My self exploration journal 2

[Preety_India]

On 7/21/2020 at 7:14 PM, Preety_India said:

MEE gets destroyed by low primal energy. 

When you have high primal energy, your MEE is naturally high and maintained at peak levels. 

So MEE needs to be constantly replenished if the primal energy is low, it's like filling water into a glass tube that has a hole in it. 

 

 

[Preety_India]

On 7/25/2020 at 1:28 AM, Preety_India said:

 

For the past 5 days I have been thinking of the nature of society. 

And I got an insight today during my early morning meditation. 

And the insight was that we need a foundational institution in every society and this is what is lacking. 

I will elaborate on this. 

 

 

On 7/25/2020 at 2:52 AM, Preety_India said:

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Shadow work and shadow resolution is going to be a big focus for me this year 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

On 7/25/2020 at 8:39 AM, Preety_India said:

 

Recent events of stress... Record it.. In private journal. 

 

 

Keep a 3 hour block period. Describe it in your private journal. 

This way I can have a track of time.

 

 

 

On 7/25/2020 at 9:58 AM, Preety_India said:

Also stress is very dangerous. 

It impedes motivation 

 

 

 

On 7/24/2020 at 9:24 PM, Preety_India said:

 

 

I DESERVE TO LIVE 

   I DESERVE TO BE HAPPY 

   I DESERVE TO BE LOVED 

  I DESERVE TO BE ALIVE, TO SURVIVE AND TO THRIVE 

     I DESERVE FREEDOM 

   I DESERVE MY OWN SPACE 

     I DESERVE LIFE, A GOOD LIFE 

 

I DESERVE TO BE LOVED WHETHER I AM A GOOD PERSON OR A BAD PERSON 

 

I DESERVE TO BE HEALTHY 

 

 

I DESERVE TO BE RESPECTED 

 

I DESERVE TO BE TREATED FAIR AND EQUAL

 

I DESERVE MY PRIVACY AND SPACE 

 

I DESERVE TO BE SAFE 

 

On 7/23/2020 at 2:24 AM, Preety_India said:

 

I want to start a practice of mantra and positive affirmation. 

One mantra. 

July 23.. 2 am 

 

Yes I can do this. Yes I can make this happen. Everything will be alright. 

Things will get better. I will have the willpower to bring change. 

God is with me 

Honesty and hard work is my reward. 

 

 

 

On 7/23/2020 at 2:45 AM, Preety_India said:

Repeat mantra 

 

2.50 am. 

We can do this preety. 

You can do this preety 

This is a long struggle. But struggle will win. 

 I will have the willpower to bring change. 

Honesty and hard work and change  is my reward 

 

We can do this preety. 

You can do this preety 

This is a long struggle. But struggle will win. 

 I will have the willpower to bring change. 

Honesty and hard work and change  is my reward 

 

 

On 7/23/2020 at 7:11 AM, Preety_India said:

 

6 actions to keep the. 

• Draw a circle of salt... Enclosure. 
• Mantra repetition... With positive affirmations 
• Prayers 
• Constant talk 
• Creating /Seeking a stimulating flow of
• Reward points and achievements 
• Struggle is the key 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

On 7/23/2020 at 7:31 PM, Preety_India said:

 

 

 

So I developed two models that will probably work out for me. Don't know. But I can improvise on these models. They are primitive. 

 

 

 

 

 

 

My energy frame model 

Energy 

Motivation 

Goals 

Action 

Insulation 

Fortification 

?

 

 

 

Basic Six Model 

 

Draw a circle of salt.. Enclosure 

Mantra repetitions.. With positive affirmations 

Prayers

Constant talk 

Creating/Seeking a stimulating flow of 

Reward points and achievements 

Struggle is the key 

 

 

 

 

 

On 7/24/2020 at 1:39 PM, Preety_India said:

 

Empowerment and Visualization 

 

Removing shadows and limiting beliefs 

 

Have an abundance based mindset 

 

 

On 7/24/2020 at 1:48 PM, Preety_India said:

The thing is that if you think that you are already fully equipped and empowered then it will create a sense of happiness and this happiness will give you a boost towards motivation, it will develop a natural motivation, this motivation will not only attract positive situations and open up hopeful opportunities, open up new doors, the motivation will also remove you from your depression and help you to not succumb to self defeat and self destruction arising from depression. 

It will reverse the negative chain reaction created by your depression and it will create a positive chain reaction and lead to recovery and thriving. 

