The point of going through shadow work therapy

[lmfao]

Got a book from Leo's list on shadow work "Shadow Dance", starting journalling along with it. It's one of the most easy to get into forms of self therapy that anyone can do. 

I've read about only a fifth of it, but I feel like I already understand the essence of the approach and way of thinking the book is trying to impart to you. 

But there's still benefit to it I think, both for me and people in general reading this post and here's why. One point, humans are very forgetful and the mind has inertia. I may get a taste or a few moments of great consciousness and insight, but it ultimately doesn't permeate or last long enough.

Second point, me thinking I understand everything there is about something is a combination of dunning-kruger effect but also arrogance that comes with thinking you're naturally intelligent or insightful. And the thing is, even if one hears about. And if I continue with the book, I'll accumulate many examples and areas of my life and assumptions I wouldn't have otherwise seen despite thinking I know the theory. I think this is the use of theory and external sources and such, they have the potential to show you entire worlds you didn't know possible. 

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Oh who am I kidding, I'm saying bullshit when I'm gonna drop this book and do yolo solo investigation. Reading Carl Jung and cosmically morphing into Jesus sounds more Chad. 

Edited July 22, 2020 by lmfao

[meow_meow]

Don't drop the book.
If you haven't really done any more or less serious shadow work before, you'll be thankfull that you finished that book and did the work.

Discipline = self love.

But I'm shocked that Leo doesn't have any in-depth videos of shadow work.
Also are you still freaking out?

[lmfao]

@meow_meow

On 24/07/2020 at 4:43 PM, meow_meow said:

Also are you still freaking out?

Up and down. Sometimes I'll randomly become aware of that all whilst I'm being aware of my experience in day to day life. Happened to me yesterday night funnily enough so I'm still on that residue. I don't get breakthroughs or enlightenment experiences from meditating anymore it seems, just mildly altered states of consciousness. For whatever reason, meditation doesn't work for me but just normal confronting of my experience does.

But it's really impossible for me currently to make sense of anything. Being conscious that my self is a movie character, that past and future is fictitious. It makes no sense, I don't know anything. But when I am conscious of this, I know it's the higher truth, my level of consciousness is simply higher than it as at any other time.  And how am I supposed to reconcile that with the practical truth of my day to day life, cause and effect, the world and people around me?

Doesn't help that I don't have a life purpose, and have scattered and incomplete passions. The highest insight/intuition I've felt from my breakthroughs is that, I am to just let my life unfold. There's no worries. I don't know who or what or why there is unfolding, but I'm just here to watch and let this movie character do all the moves he wants to make. Hopefully he finds something he enjoys. Either way, he'll have to let go of a lot of stuff. There's suffering, fear, death, misery and I have to just accept that to whatever I can. 

 

Edited July 28, 2020 by lmfao