How I found out...

[Buddha WRX]

New member here. Leo, I really enjoy your videos. Especially the video on self-deception. I grew up in a southern baptist church. Extremely pious/strict parents. But no hard feelings there. We were never really close until I flat out "came out of the closet" with the denunciation of my identifying as a Christian. But I happily bow my head in grace at the dinner table.

 

I stopped trying to explain non-duality to them after my confession. This happened just this year. I was fucking around with psychs.... Demetrius showed me a truth I cant unsee. This happened in January. I went from listening to music about money, bitches and cars to jazz/house etc overnight. My house is now full of plants. I love to go outside, like when I was a kid. I am 35.

I have had my battles. Mainly with drugs. Speed. Did a prison bid over some cocaine... I got the police called on MYSELF for losing touch with reality and freaking out. Not sleeping for days and taking benzos and blow. The shadow people come and they get ao close they touch you.  Even relapsed AFTER prison. This time I got committed for 3 days. 

 

I've been very volatile. I've made 6 figures a year (currently :-) ) and I have spent countless hours carpet surfing for shards of meth that are not there. Occasionally id find a grain of sand/salt etc... My mind would MAKE it be meth ? which is exactly what I felt when I prayed to a "God" that was not there. Then I'd find a quarter on the ground and call it a blessing ? 

My blessings now are so obvious it is scary. I dont have to assume.

Ever since I discovered "I"... I have been focused on raising my consciousness. I understand that THIS is the MO... I feel the world is full of "remedials"... Just a theory of mine ?

 

Btw... I am drug free and no amount of church, prison, NA meetings... NOTHING/NO ONE except my self... Was able to break me free from that. Its like you cant donit on purpose... You have to trip and fall and bump your head and KNOW that you are God... Not just believe .

So now... Even during this pandemic... I stay true to myself because I believe this strongly. I refuse to wear a mask even though it is mandated by our governor. No one says shit to me. I'm 5'10 and 200lbs beef jerky lean but I am a nice guy ? i'd probably agree to the mask and ONLY a mask and nothing else ? and then just keep walking while they ponder that. When you are 100% true to yourself, the blessings are unreal.... The number of "coincidences".... Increases.... Because... You're right where you are SUPPOSED to be! In the moment. Leo i would like some of your insight on some of my experiences lately. I can't believe them myself!

 

 

 

 

[Roy]

Congratulations on being being drug free, good for you @Buddha WRX

[Buddha WRX]

7 hours ago, Roy said:

Congratulations on being being drug free, good for you @Buddha WRX

Thank you. I am truly high off life. I do still dabble with psychs though. Its like adding a turbocharger and a catless exhaust to your consciousness. But only fungi and extracts. I meditate "naturally aspirated" ? as well. I'll invite demetrius over about once every 2 weeks to REALLY get all the trash out. Every nook and cranny. I am here to connect with other like minded people. People with mediocre/low levels of consciousness... I can't tell them about these things. Its like talking AT them. The idea of non-duality is just terrifying to them and they just write it off as "crazy".  I am around very closed minded people a lot and now, with the world the way it is, i feel like a spectator. Like I'm sitting in the bleachers with some popcorn (I hate popcorn) watching this game.