My self exploration journal 2

Preety_India · July 24, 2020

The foundational thinking is that you deserve love anyway.

Preety_India · July 24, 2020

Shadow work and shadow resolution is going to be a big focus for me this year

Preety_India · July 25, 2020

Recent events of stress... Record it.. In private journal.

Keep a 3 hour block period. Describe it in your private journal.

This way I can have a track of time.

Edited July 25, 2020 by Preety_India

Preety_India · July 25, 2020

Also stress is very dangerous.

It impedes motivation

Preety_India · July 25, 2020

To express myself honestly is liberation

To live honestly is liberation

Preety_India · July 25, 2020

Never worry about what the world thinks or does or creates.

Be you. Do what you like. This is the real authentic way of life

This is the highest order. This is the real finesse

Preety_India · July 25, 2020

I need to begin to empower myself as a woman.

Preety_India · July 25, 2020

I need to take

Edited July 25, 2020 by Preety_India

Preety_India · July 25, 2020

I need to take responsibility for myself. I need to learn.

Preety_India · July 25, 2020

Be honest be humble be simple

Preety_India · July 25, 2020

Edited July 25, 2020 by Preety_India

Preety_India · July 25, 2020

I liked my reply in the above thread in dating section.

Maybe she is suffering some Insecurities. If that's the case then address those and let her know that you still love her and it doesn't affect your love for her.

Maybe deep down in her mind, she sees you watching porn as a sign of you not loving her.

Also practice more intimacy. Relationships where a woman complains about sexual stuff are generally those that are devoid of intimacy. If the intimacy is very deep, the woman will have nothing to complain about.

Make her feel wanted. Shower her with lots of affection. I know it might sound like a work or chore to many men, but the key to making peace with your girlfriend is to gently kiss her, make love to her and have a deep intimate connection with her.

. Then she will not bother you or fight with you because deep down she knows she is loved.

My ex boyfriend and me sometimes argued about sexual things, like not being in the same mood sometimes, this is because deep down there was very little intimacy.

With my current boyfriend, he is very intimate with me, so I never feel unloved, we both enjoy sex and I never complain neither does he.

धन तभी सार्थक है जब धर्म भी साथ हो।।सुंदरता तभी सार्थक हैं जब चरित्र भी शुद्ध हो। दवस्थान गमन तभी सार्थक हैं जब हृदय में भाव हो। दोस्ती का होना तभी सार्थक है जब उसमे प्यार और विश्वास होl The foundational thinking is that you deserve love anyway.

Preety_India · July 25, 2020

I was born a hindu. My Hindu prayer. That I sing often.

हे राम, हे राम
जग में साचो तेरो नाम
हे राम, हे राम

तू ही माता, तू ही पिता है
तू ही माता, तू ही पिता है
तू ही तो है, राधा का श्याम
हे राम, हे राम

तू अंतर्यामी, सबका स्वामी
तू अंतर्यामी, सबका स्वामी
तेरे चरणों में, चारो धाम
हे राम, हे राम

तू ही बिगड़े, तू ही सवारे
तू ही बिगड़े, तू ही सवारे
इस जग के, सारे काम
हे राम, हे राम

तू ही जगदाता, विश्वविधता
तू ही जगदाता, विश्वविधता
तू ही सुबह, तू ही शाम
हे राम, हे राम

हे राम, हे राम
जग में साचो तेरो नाम
हे राम, हे राम

Zak · July 25, 2020

28 minutes ago, Preety_India said:

I was born a hindu.

Are you still? Ignore if you mind

Preety_India · July 25, 2020

I wrote a short poem yesterday as a tribute to the religion I was born into, Hinduism..

The poem is titled 'in my heart' ..

In my heart

In my heart is Ram

In my heart is Sita

In my heart is Shiva

In my heart is Parvati

In my heart is Krishna

In my heart is Radha

In my heart is Brahma and Vishnu

In my heart is Lakshmi and Saraswati

In my heart is Kali and Durga

In my heart is Bhagwan.

Preety_India · July 25, 2020

3 minutes ago, Zak said:

Are you still? Ignore if you mind

Religious conversion is highly controversial in India. So I don't exactly know how to approach this. Plus there is no legal advice on the internet on this issue..

I was born and raised a Hindu.