 

 

On 7/21/2020 at 3:08 PM, Preety_India said:

Pointers 

• Healing 
• Shadow resolution 
• Working on my sense of deprivation 
• Telling myself that I deserve more and actually believing it 
• Gaining inspiration from those who were lost but want you to heal.. Ancestral inspiration 
• Empowering way of looking at things. 
• Love, acceptance and Flourishing 
• Having a masculine inspiration to complement my feminine 
• Creating stability 
• Focusing on progress. 
• Permanent peace and stability 
• Make huge leaps 
• Big picture thinking 
• Bypassing 
• Dealing with pain body 
• Freedom from limitations and obstructions
• Lifelong companionship 

 

 

Additional pointers 

• Insulation and Fortification 
•  concentrated and directed effort. 
• Reward Mechanism 
• Stimulating motivation 
• Feed what is Enriching to the mind.
• Using romantic energy as a guiding force 
• reward point system
• . Reward jar 
•  

 

My energy frame model

The frame which is required here is 

Energy 

Motivation 

Goals 

Action

Insulation 

Fortification

 

 

[Preety_India]

On 7/13/2020 at 0:15 AM, Preety_India said:

Certain things suck the motivation out of me. 

It's difficult to feel active all the time. 

But I try. 

My sole focus for the next 6 months is me. 

Also I want to stress more on explicit thinking. That is thinking before you take leap. I've been pretty impulsive all my life but this quality has also helped me to have a sharp sense of intuition. 

The problem is if I use too much of my brain to think, I stop thinking with my heart. 

And thinking with my heart is essential for the growth of intuition. 

But anyway there should be a balance. 

Also I wanted to bring in the rhythm system. 

Negativity sucks. It takes away a lot of the energy that you have. 

 

 

On 7/13/2020 at 1:04 AM, Preety_India said:

My goal is to focus more on motivation and inspiration.

To work extremely hard. 

I have always been a hard worker, an extreme hard worker all my life. 

Hard work is what got me so far. 

Sometimes it becomes difficult to convince myself to work harder. 

But that's what I need to do. 

I have to prepare myself for the moment. 

There is no point in being lazy. 

I know tiredness sets in after years of hard work and that's what happened to me. 

But that's okay. 

I can look for new ways to getting inspiration and motivation. 

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On 7/13/2020 at 3:05 AM, Preety_India said:

Digging into sources of inspiration or motivation 

• One thing can be watching motivational videos 
• Keeping 10 minutes for focus only and warming myself up 
• Keeping a timer to track 
• Being positive. Focus on mental state 
• Keeping high levels of physical energy 
• Gently coaxing myself 
• Not giving into negativity. 

 

 

 

 

On 7/13/2020 at 3:22 AM, Preety_India said:

 

One thing that I noticed was that Africans have really inspired me very deeply. 

I didn't know much about African culture. 

But learning something new everyday about African culture is helping me greatly. 

I see Africans are very hard workers. I saw this in the videos.. They are extremely hard working. 

They make amazing art and craft out of sheer hard work. 

This inspired me to work harder. 

Survival is a key component in Africa. It's not easy to survive in Africa under a harsh weather and scarce opportunities for vegetation. Most animals are in the forests who also have a hard time surviving during droughts. 

Water is a huge problem in Africa because it's not easily available. Especially in the jungles where a lot of animals need water to just survive. 

So survival in Africa is a tough job. Yet the African people have a great spirit to make it through day to day. 

 

And survival teaches a lot of ground values necessary for success. 

Africans have a strong traditional value system grounded in honesty and humility. 

They take life as it comes without having extraordinary demands. They are simple people who try to make life simple and logical. 

A lot of African practices directly stem from logic. 

They need the system to be a certain way to function in the right direction. This is a ground truth 

Within a very short span of time, I learned a lot from Africa and African culture. 

Africans place a huge value on color. They like things colorful because they probably see it as a way to decorate life and living. 

They usually prefer bright colors. As seen in the picture. 

 

 

 

On 7/13/2020 at 5:29 AM, Preety_India said:

The energy that is a part of motivation, I will simply call it motivational energy or MEE... Motivation enriched energy. 

Now this MEE is very different from normal energy that is required for doing things. 

This energy creates a drive or motivation. 

Primal energy is basic energy required for everything in the beginning. 

For example of you're a terminally ill patient you will have extremely low primal energy or starting energy. 

Zero starting fuel.

Starting fuel is absolutely essential for getting anything done. 

 

Insulation and deep focus (without distraction) helps conserve both MEE and primal energy and doesn't allow it to dissipate easily. 

 

 

On 7/13/2020 at 5:23 AM, Preety_India said:

 

The frame which is required here is 

Energy 

Motivation 

Goals 

Action

 

I also wanted to discuss the importance of insulation. 

Insulation is extremely important to growth. 

 

 

On 7/13/2020 at 5:32 AM, Preety_India said:

Visualization and inspiration for MEE

MEE simply doesn't drop from the sky. 

