Accountability journal

[Epikur]

After warming up in the forum to get used to writing in english it's time to get more into the heart of the things that is the things I don't want to do but think I should do. 

I am not shure yet how I am going to organize my little projects I guess with time some patterns will show up. At the beginning I want to go into it very slowly. As we know habits should be created slowly and regularly. 

I guess the first step is to post maybe 2 times a week or more. I would like to post daily but that sounds too optimistic but I might still try it. Another side effect I hope is that I might stop posting so much in the politics forum for obvious reasons. 

So what are my routines or rituals I want to work on? Most of them I do for years. I start with karaoke. I love this routine. It gives a lot of emotional energy. Some may say it opens the chakras. 



 

[Epikur]

Allright let's get to the second day and round. I am happy with this day. Recently I regressed regarding my duties that is things that resemble work like organizing, cleaning, laundry, basically the boring things.

So I did around 20 minutes today. I used a new technic or tactic if you will. I already had this one technic where I just do my work for 1 minute and make a note that I did it and then I do again 1 minute and so on. I tried higher amounts before but it failed so I have this micro approach. It seems that was not easy enough so I have an additional technic. In general I do many 1 minute meditations. This time after it I did 1 minute walking in the room with inner counting. I did that many times before I even did my first 1 minute work. So this worked this time. Let's see how it will work later. 

I wake up at 4.00 am. I was happy that I didn't do internet surfing till 1 pm. That is important as I get lost in the forums. 

 

[Epikur]

It was a good day regarding my duties. I did pretty good. This system with walking in the room and inner counting numbers seems to be a good method to warm up for the boring work.

I hope I can keep my routine where I don't surf in the internet till lunch time. I feel like I may get cocky and do it in the hope it will work out but it does not. I had this alot. I feel like big part of self improvement is doing what Odysseus did when he wanted to withstand the Sirens that is getting tied up to the mast.

Other than that I did my 6 karaoke songs. I did 25 minutes of loud novel reading and some other routines. 

 

[Epikur]

Today I would say was again victory. Well even small victories are victories. I did around 30 plus minutes of work. That is quite a bit for me. I did also my Karaoke and reading. All good so far. I did some other routines that are more fun. So I am quite ok with the day.

Something I am planning to do is to read some journal of others here. Some are really top notch. Let's see if I can raise my brain level. The crux with that is that thinking can become unfunny pretty fast. So I have to figure out to do it without getting depressed. Finding the sweat spot. 



 

[Epikur]

Allright. I lost the game today. I got too hedonistic did some fun things and got addicted. So not much done today. Anyway tomorrow is another day and I will try to get back on the horse.

I did listen to Sam Harriss today. He dealt with the situation in the US. It felt like he is an European guy trapped in the US where he does not belong. With a president that disgutsts him. With people he can not vibe I guess. 

Btw. I did my reading and 6 Karaoke's. That was nice. 

Edited June 29, 2020 by Epikur

[Epikur]

So I make a quick note to self shame me so I get more motivation. As I failed yesterday I had to do a reset. I mainly  focused on meditation and work. Work was ok not enough but it's a new beginning again.

So I skaled back from my other routines as well. I love theses routines but it seems that my brain does not have the capacity to process all of the activities. My willpower burns out it seems. 

Anyway I might write later again. I want to just put some public pressure on me.


 

[Epikur]

Well it is early morning here. I wrote some stuff in the politics for the warm up. Till I started posting here I was not fluent in writing in a forum in english.

Now it feels quite nice and I feel the flow. Anyway let's get back to the hard things. That is doing the work. Yesterday I was at say 50% of what I wanted. So I feel it's ok. This time I started with my Journal early. Let's see if that is going to make a change.

Yesterday I did not do Karaoke till 4pm but boy after doing that I felt happy. Specially after doing a lot of meditation and having done my workouts I could really integrate it to feel happy and energetic. 

Yesterday I did not do much reading and that showed. I need the novel reading so that my brain works halfways ok. Yesterday before sleep I did some reading that helped me a lot this morning. My brain was quite active.

I am thinking about implementing some dance routines. I may write a little challenge in the dance thread. I like the thread. Also because the people have so different tastes from me.