I have always been a Hindu. I adopted Christianity in 2015 after some deep personal experiences. But I did not give up Hinduism.

So in a way I'm both a Hindu as well as a Christian.

My official religion is Hinduism/Hindu. Not Christianity.

I am not legally or officially converted to Christianity but I do visit my local church.

I am not still not aware if an official conversion is a requirement to be a Christian or to marry my Christian boyfriend.

I just looked up on the internet and it says that a person has to be legally Christian to marry a Christian in India.

But the Indian constitution allows The Freedom of Religion Act. So the laws contradict each other.

Now there is a problem I have been facing for some time and I did not approach any lawyer for advice on this. The problem is that I can't write on a certificate as both Hindu and Christian, I think it's not allowed, I have never tried it. I think it will be revolutionary in India and I will probably be the first person to write a double religion on a form. Every time I fill a form at a hospital or bank or government office, if the form says "religion", I always write "Hindu"

.. There is no other option.. I have no idea what happens after religious conversion in India.

I have a Hindu surname or last name.

So I have seen people who go through religion conversions in my country and they place ads in the newspaper but they also change their surnames at the same time.

The thing is I don't want to change my surname. So I won't go for an official conversion to Christianity.

Also I might have to change my surname and religion if I have to marry my boyfriend. In that case, I will have a Live - in relationship with him. And no marriage.

It's very complicated and Indian government does not resolve this complication.

I'm afraid that I might lose my basic rights as a citizen if I legally change my religion because here the government makes a big deal out of religion conversion even if the constitution actually allows it.

The everyday reality is very different from the constitution.

I have searched a lot on the internet about double religion or belonging to two religions at the same time.

Right now I think this is not possible in any country. I'm not aware of the legal aspects of "double belonging" in India or other countries.

So for the current moment, I'm officially and legally a Hindu citizen of my country..

I can only say that I converted to Christianity in the sense that I adopted Christianity but did not legally convert to it

Also I just looked up, conversion to Christianity is not simply by baptism.

I will need a signature and stamp from Gazette and then ad in English National Newspaper and probably change in identity.

This Indian girl in the video explains the complicated steps and procedures in religious conversion in India

This can affect all my identity documents my passport etc because they all carry my Hindu surname and name.. It will extremely difficult to change these documents, so I rather not go through so much hassle to be a Christian.

So legally I'm still a hindu. And I follow Christianity as a side religion is all I can say.

I never really researched or thought about all of this until you asked me. Thanks for asking.

Preety_India · July 25, 2020

58 minutes ago, Zak said:

Are you still? Ignore if you mind

But there is good news.

Hinduism does allow following and adopting other religions without the need for official conversions. That I can be allowed to practice Christianity in both private and public without losing my Hindu title or status. So that's good news for me that Hinduism is liberal in terms of following other religions freely and I won't have to surrender or give up my birth religion or religious rights to follow other religions.

So that's great news for me.

Preety_India · July 25, 2020

@Zak

The other thing is that Hinduism and Christianity, although they are the main pillars in my life as religions, they are not the only ones I follow..

Over the years I have explored many faiths and cultures and religions and so I like to explore all of them.

Im a bohemian at heart.

So my main religions and side religions that I follow include

Main religions - Christianity and Hinduism

Side Religions

- Wiccan

- other forms of witchcraft

- Buddhism

- Islam

- Santa Muerte (from mexico)

I make my own salad out of different cultures and religions like a true hippie.

I love mixing different aspects and philosophies and seeing the good in every religion. To me that is true freedom of religion.

I'm still researching Islam and I will be following parts of Islam and traditions of Islam which I like.

I have a wonderful Islamic poem that I used to follow and I keep it in my old handbag as a talisman..

I Will write that Islamic poem here.

It's my favorite and I sing it when I'm lonely.

I also sang this Muslim prayer or poem to one of my Muslim colleague at my workplace and he was very impressed

It's also called a "naat" in Islam. I also have a journal titled Islam recently that I started in order to explore Islam.

Nahin maal-o-zar to kya hai
Mai ghareeb hoon yahi na
Mere ishq mujhko le chal
Tu hi janib-e-madeena

Mera dil tadap raha hai
Mera jal raha hai seena
Ke dawa wahin milegi
Mujhe le chalo madeena