You have to build it up. 

How do you build it? 

This is like a fireball that you need to build up. 

This is some pathetic crude work. It's same like hunting a partner for sex. You simply have to do it and there are no short cuts or beautiful elegant ways of doing it. 

It is riddled with frustration just like dating is riddled with frustration of rejections and efforts. 

 

You will need to visualize yourself slowly being motivated. 

Let's say you have a huge amount of pending office data that needs you to read it and sort through it. 

You might feel very lazy and not want to do it and keep pushing it for tomorrow. Because you know it's stressful. 

 

One thing is that you need to lessen the stress factor. The build up of stress will actually prevent you from wanting to do it. The stress will like an eater of energy.. 

Stress can sometimes get you so overwhelmed just with the idea that there is so much to read and sort that it will almost impair you and you will dismiss the project at hand

Once you have handled the stress factor really well, the next step is to visualize how you are going to be motivated. 

Use any form of inspiration, crude or modern. 

Visualize yourself in happy surroundings. 

. Visualize yourself being happy doing it 

 

Visualize yourself positively. 

Visualize yourself getting motivated and feeling the energy of motivation, not like pressure, but happiness. 

Both visualization and inspiration are awesome 

But I can use a host of other techniques to get me on board the motivation ship. 

 

 

On 7/13/2020 at 7:02 AM, Preety_India said:

 

You can either happily motivate yourself or motivate yourself with pressure. 

The problem with pressure is that it's stressful and unhealthy. 

But some people like getting pressure. They see it positively and don't seem to be stressed out by pressure. It's similar to negative motivation. 

For example body fat. 

Some people love being called and praised. It helps them give up bad diets and focus on getting healthier. This is a part of body positivity. 

However for some fat people, fat shaming is better. It works as negative motivation. They work on themselves with great enthusiasm when they are shamed and they use this criticism to actually work on their issues. 

But this is not the same for all. 

 

So happy motivation has far more advantages over unhealthy motivation. 

I wouldn't mind a bit of unhealthy Motivation for a temporary period of time to serve my purpose.. 

It's like whatever works works. 

 

 

 

 

 

On 7/13/2020 at 7:21 AM, Preety_India said:

 

 

The frame which is required here is 

Energy 

Motivation 

Goals 

Action

Insulation 

Fortification 

 

You will need Fortification. By Fortification I mean rapid exclusive growth. 

But this cannot happen without insulation. 

You need growth, spurious growth. This needs some investment and hard work. Like Stage Orange. 

But at the same time, this needs insulation from distraction.. 

Pure focus/effort  and insulation are key components. 

Are you purely focused on your goals or just half assing it. 

 

 

On 7/13/2020 at 8:03 AM, Preety_India said:

I will call it torpedo effort 

 

I get what torpedoe efforts means but in this case the word mean razor focus. 

 

It's like concentrated and directed effort. 

 

 

On 7/18/2020 at 7:17 AM, Preety_India said:

 

I think Pisces have a lot of dualities.. 

Like I think that a cat and Swan are my spirit animals. But I understand that even a wolf can be my spirit animal. 

So it's all these three. 

Since I have the Scorpio as an ascendant, I tend to sometimes project wolf like qualities or at least I am attracted to wolf like qualities. 

 

 

On 7/20/2020 at 8:51 AM, Preety_India said:

I need to have an empowered way of looking at things. 

 

 

On 7/21/2020 at 10:04 AM, Preety_India said:

After contemplating over my shadows, I have to now think of the future and let go of the past and let the past be a small ornament in a box that I can always open and look at. 

The past no longer serves any purpose other than inspiring me to live my best life.. 

The things I gathered from the contemplative writing over the last hour are 

My focus should be on healing. 

I should come to terms with my shadows and let them rest in peace. Let the shadows leave me for good and I be free of them or at least be least impacted. 

My focus should be on love and acceptance and Flourishing 

Yesterday this thought also came in my realm that what I'm looking for is a sense of permanent peace and stability. 

Only with this sense of stability I can actually launch and keep making huge leaps in the direction of progress. 

Now progress is a golden word. 

Growth and progress are two different things. 

You could have growth without progress. 

Or 

You could have progress without progress. 

But the best is growth with progress 

 

 

 

 

The lack of stability is the bump on the road, the lack of stability is the obstruction to further progress. 

 

On 7/22/2020 at 4:53 AM, Preety_India said:

I'm trying to think of a name right now. A term that I can coin for a new concept 

Not a label. But just a term. 

For a specific type of communication pattern 

A type of communication pattern that I'm currently working on. 

.. 

I will call this........ 

Hmm

I will call this Menogenion method of communication. 

