depressed... But This Might Be Good

[Emerald]

@Cat Thank you.

[Matthew Lamot]

25 minutes ago, Emerald Wilkins said:

@Cat Thank you.

It's my pleasure 

[BHL_20]

@Emerald Wilkins As someone who has never taken psychedelics, I'm just curious, if those experiences were so amazing why don't take them again? Not saying you should of course.

[Emerald]

18 minutes ago, BHL_20 said:

@Emerald Wilkins As someone who has never taken psychedelics, I'm just curious, if those experiences were so amazing why don't take them again? Not saying you should of course.

I want to live my life under that paradigm, and I can't achieve that with psychedelics. I want to know what it is to be sober and live day by day from the vantage point of non-duality. To feel permanent relief from delusion. But I can't say that I haven't been tempted. But one of the insights that I had during my first experience was that I didn't need the substance to access that state of being. But that life had always been that way, I just was blind to it. But also, being a parent as well as a high school teacher (although I'm staying at home with my kids now and changing careers), I also don't want to risk being arrested or harming myself with the psychedelic, even if this is a small chance. So, I'm a bit less willing to take these types of risks than I was when I was 20.