loosing the ego i am building for my survival

[Rolo]

i am currently workong or building my identity in the world. At the age of 24 i have like alot of people in the world many obsticals that have made it difficult to find my passion and life purpose.

 

Following Leos advice on creating a career and choosing something i love i have decided to go into human services and achieve the goal of becoming a trauma therapist councillor specifically for women. 

 

The fear i have is that if i do radical spiritual work like smoking 5meo dmt and having profound insight i might loose the goals i am trying to manifest and end up like a guy living in a hut or whatever.

 

my fear is that my own suffering is perpetuating my goals and if i loose that suffing i might loose what i have worked on and squandered all that effort for nothing.

 

would it be best to being working on my career or soing radical spiritual work? I feel as if the radical spiritual work will make my goals way to abstract and i wont care much for being part of this world, if thats the case i wont have any education and i will just be a enlightened uneducated person. so whats more important for young people building ego or killing ego?

 

[electroBeam]

32 minutes ago, Rolo said:

The fear i have is that if i do radical spiritual work like smoking 5meo dmt and having profound insight i might loose the goals i am trying to manifest and end up like a guy living in a hut or whatever.

That's exactly whats happening to me.

You wont get it from smoking 5 meo dmt a few times, unless you're massively spiritually gifted, but you will get that from meditating and practicing spirituality for a few years. 

You will loose the goals you are trying to manifest, and it will be a very painful growing pain, the most painful you'll ever go through, but by loosing those goals, new goals will emerge and those goals will align more with your True Being. 

[Rolo]

3 hours ago, electroBeam said:

you will get that from meditating and practicing spirituality for a few years. 

You will loose the goals you are trying to manifest, and it will be a very painful growing pain, the most painful you'll ever go through, but by loosing those goals, new goals will emerge and those goals will align more with your True Being. 

Thats the scary thing for me. I am trying to choose to do something that is good and contribute to the world, its just that i dont know if what i do will be as valuable.