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Would the ancient Egyptians think that we are too crazy to open their tombs just to get a look at their art? 

Would they think we are crazy to be so obsessed with their culture? 

Would they think we are crazy to work so hard and make museums out of their civilization? Maybe if they existed today they would have handed their artifacts for free to anyone. 

There is so much art in that little room. Omg. 

I wonder what spirits still linger in there 

 

 

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This is a confusing question and there are a lot of things involved in this. Too many elements. 

First is gender roles. These are divided. The woman can also ask the question "why does she have to give birth and raise children and not the man?" maybe the man compensates for the biological role that the woman plays on her own. 

Also woman don't need men as much as men need women. You can see this in the dating pattern itself. Women need more resources. This is obvious because they have responsibilities of raising kids and that's a big job in itself, in a way she is raising the children of the partner because she could choose to raise anyone's children if her desire is to only be a mother. Of course she has to choose a more reliable partner for her children. 

And during child bearing as well as while raising kids, it's not very hard o understand that women will have problems in handling both responsibilities of making money as well as raising children. 

The other question is what is a man going to do if he is not even going to be a provider. A woman does not wait for a man to give her emotional support. Because with motherhood she needs a strong shoulder not to cry on, but to handle responsibilities.. She needs resources. Even in nature, a female animal chooses a male who is more resourceful. This is to ensure survival of the species.. 

If you look at nature, in the biological context, the male has the responsibility of protecting the female animals and the young ones. This is how gender roles were created. 

A woman also invests her time and resources in creating the family. Women who make money also invest their money into their families. It won't be fair for her to contribute everything in creating a family whereas a man doesn't do anything, his role in raising children is very minimal because most family responsibilities are handled by women. 

So the least that a man can do is provide for his family and this also includes the woman. 

Now to say that women can do everything on their own and make the same money as men is actually an unfair argument 

Because if you take historic context, then women were never given the opportunity to make money. It was men who made money. Women were never given the empowerment and resources to make money on their own. 

So it's kinda unfair to expect that suddenly out of the blue, all women will have the ability to work as men or make money like men. 

When it comes to money, the power and the social structure or hierarchy is designed in such a way that men tend to have more wealth than women. It's only in modern times that you see women making money but not on the same level as men. This could be  because of the fact that women are not empowered enough or it could be that the society is designed in such a way that it is tilted in the favor of men when it comes to accumulating wealth. Often women get discriminated in jobs or workplace and the pay ratio is always higher for men.. Now you can always argue and say that men work harder. But you cannot compare  the ability of a woman to the ability of a man. Maybe from the female perspective, whatever she is putting in is equal hard work given her capacity. There is also a historical context as to why we have lower expectations from women and higher expectations from men. 

In the end this is not about male versus female or man versus woman but more about creating a society that gets contribution from both gender. Women contribute in their own ways and if this contribution can be supported and complemented then that's what needs to be done. 

In a way if you say it's not fair for a man to support a woman then in another way its also not fair for a woman to be giving birth and raising kids on their own just because it's biology. Women can also complain how men don't have to bear children. The thing is that women can't complain because it's biology. 

It's always much easier for men to complain. 

In some context, traditional gender roles actually favor men more than women. If I look at my situation in my country, i feel like it's a man who benefits from the traditional gender role. Because he only has to give a minimal amount to his family and the woman survives on a minimal amount whereas in return she bears him children, raises the kids, takes care of his home, sacrifices her career in order to create his family and does not have any skills or options to make money and is completely dependent on the favors of the husband. Meanwhile the husband gets a career, a woman, sex, a family that is children, emotional support, money and everything that he can get in life. It's the woman who suffers. Because the kids grow up and have their own lives and after the husbands death she has nothing left for herself in terms of emotional and financial support since the daddy money has to be divided among the kids. In a way she sacrifices her life for basic survival with the man which she can do anyway by just doing some odd job. 

Take my example. I make my own money. Hence I don't feel the need for marriage. Because traditionally in my country women married only for survival. 

Now I see a ton of young girls my age around me. They make money and they don't want to marry. They know what their mothers went through and they don't want to go through the same thing.. 

That's why guys around me are finding it very difficult to get a woman to marry. 

 

The reason is feminism. Women in my country are now ready to work because it's safer to work now than before and they feel more empowered. At the same time they don't feel they need a man anymore because they see marriage as a traditional system that they don't want to be a part of. If they can survive on their own, they don't need a man anymore. 

