Expecting Life To Happen

[JoseM]

Hi there. I'm from Venezuela.

I began to face some type of midlife crisis since 2012 which have developed in bouts of depression and procastrination.

I'm studying informatics at the university. This institution offers an technical degree and a engineering degree. I've already have the technical one. I need 2 years more to finish the engineering one. The thing is that I'm 27 and feel disappointed about myself because I should have graduated earlier.

Hanging out with my friends probably have done some harm too because I've seen some scenarios worst than mine even though I dont any do drugs or smoke anything. I've seen recently that me and my friend have some lack of matureness. In some way i think we believe that we are still 18.

I've never had a job or a girlfriend. It seems that my mind has get used to the idea of expecting for life to expecting instead of taking massive action.

I've a recurring sorry in my head about all the things I should have done in the past. It makes feel very frustrated to know that I can't change all the mistakes I did. Most of them have to do with my career.

Also, the situation in my country makes me feel very sad sometimes. We are in the worst crisis in out history

I began to watch the videos from Actualized.org and it's been awakening for me. I'm feeling hopeful for the first time in a long time.

Edited July 19, 2016 by JoseM