It's a supple method which combines literature, artsy kind of, vague, like modern art, not very deep, but combines many forms and features, some clever designing and very elegant and fluent. Very aesthetic. 

 

 

 

 

 

 

[Preety_India]

Today I will do not an insight meditation but an Empowering meditation 

 

 

[Preety_India]

Abundance mindset and Empowering way of looking at things. 

 

[Preety_India]

 

 

Now see its really simple. Everything eventually condenses to direct experience and rest is speculation. 

All you want as a man is pickup and a relationship and better understanding of female nature 

Now

For pickup, you simply follow Leo's advice, you don't need any YouTube channel or course unless you are eager to pay for it and it's easily available in your area. 

For pickup without any course, you simply follow Leo's advice that he is always giving.  GO OUT, SOCIALIZE, APPROACH.  This is a simple advice that Leo always gives and which a lot of men don't follow and waste their time discussing rather than actually doing things.

For understanding female nature, all you need is a female in your life. Once you master approaching women in real life and spend too much time with too many women, you gradually learn a lot about female nature purely through direct experience. You won't need any false YouTube guru who probably has never dated and is simply invested in fooling men and making money, because stuff like this attracts men so much, they are ready to pay lots of money for it, you won't need that or any course or book or coach. 

The thing is no matter how much you read on a forum and discuss or watch or listen to these things, nothing comes closer to direct experience, you're simply wasting your time discussing too much about women without having a woman.. It is pointless. A pure waste of time. 

What you need is to get out of the box and test the waters yourself. Go out, socialize, improve your skills in the direct process, move to a city where you can meet many people, once you are confident you definitely get at least one woman after many trials and then you can use that opportunity to build a relationship and even if it fails, your experience will teach you how to avoid the same mistakes in future relationships and how to be better at understanding the woman you would be with. 

The bottom line is that relationships can't be created through courses, books and programs. You have to actually do it and be it. You have to have a relationship to know what a relationship feels and looks like and understand and experience its ups and downs. 

You cannot understand war or the challenges of a war by simply reading or hearing/discussing about it. You will need to actually experience a war to really know what its like be in a war situation. 

Relationships are hard work. It's not sitting and eating corn. Relationships are both good and bad, a blessing as well as a curse. Relationships can make or break. They are not fairy tales. To create relationships you need tons of willpower and bravery and Openness. You can't start relationships with hesitation or avoidance or fear. Then you won't fall in love.. You need boldness to fall in love and completely trust another person 

Also relationships are a lot of hard work and challenge. No bed of roses. I have been through multiple relationships. It's a lot of work to be there for someone.. It's like a responsibility or a job. Most people just shy away from it. They only want the rosy part of a relationship, but not the work part. 

So yes, you cannot be sitting at home on a couch or computer and expecting a relationship to magically happen

You will need to work very hard for it happen in your life. 

And even if you work hard, you will go through multiple failures and dejections and disappointments that will make you upset or hurt. But this is a test.. It will test your resilience. So it's not necessary that your first relationship will magically turn out to be successful. 

Maybe your third or fourth relationship will become successful after a lot of trial and error if you fortunately find a compatible person. 

Most people in relationships struggle a lot. Very few lucky people have a successful first relationship. For most people their second or next relationship turns out to be better because by then they learn how to spot a compatible person. Till then they keep struggling. 

Getting a partner/woman is just the first step of the ladder. 

The next step is to preserve and maintain the relationship. Its like maintaining a garden. If you don't, the garden will be destroyed. 

So a lot of the men on here who discuss excessively about pickup actually don't have much experience and are not willing to try in real life. It's easy to talk online.. But it takes serious hard work to go there and meet many people and do practical things. 

It's basically what life is. You can't dream life or discuss life. You have to live it. 

 

[Preety_India]

 

Yesterday I was thinking deeply about the nature of things. 

And what I really felt was a strong sense of sadness. I was thinking why as humans we waste so much potential and time. 

Why we never see the devil who divides us. 

Why we never understand that wars and fights will lead to nothing. 

That we need love more than ever to have permanent peace. 

Of course when I looked over some of my previous posts in this thread, (sometimes I need to take out the time and effort to read my own journals which I rarely do btw), I realized that I was looking for peace and stability and love and acceptance. These were key elements of life. 

But the conclusion was that there is just too much distraction and uselessness and vaccum in the world. I'm strongly into Stage Orange. So for a person like me, this is an utter waste of time. I am ambitious.  So when I see all the distraction I feel very disappointed at how humanity is wasting so much time and potential when so much could have been achieved in the absence of these distractions. 

When I see how people blame and demonize each other, I'm thinking to myself, what is the purpose of all that. 

To me it feels like there is so much distraction, that the real path gets missed. 

