Unawareness Was A Blessing

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1 hour ago, Wouter said:

what do you actually mean with the word "hapiness". Can you define it please?

I define happiness in two ways:

1. The usual "excitement" type of happiness that people feel that we normally refer to as happiness in culture. This may be ecstatic, or a feeling of elation, or relief, or whatever else typically comes into mind when we talk about happiness. This elation is what I believe many people are searching for in enlightenment (or at least it is what I was originally seeking). This emotive happiness is largely dependent on external circumstances and the ego's relation to those circumstances. 

2. The calm, constant happiness. This is not characterized by high peaks/excitement. It is what is found in just being. An example of when someone might feel this sort of happiness is when they're flowing in whatever it is that they're doing or when talking a walk in nature or, as stated before, when just being. This form of happiness could be described as being at peace, not needing anything to be any particular way. It is independent of circumstance. 

[Atom]

I'm not sure if this has to do with your topic or what sense of awareness you're speaking of.. Or if this is related to Leo's latest video and happiness..

I think a lot of what happiness is based on is the society you live in.. happiness would come easier if one was alone on say a deserted island where there was nothing or no one else to compare..

How to be happy regardless of your situation I think I recently experienced during a period of ego death.. Turning off that inner voice for a extended period of time like several days,  brought me a feeling of internal energy of happiness.. With all the battles waging and as torn as I am I still couldn't help but want to smile.. I did fight it off for appearance sake.. 

 That feeling of that inner voice being gone was foreign and creepy.. Living in the moment.. Feeling even lazier than I already am for not working things out in my mind.. I yearned for my friend/enemy to return.. He's back now and while I'm not one I feel more complete and am taking a break.. Long live the ego!

I'll be back at it, no doubt.. One of my last sessions I spent 2hrs looking at a spot on the wall ?.. That sounds silly I wouldn't tell many people that they'd probably think I was crazy.. Developing a routine soon.. narrowing it down to what brings the best results.. Seems how I don't have a teacher besides YouTube and can't get straight answers to questions I have.. I know I'm not breaking ground..  As far as I'm concerned there's no rush to enlightenment.. the discovery of who or what I really am or who people want me to be.. What's real or what's illusion.. Something or nothing.. This dimension that dimension can hopefully wait.. I'm enjoying the steak at the moment.. Well not really I've became a vegetarian.. Vegan is too much at the moment I like cheese and ice cream what's a brother to do.. I've given up a lot making improvements to myself.. I'm going to have a nervous breakdown or heart attack if I don't chill..

Just in case you want to be on the same frequency as me.. This videos soundtrack really gets me going.. After listening to this take off those headphones and have a listen.. Anything with WARNING! in caps has to be good.. 

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Edited July 20, 2016 by Atom
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[Elton]

@Arik @Atom @Mal @Salaam @Piotr thanks guys a lot for hearing me out and giving some advice thanks a lot. Thanks @Leo Gura for this forum really appreciating this.