However a lot of men resent this because that way they don't get women. Oppressive societies were beneficial to men because there was a way to pressure women into marrying them 

Now there is no such pressure. So women are free and not wanting to marry. 

If this situation continues let's say for another 200 years, it is not women who will suffer, because they will enjoy single status as well as motherhood if they want it but men will find difficult to get women 

In a way men would resent the independence and freedom of a woman because they won't have a way to control her or a way to establish a neediness in women 

If a woman wants emotional support she can rely on her girl friends. Or family 

If she wants sex, she can use a man as a sperm machine.

In order to get sex and romance, a woman doesn't need to be bounded by traditional roles of wife and motherhood. She can simply fuck a guy. She can refuse marrying him. Men won't be happy with such a system because they not only want the woman but they also want kids and marriage and a sense of ownership. 

So in a way, the traditional system of gender roles was actually meant to benefit men at the expense of dependency of women 

It's men who chase women. It's not the other way around. 

Men won't be happy with a system where a woman is totally sexually independent and has many male companions for sex. Because men want a sense of ownership. Women also want it but they can have it when they want it. 

The rejection primarily comes from a woman. Women see men as an option to choose from whereas men see women as an opportunity they don't want to miss. 

Therefore in a way the traditional system actually benefits men and they would rather want to be the provider than have it the other way around. 

If women get all the power in terms of resources, the opportunities for men will further decline 

 

Maybe that's the reason patriarchy existed in the first place 

 


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Now see its really simple. Everything eventually condenses to direct experience and rest is speculation. 

All you want as a man is pickup and a relationship and better understanding of female nature 

Now

For pickup, you simply follow Leo's advice, you don't need any YouTube channel or course unless you are eager to pay for it and it's easily available in your area. 

For pickup without any course, you simply follow Leo's advice that he is always giving.  GO OUT, SOCIALIZE, APPROACH.  This is a simple advice that Leo always gives and which a lot of men don't follow and waste their time discussing rather than actually doing things.

For understanding female nature, all you need is a female in your life. Once you master approaching women in real life and spend too much time with too many women, you gradually learn a lot about female nature purely through direct experience. You won't need any false YouTube guru who probably has never dated and is simply invested in fooling men and making money, because stuff like this attracts men so much, they are ready to pay lots of money for it, you won't need that or any course or book or coach. 

The thing is no matter how much you read on a forum and discuss or watch or listen to these things, nothing comes closer to direct experience, you're simply wasting your time discussing too much about women without having a woman.. It is pointless. A pure waste of time. 

What you need is to get out of the box and test the waters yourself. Go out, socialize, improve your skills in the direct process, move to a city where you can meet many people, once you are confident you definitely get at least one woman after many trials and then you can use that opportunity to build a relationship and even if it fails, your experience will teach you how to avoid the same mistakes in future relationships and how to be better at understanding the woman you would be with. 

The bottom line is that relationships can't be created through courses, books and programs. You have to actually do it and be it. You have to have a relationship to know what a relationship feels and looks like and understand and experience its ups and downs. 

You cannot understand war or the challenges of a war by simply reading or hearing/discussing about it. You will need to actually experience a war to really know what its like be in a war situation. 

Relationships are hard work. It's not sitting and eating corn. Relationships are both good and bad, a blessing as well as a curse. Relationships can make or break. They are not fairy tales. To create relationships you need tons of willpower and bravery and Openness. You can't start relationships with hesitation or avoidance or fear. Then you won't fall in love.. You need boldness to fall in love and completely trust another person 

Also relationships are a lot of hard work and challenge. No bed of roses. I have been through multiple relationships. It's a lot of work to be there for someone.. It's like a responsibility or a job. Most people just shy away from it. They only want the rosy part of a relationship, but not the work part. 

So yes, you cannot be sitting at home on a couch or computer and expecting a relationship to magically happen

You will need to work very hard for it happen in your life. 

And even if you work hard, you will go through multiple failures and dejections and disappointments that will make you upset or hurt. But this is a test.. It will test your resilience. So it's not necessary that your first relationship will magically turn out to be successful. 

Maybe your third or fourth relationship will become successful after a lot of trial and error if you fortunately find a compatible person. 