There is only one way, just one way towards Infinity and love and growth. Just one way. 

And much of our life is actually spent away from this way. It's really simple. If there is any way, by pure logic, it has to be one. Because multiple ways cannot lead to the same thing. There is only one process that leads to one conclusion. 

But a lot of our good time that could have been spent following this way actually gets spent diverted from this way. Into mindless chatter, arguments, discussions, fights, ego battles and competitions. 

 

Edited July 30, 2020 by Preety_India

[Preety_India]

With feminism and lots of women choosing to be single and not wanting children, we are going to experience historically low birth rates. In such times it's important to have a significantly low mortality rate. 

Yet the mortality rate continues to climb. 

The reason why vaccines were invented, and almost all of human invention from steam engine to automatic food production to invention of medical equipment and general technology was all for the ultimate survival and benefit of mankind 

Yet look at what's happening. Instead of ensuring survival we are sabotaging survival. 

Stress itself is the leading cause of death in the world. People are being paid Lower, middle classes are being taxed and burdened leading to the thinning of the middle class, the elites getting fatter each day, the poorer getting poorer, jobs getting harder or completely automated to remove humans, it's crazy how we are destroying the same thing we worked so hard to secure. In a way humanity is committing mass suicide. 

So many people live without insurance. So many people don't have access to even basic medical care. 

So few doctors. So few hospitals. Governments aren't equipped to treat a large number of sick people. 

The medical field is constantly under funded. 

Much of the funding is usurped by corrupt politicians and a system that looks invisible 

The money is hard to come by. 

And whatever comes goes in invisible ways. 

Governments have failed throughout the world in securing a good future for people. 

Even tribal communities do a better job at sustaining survival of the tribe than the government 

Crime is always high since the 90s. 

Crime has become an ever present problem. 

 

Edited July 30, 2020 by Preety_India

[kagaria]

@Preety_India much better times are ahead.

[Preety_India]

 

1 hour ago, Preety_India said:

With feminism and lots of women choosing to be single and not wanting children, we are going to experience historically low birth rates. In such times it's important to have a significantly low mortality rate. 

Yet the mortality rate continues to climb. 

The reason why vaccines were invented, and almost all of human invention from steam engine to automatic food production to invention of medical equipment and general technology was all for the ultimate survival and benefit of mankind 

Yet look at what's happening. Instead of ensuring survival we are sabotaging survival. 

Stress itself is the leading cause of death in the world. People are being paid Lower, middle classes are being taxed and burdened leading to the thinning of the middle class, the elites getting fatter each day, the poorer getting poorer, jobs getting harder or completely automated to remove humans, it's crazy how we are destroying the same thing we worked so hard to secure. In a way humanity is committing mass suicide. 

So many people live without insurance. So many people don't have access to even basic medical care. 

So few doctors. So few hospitals. Governments aren't equipped to treat a large number of sick people. 

The medical field is constantly under funded. 

Much of the funding is usurped by corrupt politicians and a system that looks invisible 

The money is hard to come by. 

And whatever comes goes in invisible ways. 

Governments have failed throughout the world in securing a good future for people. 

Even tribal communities do a better job at sustaining survival of the tribe than the government 

Crime is always high since the 90s. 

Crime has become an ever present problem. 

 

Crime has become an ever present problem. 

There is a real existential threat to the survival of the species. 

Not only humans but also animals and natural resources are under great threat. 

The cost of medical care is really high with many left without insurance. 

The government doesn't pay any medical costs. 

People are not helped in their situations of crises. 

We came so far through evolution only to witness the downslide of humanity. 

Unemployment rates throughout the world are sky high. These people will never marry, never have children and never create families. Families which were the basic unit of survival. 

In some ways it makes sense to witness the downspiral because in a karmic sense with so much suffering, it was necessary for everything to collapse in order to end all suffering or make all suffering equal.. 

Everything starts from dust. Everything goes to dust. 

It's unthinkable what happened to humanity. 

When I look around myself, I see most families with 2 kids only. Sometimes and most often it's just 1 kid per family. 

At this rate, the populations are going to decline rapidly. 

Although on the surface it looks like the world has a huge population, but if you look deeper it's just a lot of people who are not leading fulfilling lives. 

Much of it is a farce. It's just numbers on paper 

 

There was  a sudden burst in the population somewhere in the 70s and the 80s due to significant decrease in infant mortality rate but that burst has survived for quite some time since. Yet, overall the population isn't doing well. The next generation, the ones born in the 90s and late 90s to 2000 are really struggling. Maybe the boomers had it better. 

But the millennials and the next generations are struggling to make ends meet.. Middle classes are diminishing and disappearing. There is chaos. 

