Building Foundational Habits

[Iiris]

• Yoga ✅ 40min
• Meditation ✅ 50min guided
• Sleep ✅ 9h, went to bed at midnight

Yess

I won't make a psychology study journal here. I almost made but it was too chaotic. Better do this myself

[Iiris]

@Marc Schinkel Thanks

[Iiris]

• Yoga ✅ 20min
• Meditation ✅ 10min
• Sleep ❌ 7h, went to bed at 1:30

On 17.8.2020 at 11:59 AM, Iiris said:

Electric guitars not really my thing anymore

That came out at a low moment, they are

Went to get highlights to my hair yesterday but they are barely visible

I'm stressed because I'm going to have a gig again. I kind of want to do them but also really don't. I just feel like I'm not a skilled enough guitarist. And because of that I feel like I'm going there just trying to survive. But then again, I am skilled enough. It's not like people are paying to see me. I play a few notes here and there and it's great.

[Iiris]

• Yoga ✅ 20min
• Meditation ✅ 10min
• Sleep ❌ 9h, went to bed at 00:30

So I wrote myself this to-do list for the day and put it on my table so I can see it, I don't know if it will help

I've found a study technique for remembering everything well. But it doesn't really help with understanding anything. I can only understand things deeply if I'm genuinely interested in them, I feel

I should probably make some kind of a schedule for studying. But then I'd have to wake up at some speficic time. I like waking up whenever I want

[Iiris]

• Yoga ✅ 20min
• Meditation ❌
• Sleep ❌ 5.5h, went to bed at 2

I’m going to visit a friend who lives far and I’m stressed once again

I’ll see if I have time for yoga and meditation today

Need to be gentle with myself

I still want to go to an isolated cabin

Edited August 21, 2020 by Iiris

[Iiris]

• Yoga ❌
• Meditation ✅ like 1h in the bus
• Sleep ❌ 5h, went to bed at 2:30

I was so stressed in that bus the only thing I could do was meditate

The friend is also my cousin, it was nice seeing her. We planned to go hiking somewhere

Edited August 22, 2020 by Iiris

[Iiris]

• Yoga ✅ 25min
• Meditation ✅ 25min in a bus
• Sleep ✅ 8.5h, went to bed at midnight

I've underestimated how important breathing is in meditation and everything else.

I'm hoding myself back, nothing else is. I can't let go of things

[Iiris]

• Yoga ✅ 30min
• Meditation ✅ 10min guided
• Sleep ✅ 8h, went to bed at midnight

Annoyed by my dad. He just acts immature.

[Iiris]

• Yoga ✅ 25min + 35min
• Meditation ✅ 15min alone
• Sleep ✅ 9h, went to bed at midnight

I started reading the Matthew Walker sleep book, lots of stuff related to what I'm trying to study for the psychology exam. Convenient, I hope there will be a sleep related question. I'll finish the yoga nidra book after that one

[Iiris]

• Yoga ✅ 30min
• Meditation ✅ 10min
• Sleep ❌ 9h, went to bed at 1

I feel so rested, what. Maybe because I've slept. Still weird. This is great.

[Iiris]

• Yoga ✅ 20min
• Meditation ✅ 10min
• Sleep ❌ 8h, went to bed at 1

This channel has nice music. I like the visuals too

[Iiris]

• Yoga ✅ 20min
• Meditation ✅ 15min
• Sleep ❌ 7.5h, went to bed at 0:30

I've been procrastinating with everything again and yesterday evening I decided to get out of that rut and did get out. Got some kind of an emotional release, I was pretty much weeping all evening. Wrapped myself in love. I'm such an unstable nutcase. Alright

I'm trying to get that stage orange motivation for studying psychology, if I learn all this stuff I will get to university and I will be a respected and successful individual in society or something like that. Why am I really doing this I don't know. Going to university is just a pretty reasonable option for me.

Edited August 28, 2020 by Iiris

[Iiris]

• Yoga ✅ 20min
• Meditation ✅ 15min
• Sleep ❌ 5h, went to bed at 1

Graduation party going to be today. I’m obviously anxious. I also need to play music there. And I’m so cold and I have to put on that dress. Listening to Alan Watts helps a bit.

[Iiris]

• Yoga ❌
• Meditation ✅ 5min
• Sleep ❌ 6h went to bed at 4

I still enjoy performing music. Always terrified before but then it’s nice

Went partying at night I wasn’t really having a good time. I was feeling like a third wheel too. Tried pretending to enjoy but then I gave up.

This pretty much

 

Edited August 31, 2020 by Iiris

[Iiris]

• Yoga ✅ 20min
• Meditation ❌
• Sleep ❌ 8.5h, went to bed at 0:30

Yesterday I kind of skipped everything but yoga. I'm totally not keeping up with my study schedule. I was aiming for 24 hours a week, but nope. Well I'm studying today again. 4-5 hours. It's just that sometimes the time goes with me staring into the distance and thinking about something else. It's frustrating

Edited August 31, 2020 by Iiris

[Iiris]

• Yoga ✅ 30min
• Meditation ❌ I won't even count that half-assed one
• Sleep ❌ 9h, went to bed at 1

I don't know what's useful to write here. Do I just write how my day went. Do I write how I'm feeling. I should probably write about these habits heh

I just finished the July playlist. I'm going to skip August and go straight to September. Maybe do extra practices from the August playlist if I have time.

 

Edited September 1, 2020 by Iiris

[Iiris]

• Yoga ✅ 40min
• Meditation ✅ 25min guided
• Sleep ✅ 9h, went to bed at 23:30

If I don't mention guided meditation it means I meditated alone

Mostly trying to go to bed before midnight now, because I don't have anywhere to wake up to in the morning. Which means yesterday I went to bed before I was supposed to. First time in this journal. I was having a hard time falling asleep though :((

Also I'm rounding these bedtime times in 30 minutes. Or how do I explain it. I'm going to be more specific and go with 15 minutes from now on.

[Iiris]

• Yoga ✅ 40min
• Meditation ✅ 15min
• Sleep ✅ 6.5h, went to bed at midnight

Had a hard time falling asleep. I woke up too early. Couldn't fall asleep again. My mind is neurotic. I might take a nap today if I can.

I need to focus on relaxing my body during meditation. Trying to be aware of my mind only doesn't really help. I start thinking about thinking and thinking about thinking about thinking and so on. While my body is being tense.

[Iiris]

• Yoga ✅ 30min
• Meditation ✅ 10min 
• Sleep ❌ 6h, went to bed at, in the morning, yeah

A cycle of being dissappointed in myself for procrastinating and keeping procrastinaing so that I wouldn’t have to face the dissappointment. 

I even use the life purpose journal to procrastinate.

But I love this

I’ve kind of messed up my day already. Im going to relax now anyway

[Iiris]

• Yoga ✅ 20min
• Meditation ✅ 10min
• Sleep ❌ 5.5h, went to bed at 1:45

The exam thing especially makes me feel like I need to be in control. This is just frustrating.

Edited September 5, 2020 by Iiris