Most people in relationships struggle a lot. Very few lucky people have a successful first relationship. For most people their second or next relationship turns out to be better because by then they learn how to spot a compatible person. Till then they keep struggling. 

Getting a partner/woman is just the first step of the ladder. 

The next step is to preserve and maintain the relationship. Its like maintaining a garden. If you don't, the garden will be destroyed. 

So a lot of the men on here who discuss excessively about pickup actually don't have much experience and are not willing to try in real life. It's easy to talk online.. But it takes serious hard work to go there and meet many people and do practical things. 

It's basically what life is. You can't dream life or discuss life. You have to live it. 

 


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I had this dream last night where I would see a woman posed in different places in different ways. Different women each time. And then it would disappear like an illusion. 

The dream was abrupt.. I still can't remember bits and details. 

 


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3150 divided by 18 days - 175 bags 

 

360 divided by 18 days. - minimum 20 syrup every day. 

Record 

1st day - 

2nd day - today at 4am. Saturday August 1.... 34 syrup and 293 bags 

Right now. 36  Syrup and 314  bags 

3rd day - 

4th day - 

5th day - 

6th day 

7th day - 

 

 

 

 

 

Calculations 

1st day - 20 syrup and 175 bags 

2nd day Saturday - 40 syrup 350 

3rd day Sunday  - 60 syrup 525 

4th day Monday - 80 syrup 700 bags 

5th day Tuesday - 100 syrup  875 bags 

6th day  Wednesday - 120 syrup  and 1050 bags 

7th day Thursday - 140 syrup and 1225 bags 

8th Friday - 160 syrup and 1400 bags 

9th Saturday - 180 syrup 1575 bags 

10th Sunday  - 200 syrup 1750 bags 

11th Monday  - 220 syrup and 1925 bags 

12th  Tuesday - 240 syrup and 2100 bags 

13th Wednesday - 260 syrup and  2275 bags 

14th Thursday - 280 syrup and  2450 bags 

15th Friday - 300 syrup and  2625 bags 

16th Saturday - 320 syrup and  2800 bags 

17th Sunday - 340 syrup and   2975 bags 

18th Monday  - 360 syrup and 3150 bags 

 

 

 

 

 

 

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Some of my favorite hindi songs 

 

I will need to write them. The links disappear 

पल भर में ये क्या हो गया
वो मैं गयी वो मन गया
चुनरी कहे सुन री पवन
सावन लाया अब के सजन…. 

 

Dil kee aawaaz bhee sun mere fasaane pe naa jaa
Meree nazaron kee taraf dekh zamaane pe naa jaa
Ik nazar dekh le, jeene kee ijaazat de de
Roothane waale woh pahalee see mohabbat de de…

 

तू जहाँ जहाँ चलेगा,
मेरा साया, साथ होगा
तू जहाँ जहाँ चलेगा,
मेरा साया, साथ होगा
मेरा साया, मेरा साया
मेरा साया, मेरा साया

 

Ha ha kitne sapne kitne arma laya hu mai
Dekho na, dekho na
Hey mera dil bhi ek mehfil hai
Tum bhi kabhi aao na baitho na

Tumse milke yu to mahak raha hu
Phir bhi mai akela bahak raha hu
Tumse milke yu to mahak raha hu
Phir bhi mai akela bahak raha hu
Meri andheri hai tanhaiya koi diya tum jala do na
Hey kitne sapne kitne arma laya hu mai
Dekho na, dekho na

 

 

Joker!
Joker!
Joker!

कहता है joker, सारा ज़माना
आधी हक़ीकत, आधा फ़साना
चश्मा उतारो, फिर देखो यारो
दुनिया नयी है, चेहरा पुराना
कहता है joker, सारा ज़माना
आधी हक़ीकत, आधा फ़साना
कहता है joker

अपने पे हँस कर, जग को हँसाया
बनके तमाशा मेले में आया
अपने पे हँस कर, जग को हँसाया
बनके तमाशा मेले में आया
मेले में आया
हिन्दु न मुस्लिम, पूरब न पश्चिम
हिन्दु न मुस्लिम, पूरब न पश्चिम
मज़हब है अपना हँसना-हँसाना
कहता है joker, सारा ज़माना
आधी हक़ीकत, आधा फ़साना
कहता है joker

 