Mainly jobs. Jobs are being designed that instead of helping families manage better, they suck the energy out of families. The pay is great, that's how capitalism works, great pay for sucking your blood, yet the pay is useless in times of great inflation. 

Literally every major city jn in the world is expensive. Housing rates are so high. Despite doing well with education, having talent and skill, people are starving because the competition has become cutthroat. Most of the youth is left without a direction or purpose. 

And this youth will never have families because they don't know what to do with their lives 

The government has completely besieged us. 

Because in times of great poverty and crisis, having a paper of rights will be of no use.. The people will be helpless and increasingly dependent on the government for survival meanwhile the government will continue to exploit in the name of new leadership, and the elite will keep feeding on the middle class to fatten their reserves. 

The problem is that when you get too parasitic, there is nothing left to hunt or steal.. 

How long will the elite keep raping the middle class. 

Once people have been thrown into sudden poverty due to unemployment and lack of government support, these people will be rendered useless by the loss of sheer will, what will the elite harvest. 

There will still be talent.... 

But the thing is... What about purchasing power. 

Who will buy from this elite? 

Without money there will be nobody left to buy anything and business will shut down leading to more unemployment. 

The thing is that you can't rape people. 

You can't take everything away from people and strip them naked and actually imagine things to get better. 

You are digging your own Graves. 

You are causing mass number of people to die out of hunger, illness, suicide, unemployment and poverty and still expecting that humanity will continue.. 

The thing is... That if you make people helpless, you can make them do anything.. 

Job is almost like slavery.. 

Once you have people helpless, you can make them do anything. 

You can bank on their fears of survival. You can make them believe anything. 

Helpless people grasp at straws. They would do anything to just survive. 

People themselves being a time bomb. That can be potent. 

They will believe in race wars and division and all sorts of things the media will peddle. 

People will do senseless things in senseless times. 

Pretty much this is what you witness in America recently. America is a melting pot, it kinda represents a mini version of the world. America is like a cardboard model of a house. 

Whatever happens in America usually and eventually happens in the world as well. 

America is just an indicator of what's to expect. In a sense it's like a Guinea pig of the rest of the world. Whatever ways in which America suffers, is the same way in which the world will reflect this suffering. 

It seems like terrible times are yet to come. 

But actually not having kids is a good thing. Because why make them suffer. 

It seems like the woes won't go away and are here to stay. 

People will continue to vote for bad leaders. 

And government as usual won't take responsibility.. 

 

Edited July 30, 2020 by Preety_India

[kagaria]

https://www.satyoga.org/single-post/2019/04/01/Where-Does-Your-Loyalty-Lie the only way we can help. Please let's take this very seriously.

'One must take responsibility for one’s life, for one’s destiny. And for the destiny of that world that we have all been accomplices in ruining. In ravishing. Destroying. Taking advantage of for profit and comfort, at the expense of all those beings who suffer to support an unjust system.'

Edited July 30, 2020 by kagaria

[Preety_India]

 

Then I had this dream. 

That I was working very hard. 

And I had many animals and I had an animal caretaker.. I would constantly argue with her because she wasn't doing a good job. But she always boasts how the animals are always happy with her.. 

 

 

 

[Preety_India]

5 hours ago, Preety_India said:

And much of our life is actually spent away from this way. It's really simple. If there is any way, by pure logic, it has to be one. Because multiple ways cannot lead to the same thing. There is only one process that leads to one conclusion. 

But a lot of our good time that could have been spent following this way actually gets spent diverted from this way. Into mindless chatter, arguments, discussions, fights, ego battles and competitions. 

The ground reality is that everything is nothing. 

That whatever we do, it all leads to nothing productive. 

We spent nearly 80% of our time doing things that actually cause us to move away from what is good for us. 

We destroy our own good as a species by causing this immense distraction to divert us from the Absolute. From Absolute Infinite Growth and Beauty. 

 

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I love this song by Jagjit Singh. I sing this every morning now. 

 

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Natural Essence and Delusion and Deception. 

Why the devil wins. 

We forget who we are. We forget our purpose. We don't live in our natural Essence. We follow false goals. 

We are wrapped in delusion and deception. 

The situations and the way they play out deceive us. They are a trick. The universe is open to love and growth. To grace and empathy. Yet we give into our weaknesses and fall for our shadows. 

When we engage in fruitless endeavours we expose ourselves to wrong paths, and we deprive ourselves of wisdom and understanding. When we fight and create vacuum through a chain reaction of events and circumstances that don't serve our greater purpose as a collective, we are just deceiving ourselves. It's a lot of self deception.. A yarn of self deception in which we get tangled. And we are unable to unravel the yarn because we have been too deep into the rabbit hole of infinite distraction.. 

