I need some advice :)

[Dario1995]

@Nahm @NahmThanks for advice ?

@VincentArogya You are right, probably it was conceptual realization, an idea. I can see thats the trap i fell into, trying to understand trough mind. 

2 hours ago, VincentArogya said:

Now, are you looking to make one state permanent?  

At the beggining of the search, yes, I was looking for that.

Now I realize i am not in control of that or ever will be. When i am silent enough, even doing stuff is happening by itself, and the quality of doing stuff is okay( job, sex, washing laundry). Must say, my memory is somewhat worse, feels that I must jump in and search for a certain information. 

Direct experience it is! Makes "me" feel like i am 5 year old again. ?

Its funny how pure existing can make you joyful, totaly forgot that feeling.