 

sab kuchh seekha hamne naa seekhi hoshiyari sab kuchh seekha hamne naa seekhi hoshiyari sach hai duniyawalo ki ham hai anadi duniya ne kitna samjhaya kaun hai apna kaun paraya phir bhi dil ki chot chhupa kar hamne aapka dil bahalaya khud hi mar mitne ki ye zid hai hamari khud hi mar mitane ki ye zid hai hamari sach hai duniyawalo ki ham hai anadi

 

गुलाबी आँखें जो तेरी देखीं
शराबी ये दिल हो गया
सम्भालो मुझको, ओ मेरे यारों
सम्भलना मुश्किल हो गया
गुलाबी आँखें जो तेरी देखीं
शराबी ये दिल हो गया

 

अकेले हैं चले आओ जहाँ हो
अकेले हैं चले आओ जहाँ हो
कहाँ आवाज़ दें तुमको कहाँ हो
अकेले हैं चले आओ जहाँ हो

तुम्हें हम ढूँढते हैं हमें दिल ढूँढता है
तुम्हें हम ढूँढते हैं हमें दिल ढूँढता है
न अब मंज़िल है कोई न कोई रास्ता है
अकेले हैं चले आओ जहाँ हो
कहाँ आवाज़ दें तुमको कहाँ हो
अकेले हैं

 

आते जाते खूब्सूरत आवारा सड़कों पे
कभी कभी इत्तेफ़ाक़ से

आते जाते खूब्सूरत आवारा सड़कों पे
कभी कभी इत्तेफ़ाक़ से

कितने अंजान लोग मिल जाते हैं
उन में से कुछ लोग भूल जाते हैं
कुछ याद रह जाते हैं
उन में से कुछ लोग भूल जाते हैं
कुछ याद रह जाते हैं

आते जाते खूब्सूरत आवारा सड़कों पे
कभी कभी इत्तेफ़ाक़ से
कितने अंजान लोग मिल जाते हैं
उन में से कुछ लोग भूल जाते हैं
कुछ याद रह जाते हैं
उन में से कुछ लोग भूल जाते हैं
कुछ याद रह जाते हैं

 

आप के हसीन रुख़ पे आज नया नूर है
मेरा दिल मचल गया तो मेरा क्या क़ुसूर है
आप के हसीन रुख़ पे आज नया नूर है
मेरा दिल मचल गया तो मेरा क्या क़ुसूर है…

 

Mujhko Is Raat Ki Tanhai Me Aavaaz Na Do
Aavaaz Na Do, Aavaaz Na Do
Jiski Aavaaz Rula De Mujhe Vo Saaz Na Do
Vo Saaz Na Do, Aavaaz Na Do

 

शाम-ए-ग़म की कसम
आज ग़मगीं हैं हम
आ भी जा, आ भी जा, आज मेरे सनम
शाम-ए-ग़म की कसम

दिल परेशान है, रात वीरान है
देख जा, किस तरह आज तन्हाँ हैं हम
शाम-ए-ग़म की कसम

चैन कैसा जो पहलू में तू ही नहीं
मार डाले न दर्द-ए-जुदाई कहीं
रुत हसीं  है तो क्या, चांदनी है तो क्या
चांदनी ज़ुल्म है और जुदाई सितम
शाम-ए-ग़म की कसम...

अब तो आजा के अब रात भी सो गई
ज़िन्दगी ग़म के सहराओं में खो गई
ढूंढती है नज़र, तू कहाँ है मगर
देखते देखते आया आँखों में दम
शाम-ए-ग़म की कसम...

... 

Hmmm Hmmm Hmmm Hmmm
Hmm Hmm Hmmm
Hmm Hmmm Hmm

Tum Pukar Lo
Tumhara Intezaar Hai
Tum Pukar Lo
Khwaab Chun Rahi Hai Raat Beqarar Hai
Tumhara Intezaar Hai
Tum Pukar Lo

Honth Pe Liye Hue
Dil Ki Baat Hum
Jaagte Rahenge Aur
Kitni Raat Hum

... 

Kitna haseen mausum 

Kitna haseen safar hai 

 

....... 

Yeh parbaton ke daayare yeh shaam ka dhuan
Aise mein kyon na chhed dein dilon ki dasta

......... 

