My Recent Awakening/enlightenment Experience

[Consept]

Wanted to share a recent experience i had, it happened about a week ago or so but i thought people might find it interesting.

I hesitate to call it an enlightenment experience because I'm not sure it was but don't really know what else to call it. But anyway, I wasn't doing anything special i think just chilling at home, i had recently upped my meditation to twice daily, once in the morning and once before i went to bed, so my thoughts generally seemed a bit clearer than normal. All of sudden it struck me that I wasn't actually any thought that goes through my head, it wasn't that the idea struck me but i actually felt as if i was looking at my thoughts from a distance and was completely separate from them. It was amazing in itself but it wasn't like i felt i could do anything now it was just like 'what the hell was i doing all my life, I've literally been living a lie!'. 

Everything just seemed to make sense and every thought, even thoughts like I want peace of mind or i want to be enlightened just seemed like the stupidest waste of time, not necessarily having them but believing you are that voice in your head that is talking. Then great compassion came over me, I started to feel sorry for everyone that has to live life through their thoughts as if they are real. I felt sorry for myself having spent so many years wrapped up in thoughts. It became so clear that thinking, or rather believing your thoughts are you is the biggest waste of life there is. I realised I was just the awareness that was it, no judgement no nothing, I'm simply awareness, everything else is not real, everything else is a concept created by my mind. I was aware of my thoughts but very aware that those thoughts were nothing to do with me really. 

It only lasted a day or 2 and then my mind came back into play and i switched back to the thoughts, however with an important insight that deep down i know they aren't real. I guess its just the habit of being identified with your mind, also it would be counter productive to fight being identified with my thoughts i just have to let them play out with this new found realisation. Anyway since then i have felt a lot more i guess 'being' which feels like me being myself without trying to be anything, which is still cool but nothing like the initial feeling of literally being awareness. also i would've been able to describe it a bit better if i did this whilst i had that feeling or straight after but it is what it is. 

One thing i would say is having any idea of what you think enlightenment is or getting trapped in logic and trying to understand everything with your mind will not actually help you on your way to enlightenment. There is no way to think your way into it, it is purely a feeling that will come about once you let go of 'yourself' whether by accident or on purpose. It cannot be reached with your mind because everything in your mind is a concept and not an actual experience. It can only be arrived at experientially and to be honest its right under your nose, you just have to know deep down that your thoughts are not you, you are complete awareness and nothing more. Mine or anyone elses words can only encourage you, they can't bring you to it, you have to do that within your own experience. 

 

I only had a glimpse of it but, just that alone made me see that there literally is no point in living your life through your thoughts, its not real! And finally enlightenment literally is not what you think it is

[Fishy]

nice

[Richard Alpert]

thank you for sharing.

I have had two very similar experience, actually you put my experiences to words nicely.