Playboy found God!

[Onemanwolfpac]

One of my mates from childhood found God. Let's call him playboy.

The guy started modeling in his teens. He lost his virginity at a ridiculous young age of 11 with a girl a bit older. He was paid to model. He dated models, pageant winners, fitness models. He would club promote events and bring out girls to up sell events as nobody likes a sword fight. 

We would go out to pickup girls in our teens and twenties. Young and dumb. Its true what they say about looks. EVERYTHING comes easier. Girls approach. Women just get grabby. He was always being worshiped. The more narcissistic he got, the more attention he got. Its life on easy more.

I have always been on a spiritual path and whatnot. I knew deep down, he had a good heart but, its TOO MUCH. The attention, the orgies, hundreds and hundreds of stunners. Its never enough... Until it was. 

I remember being teens and we used fake IDs. I remember leaving a club and girls far older called him over to the car window. And I didn't understand until after. The woman was giving a BJ from the car window. 

I remember one summer he called me to meet up at a college dorm with girls. He picked me up in his sports car. We got to a girl's place after 9pm. Two girls, playboy and I. One was rude, one word answer, and weird so, we ignored her. The other girl was flirty and we partied. I had a few drinks. Next I am in her room fooling around. It ended up a devils triangle. Left after midnight. Playboy and I went clubbing at a college area. Lots of panhandling teens worse then many major cities. We stayed till after 2am. Left with another girl. Playboy tried to get another devil's triangle but she wasn't down. She liked him and wanted him. He dropped her off. We got food. Met more girls.

I woke thinking wtf did I do? My self concept clashed with my actions the night before. Needless to say, my actions sparked my spiritual journey. I met a monk, a ACIM CHURCH group, I read Eckhart Tolls, Tao The Ching, and bhagavad gita among other text. I smoked DMT for the first time and broke through. I had heroic doses of mushrooms. Many deep sessions of meditation, prayer, and deep isolation. Years went by as playboy and I lived separate life. 

I got a call from playboy. I heard about how he changed. The process in which he undertook. Its a full 180 like never before. The description he gives, its similar to the story people give of a DMT breakthrough or Eckhart Tolled disassociation from ego identification. Playboy did that or his version of it.

 

He described it feeling like dying and being born again. Its sober. He doesn't drink. No fap or porn. No sex. No drugs. He reads scripture. More important, he wants to get married before God and have an abundance of children. God bless!

 

I couldn't be happier for him. It is funny now. I am fasting but, I definitely don't abstain from sex or psychedelics. It just so happens, we reconnected when our frequency and spirit changed. Its funny for me because he's now gone from a lifetime of debaucher to a spiritual one. Unfortunately, these dramatic changes come at a price. 

ATM, what sits with me is the emphasis on what he once deemed as trivial being the guiding force. He says he has no understanding of any of it but he is a sinner and God is calling him. 

I asked him how he abstains. He says, the novelty wore off. He says its his strength in spirit and that he's saving it for his wife for their many children.  #bless!

[JosephKnecht]

God found a playboy to play with.