Ye raat jaise dulhan ban gayi charaagon se
Karungaa ujaalaa main dil ke daagon se

Aaj ki raat mere dil ki salaami le le
Kal teri bajm se diwaanaa chala jaayega
Shamma reh jaayegi parawana chala jaayega

Teri mehafil tere jalwe ho mubaarak tujh ko
Teri ulfat se nahi aaj bhi inkaar mujhe
Tera mayakhana salamat rahe aye jana-e-wafa
Muskura kar tu zara dekh le ek baar mujhe
Phir tere pyaar ka mastana chala jaayega

...... 

Aye mere dil-e-nadan tu gham se na ghabarana (2)
Ik din to samajh legi duniya tera afsaana
Aye mere dil-e-nadan tu gham se na ghabarana (2)

Armaan bhare dil mein zakhmon ko jagah de de (2)
Bhadke hue sholon ko kuch aur hawa dede
Banti hai to ban jaaye yeh zindagi afsaana
Aye mere dil-e-nadan tu gham se na ghabarana

... 

तुम अपना रंज-ओ-ग़म, अपनी परेशानी मुझे दे दो तुम्हें ग़म की क़सम, इस दिल की वीरानी मुझे दे दो (?) ये माना मैं किसी क़ाबिल नहीं हूँ इन निगाहों में - २ बुरा क्या है अगर, ये दुख ये हैरानी मुझे दे दो तुम अपना ... मैं देखूँ तो सही, दुनिया तुम्हें कैसे सताती है - २ कोई दिन के लिये, अपनी निगहबानी मुझे दे दो तुम अपना ... वो दिल जो मैने मांगा था मगर गैरों ने पाया - २ बड़ी इनायत है अगर, उसकी पशेमानी मुझे दे दो तुम अपना ...

......... 

Dil Se Tujhko Bedili Hai
Mujhko Hai Dil Ka Guroor
Tu Yeh Maane Ya Na Maane
Log Maanenge Zaroor

Yeh Mera Deewanapan Hai
Ya Mohabbat Ka Suroor
Tu Na Pehchaane To Hai Yeh
Teri Nazron Ka Kusoor
Yeh Mera Deewanapan ...

Dil Ko Teri Hi Tamanna
Dil Ko Hai Tujhse Hi Pyar
Chaahe Tu Aaye Na Aaye

...... 

मुझे प्यार की ज़िंदगी देने वाले
मुझे प्यार की ज़िंदगी देने वाले
कभी ग़म न देना, खुशी देने वाले
मुझे प्यार की ज़िंदगी देने वाले

मुहब्बत के वादे, भुला तो न दोगे
कहीं मुझसे दामन छुड़ा तो न लोगे
मुहब्बत के वादे, भुला तो न दोगे
कहीं मुझसे दामन छुड़ा तो न लोगे
मेरे दिल की दुनिया, है तेरे हवाले

 

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Yesterday I was digging through some old hindi stuff. 

 

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Regarding looks, also keep in mind that the face displays ones personality.

My take on it is not that looks are unimportant, but one should focus on the aspects of the looks that are personally appealing, not appealing necessarily to men/women in general.

So a person may have features that notify you that they are "your type". In this sense, they appear attractive to you more so than to your gender in general (ignoring homosexual relationships to word the point more easily).

So yeah... When considering looks, be mindful of whether you are looking at it in the right way.

Edit: actually, even if theres nothing sexual about it, the face still indicates whether you would go well with someone's personality, so what I said goes for any relationship (or awareness of more generally) with any gender.

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  On 8/1/2020 at 10:07 PM, Artsu said:

So a person may have features that notify you that they are "your type". In this sense, they appear attractive to

Yea agree with it. Sometimes I think there is a similarity between the owner and their pet. 

 


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I was looking at Dilip Kumar's stuff today. He is such an amazing actor and his younger flicks had such boldness. Those characters were awesome. 

I dug out his stuff today. 

