I'm really deeply struggling

[Heart of Space]

I'm going through one of the most emotionally difficult times in my life.  My greatest fears are constantly at the forefront of my mind.  And I've had to come face to face with my own sins and devilry.  I am in pain and I feel alone.  I only ask that you say a prayer for me.  

Thank you.

[Mu_]

Remember its ok to feel pain and alone, its okay to face fear and what you sinned.  Let it be, dont punish yourself, and let it just be or go.  Your ultimately bigger than it all.  See what happens when you ask god to forgive you.  If nothing happens, forgive yourself

[Heart of Space]

Thank you for your kindness.  I feel a bit better right now.

[commie]

6 hours ago, Heart of Space said:

I only ask that you say a prayer for me.  

I don't know how to do that so I tried looking it up but what I found was dreadful. So I looked up the exact phrasing of something I knew instead (de viis inferni) and said that even though it's not exactly what you asked.

[allislove]

@Heart of Space ?

[Max_V]

@Heart of SpaceI hope you're ok, friend. If you need to talk to someone about it, feel free to reach out to me.

Much love.

[Heart of Space]

Thank you, everyone.  

[TrustTheProcess]

all love

[Elshaddai]

18 hours ago, Heart of Space said:

I only ask that you say a prayer for me

Well I don't beleve in the power of prayer but I do beleive in the power of forgiveness.

forgive yourself always for your devilry and evil and realize devils like us can't help ourselves be devils because of our low consciousness.

Psychedelics can really help you heal but it's best to do it when your mental state is better.

Also if you feel lonely feel free to reach out. 

Edited July 24, 2020 by Elshaddai

[Fadl]

21 hours ago, Heart of Space said:

I'm going through one of the most emotionally difficult times in my life.  My greatest fears are constantly at the forefront of my mind.  And I've had to come face to face with my own sins and devilry.  I am in pain and I feel alone.  I only ask that you say a prayer for me.  

Thank you.

take it easy buddy, everybody goes through these kind of feeling on their lives. No gain no pain.. and vice versa. 

[Heart of Space]

Thanks everyone.  I feel like I've recovered quite a bit.  I was in a really bad place.  Your kindness helped me when I was in a dark place, it is very much appreciated and I love you all.  

[Heart of Space]

1 hour ago, Keyhole said:

Hey I just thought of something that might make you feel better.

I used to have a different account on here years ago and I had made a thread about feeling kind of suicidal and I wasn't sure what to do about it.

I don't remember what your exact words were but you are one of the only people that came into the thread and offered genuine advice that came from your heart and I always remembered that energy, when someone is kind to you in your time of need it's hard not to forget their acts of grace.

So you might not be as much of a devil as you really think you are.

I don't remember doing that, but I'm glad I did.  Thank you, from the bottom of my heart.  This message really helped me.

[Nahm]

@Heart of Space

Ya. You got me pretty hard right in the feels once a while back and I remember and appreciate it still. You’re awesome, no thought to the contrary will do, wishing you the best. ?? 

[Heart of Space]

6 hours ago, Nahm said:

@Heart of Space

Ya. You got me pretty hard right in the feels once a while back and I remember and appreciate it still. You’re awesome, no thought to the contrary will do, wishing you the best. ?? 

Thanks for your message @Nahm, I hope you are well.  My state has improved a lot.  I visited with my family and feel much better.  It's the tough times that keep me humble and help me appreciate life more.