My self exploration journal 2

[Preety_India]

I was thinking about life as a stage.. Not the stage found in theater. But a stage at which the mind stays still and calm and proceeds in equilibrium. 

I will call this stage Omnia Altiorem. 

 

 

 

[Preety_India]

 

Decrepit house

Roc Kankakee

Banana succotash. 

Bale Halona

pine Grove

Tiki Missaqua

Grand Hotel 

Sugar skull

Alk opium

Blossoming boulevard

Snow ride

Tropical Blends.

Antimony River

Milkshake duck 

Litzy Hills 

Colocasia stems 

Deadwood Trees 

Black Dahlia 

Woke Street Bandana 

Coffee shop 8 

Graffiti Street 

Merry Berry 

Diamond Merchant 

Weikfield Green

Mahogany Avenue 

Voynich Manuscript 

Marcellus Marquise 

Cabin Quilt 

Maple house 

Mint Chutney 

 

 

 

 

 

[Preety_India]

You shouldn't really think too much of it. 

 

[Preety_India]

 

Rant time 

This might sound childish and petty but just wanted to put it out there and scream. 

EVERY JOURNAL IS A GOOD JOURNAL. JUST RESPECT. PLEASE 

Leo had a reputation point system on this forum a few years back.. That system was removed because people were abusing that system here. They would give the thumbs up to their friends and people they were socializing and the person who was more socially popular on here would get maximum reputation points even if his or her views were total bullshit. This basically created an echo chamber of fools circle jerking each other till eternity. 

Throwing my anger and rage at whoever is reading.. 

People just suck..did you read it.. People just effing suck..

And now we have this thing going on in the journal section as well.

Someone will come along and tell everyone here how they like their journal. And but only to few and ignore others.. 

Hello????? 

We're a family here at Actualized.org. Don't divide us here as you would do in real life. 

If you wanna be truly spiritual and conscious then learn how to accept everyone or else whatever you do is all bogus. There is no growth in that. 

I will tell to all journal writers here. You are all doing a great job. Nobody is better or worse. Nobody is greater or lesser. This is not a competition of writing. Journals are meant to express our feelings and emotions and our journeys and records. They are not for impressing people. They are an honest account of what a person feels like penning down 

So stop making it seem like some competition of writers where some are better than others. It honestly sucks when you do that. People are just ridiculous. Everything has to be about who is better than who. Really? 

 

If you don't like a journal don't read it. Simple. But don't create a subliminal reputation system here. There is no need for favouritism. It's just a journal, geeeeeeeeeeeeeeeez. 

Every journal is a good journal here. 

When you give a flower, give it to everyone. 

When you arrange a party, invite everyone. 

When you give a rose, give it to everyone. 

So in your spiritual practice, do you offer blessings to some people and not to others????! When you call for healing of the world, do you only want a few people to be healed??? How messed up is that. Why play this game of pitting one against another. 

That's why I said humanity sucks. Because people never stop discriminating. People never stop putting someone up and putting someone down. They always have to create a clique, a mutual admiration society, where one is licking another's ass. 

A bunch of chimps beating their chest and thumping their chimpery. This is what Leo was fed up with and he finally removed the reputation point system. 

Just a way of making another person feel isolated and bad. 

Hello, we are a family. Don't target others. Nobody is special here. Nobody is better or worse, more wanted, less wanted. Everyone is effing equal and everyone is loved. 

Learn to appreciate every journal that you come across. Learn to appreciate every member on the forum. 

Or else don't bring your negativity. That doesn't help creating walls between people, pitting one against another. 

I have witnessed this bullshit on this forum since I have been here from day One. 

 

Done ranting. 

 

 

[Preety_India]

 

 

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[Preety_India]

Certain things have been put into perspective and I'm feeling better. 

Today is a bright new day. 

And it seems things are going to be on my side. 

 

[Preety_India]

I have tried to reflect on my most recent sentiments. 

Yesterday I was all angry about certain things. 

Today I'm trying to dissect my feelings and what I see is that maybe it's my low self esteem. 

Maybe it's my low self esteem that causes me to want everyone to be loving and accepting towards each other. Of course it's a good thing to want to have that. 

But it could be that I'm not able to accept hate. 

Maybe hate is a part of humanity just like greed.. 

Maybe high self esteem people just hold their heads high and don't give a shit if people look down on them or ignore them. 

Maybe high self esteem people don't even consider someone who is hateful to them. They just create their own future amidst the hate or non acceptance. 

I need to look at it this way too. 