 


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I just love these lyrics 

Mujhe pyar me khat kisi ne likha hai
Mujhe pyar me khat kisi ne likha hai
Likha hai ke di luska mujhpe fida hai
Mila aj to bolta kuch nahi
Khuda jane uski ye kaisi ada hai
Mujhe pyar me khat kisi ne likha hai

 

Mujhe dekhta hai bade pyar se wo
Mujhe dekhta hai bade pyar se wo
Magar mai jo dekhu wo ankhe churale
Chidakta hai waise to wo jan mujhpar
Chidakta hai waise to wo jan mujhpar

 

Mujhe koi chede jo wo mar dale
Y6e kya raz hai aapko kuch pata hai
Khuda jane uski ye kaisi ada hai
Mujhe pyar me khat kisi ne likha hai

 

Hasino se yu saram ati ho jisko
Hasino se yu saram ati ho jisko
Mohabbat ka dawa kare wo to kaise
Ye kya khub mahbub mujhko mila hai
Bahut kam jamane me aashik hai aise
Sitamgara hai wo

 

Sitamar ka andaz hi kuch naya hai
Khuda jane uski ye kaisi ada hai
Mujhe pyar me khat kisi ne likha hai

 

Mujhe pyar me khat kisi ne likha hai
Likha hai ke di luska mujhpe fida hai
Mila aj to bolta kuch nahi
Khuda jane uski ye kaisi ada hai
Mujhe pyar me khat kisi ne likha hai.

Mujhe dekhta hai bade pyar se wo
Mujhe dekhta hai bade pyar se wo
Magar mai jo dekhu wo ankhe churale
Chidakta hai waise to wo jan mujhpar
Chidakta hai waise to wo jan mujhpar

 

Mujhe koi chede jo wo mar dale
Y6e kya raz hai aapko kuch pata hai
Khuda jane uski ye kaisi ada hai
Mujhe pyar me khat kisi ne likha hai

 

Hasino se yu saram ati ho jisko
Hasino se yu saram ati ho jisko
Mohabbat ka dawa kare wo to kaise
Ye kya khub mahbub mujhko mila hai
Bahut kam jamane me aashik hai aise
Sitamgara hai wo

 

Sitamar ka andaz hi kuch naya hai
Khuda jane uski ye kaisi ada hai
Mujhe pyar me khat kisi ne likha hai

 

Mujhe pyar me khat kisi ne likha hai
Likha hai ke di luska mujhpe fida hai
Mila aj to bolta kuch nahi
Khuda jane uski ye kaisi ada hai
Mujhe pyar me khat kisi ne likha hai.

 

 

... 

नैनों में बदरा छाए
बिजली सी चमके हाए
ऐसे में बलम मोहे, गरवा लगा ले
नैनों में बदरा छाए

मदिरा में डूबी अँखियाँ
चंचल हैं दोनों सखियाँ
झलती रहेंगी तोहे
पलकों की प्यारी पखियाँ
शरमा के देंगी तोहे, मदिरा के प्याले
नैनों में बदरा छाए

प्रेम दीवानी हूँ मैं
सपनो की रानी हूँ मैं
प्रेम दीवानी

.... 

Aankhon me rang bhar ke tere intezar ka
Afasana likh rahi hoon
Haansil hai yun to mujhako zamane ki
Daulate
Zamane ki daulate
Haansil hai yun to mujhako zamane ki
Daulate
Zamane ki daulate
Lekin nasib laayi
Lekin nasib laayi hoon ik sogavar ka
Aankhon mein rang bhar ke tere intezar ka
Afasana likh rahi hoon
Aaja ki ab to aankh mein aansu bhi aa
Gaye
Aansu bhi aa gaye
Aaja ki ab to aankh mein aansu bhi aa
Gaye
Aansu bhi aa gaye…

.... 

तू इस तरह से मेरी ज़िंदगी में शामिल है जहाँ भी जाऊँ ये लगता है, तेरी महफ़िल है ये आसमान ये बादल ये रास्ते ये हवा हर एक चीज़ है अपनी जगह ठिकाने पे कई दिनों से शिकायत नहीं ज़माने से ये ज़िंदगी है सफ़र तू सफ़र कि मंज़िल है,

... 

ठंडी हवाएँ, लहरा के आयें
रुत है जवां
तुमको यहाँ, कैसे बुलाएँ
ठंडी हवाएँ...

चाँद और तारे, हँसते नज़ारे
मिल के सभी, दिल में सखी, जादू जगाये
ठंडी हवाएँ...

कहा भी न जाए, रहा भी न जाए
तुमसे अगर, मिले भी नज़र, हम झेंप जाए
ठंडी हवाएँ...

दिल के फ़साने, दिल भी न जाने
तुमको सजन, दिल की लगन, कैसे बताएँ
ठंडी हवाएँ...

...... 