We are like hamsters on a wheel and we don't know where we are going. We just keep going with our neuroses guiding us into infinite distraction. 

Because we are deluded into believing things that have no real worth. 

We don't see what's worthwhile, we always miss it. 

What we are actually doing is nothing but self deception. We are not deceiving the universe but ourselves. 

Too much information can also be a distraction if it doesn't serve a purpose. 

Deception is when you are deceived by an external entity or source.. 

Self deception is when we make ourselves believe that something is true out of denial even when it is not true.. We deceive ourselves. We believe in the false. It's also a denial of reality. 

Self deception can occur for sometime and be gotten rid of if we consciously begin to understand the nature of reality. 

 

Whereas delusion is a form of psychosis that goes much deeper than self deception and is of a more permanent nature. A lot of narcissistic people suffer from delusions or grand delusions.. 

Delusion is when you create a castle in the air and actually believe it to be true. And you resist to the confrontation with facts. 

Delusion is difficult to get rid of because it's so firmly rooted in security and survival that breaking a delusion is almost like breaking a person because their entire existence and purpose and motivation depended on this delusion. 

Self deception is similar to delusion but the difference is that in self deception, the goal is either to deceive someone else and get deceived in the process or to not be able to accept the nature of reality out of fear.. 

So delusion can be encouraged by greed whereas deception could be encouraged by fear. 

Both greed and fear are emotions rooted in survival and both are required in moderation to survive and when both go overboard, they cause chaos instead of survival. It's an illusion to believe that too much greed or fear is helpful. Anything can become a vice when practiced in extreme. Both fear and greed can become destructive when they reach the point of paranoia. 

 

 

Edited July 30, 2020 by Preety_India

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Looks are extremely important in dating when it comes to both gender. This is unfortunate but it also shows a side of humanity that we hide as a shadow. 

Humans are shallow as a species. Women invest in their looks to look pretty, if looks weren't important to women, they wouldn't do it. If looks weren't important to men, they wouldn't be discussing about how to get hot girls all the time. This goes to show that both gender place importance and value on looks. 

Because we are shallow but we just don't want to say it. This is unfortunate and probably it shouldn't be this way but then many things in life are unfair. It's how humanity is. Boring people could be good hearted people but nobody wants to date them because most consider them boring. This is the nature of reality 

 

It would be dishonest to say that looks don't matter. It matters to both men and women..

If you create a  profile of a male who looks attractive on a dating site, he will get several responses from females. Now if you create a profile of a male who looks bald and aged and with no attractive features in his face, then he is less likely to get views or approaches from women. This is just facts. 

This is because biologically the face is important. Many people when they think about sex, only think of sexual parts. The face is also sexual if you look at it. There are certain faces and facial expressions that create natural arousal... Because you have oral sex and kissing with the face. You probably don't want to kiss a person who looks ugly. But you would want to kiss a person whose face is attractive to you. 

This is natural biological instinct. Some people might get weirded out or grossed out by certain faces.. 

Beauty is important in both men and women. 

It's important to accept this basic truth. But there is a caveat.. 

You can't simply gloat on your looks and refuse to do anything about your personality.. 

If you are born with great looks, you are quite lucky in the dating circuit. Now here's the caveat. You could easily throw all this luck out the window if your personality is messed up. Nobody likes to deal with that. 

So putting it together, both looks and personality are important. 

So now the other way around is also possible. It's called compromise. Often we come across a person who has a great personality, they are charming and very comfortable and warm. They are nice to be around. They are attractive merely by their presence. They have learned skills to attract people by being funny and warm. So even if they look not so attractive, they have other things going for them and someone who is deeply attracted to their personality will compromise on the looks. 

That's why looks are very important but they are just 1 facet. 1 aspect. They are not everything. Looks are good for a good first impression but as the relationship goes deeper, the personality will also matter. 

The woman won't stick around if the man has a shitty personality. So you can get a woman but can't keep her if you are only banking on your looks and doing nothing to improve your flaws or weaknesses.. 

But to think that looks are never important is actually being a bit dishonest. You wouldn't feel like enjoying sex and romance with a person who looks stereotypically ugly. Of course the words ugly and beautiful differ person to person. But every person, guy or a girl, has a certain image in their mind that they consider beautiful and a certain image that they consider ugly. 

The best is to have an average look combined with a great personality. 

It's okay if you don't have the best looks. You are good enough even as an average. 

Most average looking guys and girls succeed at dating using their personality to charm the opposite sex. We wouldn't have so many kids on planet earth if only the most beautiful people had a fair chance at dating. 

Even the average looking ones stand a fair chance. 

The problem only occurs when you are far below the average. Then you need to put in drastic efforts in attracting a mate.. 