Why should I want acceptance from everyone? Why should I pander to anyone who doesn't care? 

By rebelling against hate, we prove our own self worth? 

We prove that we don't need it and could care less if someone appreciates or not. 

It's so unusual how mental definitions can be changed and the emotions associated instantly change. 

 

[Preety_India]

I'm going to start shuffling all my concepts under different categories or labels as I mentioned in some of the posts earlier. 

Starting with the Voynich Manuscript. 

Each of these labels will have a number to indicate the page so referencing will be easier in the future. 

Since these labels are just my creations and not related to me I will need a separate journal for these 

 

[Preety_India]

I will make a separate journal later when enough of these labels have been ready. 

 

[Preety_India]

 

This guy makes me happy like no other. Whenever I'm having a bad day or boring day, I watch his videos and I instantly laugh and it lasts for hours. 

Thanks to this guy for taking away my blues. 

 

 

Edited July 3, 2020 by Preety_India

[Preety_India]

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Lol Dr Phil 

 

 

Bernie Sanders lol

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

[Preety_India]

I need to start of with Voynich Manuscript. 

I also need to start writing my private journal to create drafts for this journal. 

Sometimes I have something in mind and I'm not quick enough to jot it down here 

In such a case the private journal will come handy. 

 

[Preety_India]

 

Something along these lines

21 hours ago, Preety_India said:

I was thinking about life as a stage.. Not the stage found in theater. But a stage at which the mind stays still and calm and proceeds in equilibrium. 

I will call this stage Omnia Altiorem. 

 

 

 

 

[Preety_India]

 

Omnia Altiorem

I have a similar concept in my mind for this. 

 

Omnia Altiorem is about a stage of mind and spirit. 

Now I have a slightly different concept about the stage of physical things. How they will be in perfect Resonance with the universe and in perfect flow. This will accompany Omnia Altiorem.. 

Because Omnia Altiorem is about the mind. 

Whereas this concept is about the nature of physical things being in tandem with the state of Omnia Altiorem 

 

I will call it Omnia Actum

 

 

 

 

 

Edited July 3, 2020 by Preety_India

[Preety_India]

 

Alk opium 1 

 

I'm filing the above concept under Alk opium page 1 

Omnia Altiorem

I have a similar concept in my mind for this. 

 

Omnia Altiorem is about a stage of mind and spirit. 

Now I have a slightly different concept about the stage of physical things. How they will be in perfect Resonance with the universe and in perfect flow. This will accompany Omnia Altiorem.. 

Because Omnia Altiorem is about the mind. 

Whereas this concept is about the nature of physical things being in tandem with the state of Omnia Altiorem 

 

I will call it Omnia Actum

 

[Preety_India]

 

From now on, I'm going to adopt full on native American style.

I want to fully embrace this particular culture. 

I want to adopt the elements, themes and aspects of native American culture in my life. It suits my inner software. 

 

I've been fascinated by the Native American theme for some time now. 

 

[Preety_India]

 

This is so sad 

 

[Preety_India]

 

I feel like I have a volcano of intelligence growing inside of me. 

 

I'm growing non stop and sometimes this feels like a threat. 

Also my spiritual awareness is expanding at a much rapid rate than I can handle. It is causing me anguish and disgust. 

I think the more you grow in intelligence, the more you disgusted you get looking at the state of society. 

That's what I'm experiencing right now. 

I'm not boasting about myself. But I can see how society is engineered to fail all the good people. 

That's why I am desperately looking for a refuge from this spiritual crisis. 

It's too much spiritual knowledge for me right now and I need to be let off the hook. 

That's the reason why I suddenly started taking interest in Native American culture. 

It seems like I want to live in a teepee in the high mountains in America far away from all the bullshit of the world. 

I don't want to go to the Himalayas because I'm scared my own people will chase me and find out. 

This is a dilemma. I will talk to Andrew about this. 

There are some hills around my house. A little far but I can travel up there. 

When Andrew returns, I will tell him to build a tent for me in the hills near my home where I can live with him. Like a native American teepee. At least for a few days and enjoy some peace. 

 

I want relief from all the human drama and garbage of this planet. 

Phew!! 

 

 

[Preety_India]

 

Some people on this forum are so racist. Goodness. It baffles me. 

Sometimes I just don't want to be here.. 

My mood gets completely destroyed when I read hateful vitriol. 

 

[Preety_India]

Today a bad day on the forum. 

But anyway. There are all kinds of people on this planet, some people who say good things and some people who say hurtful things. 

I love listening to this. Absolutely beautiful.