सौ बार जनम लेंगे, सौ बार फ़ना होंगे
ऐ जान-ए-वफ़ा फिर भी, हम तुम न जुदा होंगे
सौ बार जनम लेंगे, सौ बार फ़ना होंगे

क़िस्मत हमे मिलने से, रोकेगी भला कब तक
इन प्यार की राहों में, भटकेगी वफ़ा कब तक
क़दमों के निशाँ खुद ही, मंज़िल का पता होंगे
सौ बार जनम लेंगे, सौ बार फ़ना होंगे

ये कैसी उदासी है, जो हुस्न पे छाई है
हम दूर नहीं तुम से, कहने को जुदाई…

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So I was looking into Dilip stuff. 

And I saw some pics as well. 

He was kinda cuter In his younger days. 

 

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  On 7/31/2020 at 5:38 PM, Preety_India said:

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

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  On 7/31/2020 at 10:40 PM, Preety_India said:

 

3150 divided by 18 days - 175 bags 

 

360 divided by 18 days. - minimum 20 syrup every day. 

Record 

1st day - 

2nd day - today at 4am. Saturday August 1.... 34 syrup and 293 bags 

Right now. 36  Syrup and 314  bags 

3rd day - 

4th day - 

5th day - 

6th day 

7th day - 

 

 

 

 

 

Calculations 

1st day - 20 syrup and 175 bags 

2nd day Saturday - 40 syrup 350 

3rd day Sunday  - 60 syrup 525 

4th day Monday - 80 syrup 700 bags 

5th day Tuesday - 100 syrup  875 bags 

6th day  Wednesday - 120 syrup  and 1050 bags 

7th day Thursday - 140 syrup and 1225 bags 

8th Friday - 160 syrup and 1400 bags 

9th Saturday - 180 syrup 1575 bags 

10th Sunday  - 200 syrup 1750 bags 

11th Monday  - 220 syrup and 1925 bags 

12th  Tuesday - 240 syrup and 2100 bags 

13th Wednesday - 260 syrup and  2275 bags 

14th Thursday - 280 syrup and  2450 bags 

15th Friday - 300 syrup and  2625 bags 

16th Saturday - 320 syrup and  2800 bags 

17th Sunday - 340 syrup and   2975 bags 

18th Monday  - 360 syrup and 3150 bags 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Sunday..8.42 am  Recorded. 104 and 601.

 

 


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Part 2

 

गुम सुम सा ये जहाँ, ये रात ये हवा हे : एक साथ आज दो दिल धड़केंगे दिल्रुबा दो : गुम सुम सा ये जहाँ, ये रात ये समा हे : देखो वो चाँद बदली की ओट में छुपने लगा गी : ये नील गगन भी प्यार के आगे झुकने लगा हे : इतनी हसीन गी : इतनी शरीर हे : है चाँद की ये अदा दो : गुम सुम सा ये जहाँ, ये रात ये हवा गी : उल्फ़त में चूर दुनिया से दूर हम आ ही गये हे : मंज़िल के पास अब तो हुज़ूर हम आ ही गये गी : चाहत के फूल हे : देखें न धूल दो : डाली से न हो जुदा दो : गुम सुम सा ये जहाँ, ये रात ये हवा एक साथ आज दो दिल धड़केंगे दिल्रुबा गुम सुम सा ये जहाँ, ये रात ये समा

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Guzra hua zamana
Aata nahin dobara
Haafiz khuda tumhara

 

Guzra hua zamana
Aata nahin dobara
Haafiz khuda tumhara
Haafiz khuda tumhara

 

Khushiya thin chaar pal ki
Aansoo hain umr bhar ke
Tanhaaiyon mein aqsar
Royenge yaad kar ke
Wo waqt jo ki hamne
Wo waqt jo ki hamne
Ik saath hai guzara
Haafiz khuda tumhara

 

Meri qasam hai mujhko
Tum bewafaa na kehna
Majboor thi muhabbat
Sab kuchh padaa hai sehna
Toofaan hai zindagi ka
Toofaan hai zindagi kaa
Ab aakhiri sahara
Haafiz khuda tumhara
Haafiz khuda tumhara

 

Mere liye sahar bhi
Aayi hai raat ban kar
Nikla mera janaazaa
Meri baraat ban kar
Achchhaa huaa jo tumne
Dekha na ye nazara
Haafiz khuda tumhara.

 

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In order to find a smooth curve first you need to go through turbulence 

 

 

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