Holy shit. I didn't know I discovered actuality für one second on shrooms

[Travelion]

Wtf. As I'm learning about actuality as a concept, I realize that i actually felt actuality on magic mushrooms for like one second.

Before that, I always thought that this is very crazy shit compared to my materialistic worldview to which I was brought up, and that it must be so fucking mindblowing and frightening to actually realize that, but I never felt this mindblownness.
So two weeks ago I took around 2 grams of psilocybe cubensis and at the peak of the trip, I thought about Leos words and the Idea of God and the noself and Consciousness. And suddenly I thought, WHAT THE FUCK this might be actually true. It might maybe really in that way Leo talks about all the time. Holy fucking shit. This is actually a thing. This isn't only theory. This shit is real, I CAN EXPERIENCE IT. I never felt such a strong sense of awareness before. Unfortunately, that insight only lasted for about half a second.

And by that moment I didn't realize that i got in actual touch with this ideas, not just conceptually, but i did!! I really felt it. I didn't just think of it. It really like clicked and i realized it.
I think this was my first moment of actual realizing something about all this stuff. That felt so profund, I just had to share this. I began to learn about it like one or two month ago and I hope I will stay on this path for the rest of my life and not lose it.

Edited May 28, 2020 by Travelion

[allislove]

Good good ?

Keep going. 

[traveler]

HEHE

You didn't experience it, the experiencer fell away and all there was left was this. 

This is the glimpse! THIS. You can't capture or know what this is, you don't know what "happened." You think you saw "it", but you fell away for a split second and all there was, was this unspeakable this. You won't find it again, it is not an attainable thing. Don't label it God, don't label it infinite, don't label it anything, that is another mechanism of the ego to keep itself in a knowing position. 

[Leo Gura]

Lol

That which is actual is not a concept or an idea or a theory.

[SamueLSD]

@Leo Gura  ?

4 hours ago, Travelion said:

And by that moment I didn't realize that i got in actual touch with this ideas, not just conceptually, but i did!! I really felt it.

 

[Leo Gura]

26 minutes ago, SamueLSD said:

@Leo Gura  ?

I'm laughing that it took him so long to realize.

[SamueLSD]

@Leo Gura Oh lol.

Conceptualisation is like quicksand 

[diamondpenguin]

I experienced it on shrooms too. So you have had a similar experience. It was the highlight of my life so far. And what triggered it is when I was listening to Leo's video about what reality and then I started  imagine what he was saying. Then I turned it off and looked around and I couldn't deny what he had just said. It seemed too real. It was just like bottom of reality. The essence of the whole thing. It's so hard to grasp though at baseline. Especially with the busy world we live in. Humans are some of the most energetic animals on the planet. I highly reccomend watching leo's videos while your tripping on magic mushrooms.

 

Edited May 29, 2020 by diamondpenguin

[Travelion]

9 hours ago, traveler said:

HEHE

You didn't experience it, the experiencer fell away and all there was left was this. 

This is the glimpse! THIS. You can't capture or know what this is, you don't know what "happened." You think you saw "it", but you fell away for a split second and all there was, was this unspeakable this. You won't find it again, it is not an attainable thing. Don't label it God, don't label it infinite, don't label it anything, that is another mechanism of the ego to keep itself in a knowing position. 

I didn't label it God or infinite or enlightenment or something else. I wouldn't describe it as some kind of ego death or high consciousness state. It's just as you said it. I had "it for a split second. During Leos video I realized that all i learned about Consciousness and Enlightenment was just conceptual. I never experienced something of it. But that split second felt so actual, more actual than everything i heard about this before. Even more actual than looking at my hand and recognizing its existence (I don't even know if i do this properly).
Maybe you're right and my ego put itself in a knowing position because it wants to classify that experience.

7 hours ago, Leo Gura said:

Lol

That which is actual is not a concept or an idea or a theory.

Was too obvious to be recognized