How to know whether we truly love that thing

[Tiny Nietzsche]

sometimes i feel neutral to it, sometimes so passionate, sometimes boring.. someday i wake up and think about it, i feel so unmotivated to do it, someday i feel exciting to get it done.. i can't explain more it's really hard, thoughts & feeling ain't constant, this is my serious problem, because I can't manage to make a big decision (full focus to it or give it up) /TY

ps.

- i often forget it when i'm happy

- i often go back to it when i'm sad (negative feeling really fuels)

- in normal temperament, i find it hardly to motivate myself to do it

- it hardly have a flow while doing it (sometimes i check a time as for stop doing it after completed a schedule time given)

- it's my gift, my attitude, everyone around me my whole life say the same, i always excel it, im real good at it, it's quite effortless (i just pass an exam for master degree in this field without read a single book, it's all in my head)

- i've tried to get over it, but it somehow calls to me

- e.g. playing video games gives me happiness more than doing it MUCH

- i usually find a reason (or excuse) to denigrate it (like: it won't make money/it's useless/it's outdated/... )

[Roy]

Notice how you're feeling all those emotions, yet you keep coming back to it.

What does that tell you @Tiny Nietzsche?