My self exploration journal 2

[Preety_India]

 

I feel very weak right now. 

 

[Preety_India]

In order to master in life, you should know the trick to the Swan. 

But you should also know the trick of the jackal. 

 

 

Edited June 21, 2020 by Preety_India

[Preety_India]

I was thinking about switching ambience in a room. 

How it would feel in a spiritual sense. 

Switching from a blue room to a red room.

I don't know which color will suit me 

I am not sure until I try it. 

I will have to live  in such rooms to figure it out. 

Personally I always felt like the red room was associated with danger. 

But I'm thinking how does it matter. 

Also the flow of time. I'm wasting too much time. 

I want to be free of all the toxicity 

So I want to do a little something. Of course it can't be done without the help of helpers. 

 

Lmao. I wrote some gibberish because my eyelids were heavy 

 

Edited June 21, 2020 by Preety_India

[Preety_India]

 

I'm still thinking about the rooms

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I think the blue room should be the present room. 

The red room should be no bullshit room

 

 

 

There was a thread made by ibjyor. It was called.... Oh God forgot.. 

 

[Preety_India]

 

Behavior is conditional on circumstances 

 

 

[Preety_India]

Deep down there is zero blame because nobody really chooses to be who they are. 

 

[Preety_India]

 

Just don't say anything pretty. 

Keep the tempo serious. 

 

[Preety_India]

 

Morning I wrote these words in my diary 

                  Forgotten heroes 

                   Crucified warriors 

                   Everyone hurt

                   Everyone traumatized 

                     Everyone ravaged 

                   We live in a world of 

                      Wounded Angels. 

 

[Preety_India]

Today is June 22 and today is a new start to everything. 

I want to feel free

 

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[Preety_India]

One thing that I hugely lack is motivation. 

 

[Preety_India]

I just want to feel good today 

 

[DrewNows]

4 minutes ago, Preety_India said:

I just want to feel good today 

 

i understand it's tempting but please reconsider....

what exactly are you my dear? 

[Preety_India]

1 hour ago, DrewNows said:

i understand it's tempting but please reconsider....

what exactly are you my dear? 

I'm a lost soul looking for love, acceptance, happiness and freedom. 

 

 

[DrewNows]

Just now, Preety_India said:

I'm a lost soul looking for love, acceptance, happiness and freedom. 

 

 

You are the only ONE able to grant these 3 wishes.

There’s no-one else, I assure you,,,

how to accept this is up to you, no matter who stands beside you. 

the highs and lows my friend, look UP!!!?

[Preety_India]

 

1 hour ago, DrewNows said:

You are the only ONE able to grant these 3 wishes.

There’s no-one else, I assure you,,,

how to accept this is up to you, no matter who stands beside you. 

the highs and lows my friend, look UP!!!?

You're very kind. Thank you friend. 

 

[Preety_India]

 

Ordered and ate a pizza to feel better. 

 

Comfort food

 

 

 

[Preety_India]

 

There is always a two pronged issue with sale of any item

 

One is that if the item is too easily available and everyone is selling it and the item floods the market, it doesn't get sold because someone else has sold out the item before you. The supply far exceeds the demand making the item redundant. 

The other problem is when the item is rare yet its not in demand because nobody is needing it currently, so it stays in the market but nobody buys because they don't want it. Those who need it are a small niche segment of the market. They rarely need if they do and they could be mostly self sufficient themselves in procuring this rare item, further reducing its necessity and thus it becomes redundant because of an extremely low demand. 

So both ways, the sale suffers. The best is to sell an intermediary item that is needed and has reasonable demand, is short in supply for the whole market and the segment is not a niche but a general larger populace. 

That will definitely be a done sale. 

 

 

[Preety_India]

I'll divide people that you date into distinct leagues.. 

I have created 6 leagues depending on behaviors 

This helps to know that you're always dealing with the top leagues. It's like a spectrum. 

Starting from bottom to top 

League 6

 

 

 

League 5

 

 

 

League 4 

 

 

 

League 3 

Moderate formal but good behavior 

 

 

League 2 

Good behavior, commitment, trust, loyalty, honesty, warmth, helpfulness, cooperation, investment of time and energy, effective communication, 

 

League  1 the top, best behaviors, decency, mannerisms, language, general mentality, work ethic, qualifications, little to no flaw, deep respect, 

 

 

 

[Preety_India]

The other concepts I wish to explore

• Green to be mixed little bit red and blue. 
• Time money energy, mental and emotional state, damages, physical health 
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Edited June 23, 2020 by Preety_India

[Preety_India]

 

Last night I saw Leo in my dreams again. It was kinda funny. He was sitting inside a closet and lecturing. Meanwhile I was sitting across him and listening. It was a bit boring and the dream was too stretched. I was asking Leo a bunch of questions and he began talking about his health suddenly and then he was talking about the preoccupation of the masses with fitness, how it had turned into an obsession. So I asked him, "isn't that a good thing?" and he said that there are natural ways to remain fit and the ways people have invented are only disastrous. He kept adjusting the light bulb in the closet. And sat again to jot down his ideas. He was looking gaunt and skinny. I decided to leave but then he called me back again so once again I sat there. He started saying how the problems of the world are very deep and a proper resolution won't come right away. 

Dream abruptly ends and I wake up. This wasn't a nightmare.