So don't be discouraged if you're average looking, because it's more than enough. 

Complement your looks with a great attitude and personality and you're good to go. 

But always understand that looks are important. 

 

 

 

Edited July 31, 2020 by Preety_India

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When we engage in fruitless endeavours we expose ourselves to wrong paths, and we deprive ourselves of wisdom and understanding. When we fight and create vacuum through a chain reaction of events and circumstances that don't serve our greater purpose as a collective, we are just deceiving ourselves. It's a lot of self deception.. A yarn of self deception in which we get tangled. And we are unable to unravel the yarn because we have been too deep into the rabbit hole of infinite distraction.. 

 

 

 

Delusion is when you create a castle in the air and actually believe it to be true. And you resist to the confrontation with facts. 

Delusion is difficult to get rid of because it's so firmly rooted in security and survival that breaking a delusion is almost like breaking a person because their entire existence and purpose and motivation depended on this delusion. 

 

Self deception is similar to delusion but the difference is that in self deception, the goal is either to deceive someone else and get deceived in the process or to not be able to accept the nature of reality out of fear.. 

 

 

We forget who we are. We forget our purpose. We don't live in our natural Essence. We follow false goals. 

We are wrapped in delusion and deception. 

The situations and the way they play out deceive us. They are a trick. The universe is open to love and growth. To grace and empathy. Yet we give into our weaknesses and fall for our shadows. 

 

When we engage in fruitless endeavours we expose ourselves to wrong paths, and we deprive ourselves of wisdom and understanding.

 

When we fight and create vacuum through a chain reaction of events and circumstances that don't serve our greater purpose as a collective, we are just deceiving ourselves. It's a lot of self deception.. A yarn of self deception in which we get tangled. And we are unable to unravel the yarn because we have been too deep into the rabbit hole of infinite distraction.. 

 

 

We are like hamsters on a wheel and we don't know where we are going. We just keep going with our neuroses guiding us into infinite distraction. 

 

There's lot of Gaslighting that happens in society. And we internally do not process or understand this. It's a mind game. Our greatest endeavor should be to break illusions.. 

 

 

Edited July 30, 2020 by Preety_India

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Overall Axis: Your overall tendency towards left-wing or right-wing beliefs.
Overall Left: You tend towards left-wing beliefs.
Overall Right: You tend towards right-wing beliefs.

Metaphysical Axis: How you view reality and the universe.
Naturalist: The universe is physical - we can discount spirituality.
Transcendental: There is a universal divinity that transcends the physical world.

Teleological Axis: How you view the progression of societies.
Progressive: Society naturally progresses in a positive manner.
Entropic: Society tends to degenerate and corrupt.

Sociological Axis: Howe you view social institutions and traditions.
Deconstructive: Socially constructed institutions and traditions cannot be trusted.
Traditional: Socially constructed institutions and traditions ought to be upheld.

Structural Axis: How you view the anthropological structure of society.
Equality: Society should be structured in an egalitarian manner.
Hierarchy: Society should be structured in a hierarchical manner.

Psychological Axis: How you view man's nature and role in society.
Liberation: Individuals should be free from societal control.
Control: Society must exert control over the individual in order to survive.

 

 

https://dichotomytests.com/test.html?id=5

 

 

Political test result. 

 

Economics (left vs right): everyones should be provided with the minimal amount of resource to live a happy actualized life, those who are more ambitious/smarter/talented deserves their higher rewards.

Metaphysical:

Trancendental (duh)

Teleological:

Society progresses positively through ups and downs , never straight progress or regress/decay

Scociological:

We need better tradition, not no tradition. A tradition of Love, God, progress and wisdom should be upheld, a tradition of dogma and devilry should be questioned and deconstructed. A good tradition recognizes and point out evil, openminded enough to realize it's own short coming to evolve and adapt to whatever situation it finds itself in.

Structural:

There should be strong, big and unified government. In such goverment, everybody is forced to be passionated about life and strive for the best version of themselves. Through an ultra-personalized education system, it's impossible for a person to be selfish, devilish and uninspired. There should be a clear and defined classes, assigned to different tasks and people in that class are inevitably passionated about and ace at. In such society, you have no choice but to serve the higher Good because you are so selfless.

Psychological:

Man by nature is selfish, devilish and hateful. But, by nuturing and try to bring out their protentials, man can achieve unconditional Love and infinite wisdom. If a person is disabled somehow, they will be modified to achieve higher states of being. In such society, it's impossible to not to be self-actualized/trancended.

A government so authoritarian that it's libertarian.

 

Edited July 31, 2020 by Preety_India

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This reading list seems good 

 

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I wanted to write more about natural Essence, delusion and Deception.