New habits, new stuff, new life

[Aquarius]

Hi!

So I was thinking that my life is a big mess and I should concentrate on some stuff.

I go with the maslow's hierarchy on this..

I lack a job and a higher education. These are the biggest goals. 

 

I started a physical journal, and I design my every day doings. I rarely have more than 4 items done a day.

Stuff like cleaning, getting in shape, spirituality and God, stuff like that. Even my subliminal messages progresses..

 

I want to pick a few I'm working on right now.

So that would be ...

 

1. mental and emotional health. recovering from trauma, healthy relationships, good state of mind, mind tools (binaurals for example), connection to family

2. beauty, looks, hygiene. includes haircut, clothes, my style, the stuff I share on facebook, even my artstyle and the designs i am making, my room

3. religion, spirituality, God. includes my channel I'm working on. 

 

And all 3 include tools like subliminals and affirmations, mind control, different methods, like gemstone healing, etc. 

I feel like these 3 are a base needs for me. 

 

Any advice, insight is appreciated always. 

[Aquarius]

Note to self..

My plans for today would be:

1. get therapy from 7cups

do some exercises on 7 cups

say self-love affirmations

discuss traumatic childhood events with mom

talk to mom, small talk, deep talk, or anything?

reply to SOME messages from friends i didnt reply to in the last 6 weeks 

delete some unknown contacts from facebook

interact with people's stories on facebook

call a few friends (if in the mood.. im quite distant today)

say a prayer for health

listen to brain playlist subliminals ( 100% brain activation + heal all brain illness)

tell family members you love them and why you love them. offer gratitude.

express opinion freely

 

2. take care of weekly feet hygiene 

facial make-up and healthcare

beauty subliminals from velmental playlist

wash teeth 3 times MINIMUM

clean room

dress nicely even at home

love yourself unconditionally <3 

look in the mirror and notice how beautiful you are <3

draw your favourite character in a cute sketchy style

 

3. write essay about yin yang and god comparison

pray to god

listen to insights

meditate to psytrance

pray

watch religious or spiritual content from watch later on youtube

 

Wow I have a full day x__x

Edited May 19, 2020 by Aquarius

[Applegarden]

Just now, Aquarius said:

Hi!

So I was thinking that my life is a big mess and I should concentrate on some stuff.

I go with the maslow's hierarchy on this..

I lack a job and a higher education. These are the biggest goals. 

 

I started a physical journal, and I design my every day doings. I rarely have more than 4 items done a day.

Stuff like cleaning, getting in shape, spirituality and God, stuff like that. Even my subliminal messages progresses..

 

I want to pick a few I'm working on right now.

So that would be ...

 

1. mental and emotional health. recovering from trauma, healthy relationships, good state of mind, mind tools (binaurals for example), connection to family

2. beauty, looks, hygiene. includes haircut, clothes, my style, the stuff I share on facebook, even my artstyle and the designs i am making, my room

3. religion, spirituality, God. includes my channel I'm working on. 

 

And all 3 include tools like subliminals and affirmations, mind control, different methods, like gemstone healing, etc. 

I feel like these 3 are a base needs for me. 

 

Any advice, insight is appreciated always. 

I would strongly advise you to attempt to get a job, yes it is a hearcrushing experience at first, but you will get o used to it and it will be fine after 2 months time if you haven't worked. Why? Financial independence, thats why basically. Don't be affraid to work even as a cashier and things like that, it doesn't matter how people look at you (the ones you went to school together e.c.t.) but what you will get is some stability. Not being dependant is so much worse, trust me. 

Get you curriculum vitae in order no matter what little you havee and then try landing a job. For that there is some self-dev videos on how to have an ok resume and things you need to do or not to in a job interview. It is so so relieving that you acctually have a job, ather than if you don't. 

[Aquarius]

13 minutes ago, Applegarden said:

I would strongly advise you to attempt to get a job, yes it is a hearcrushing experience at first, but you will get o used to it and it will be fine after 2 months time if you haven't worked. Why? Financial independence, thats why basically. Don't be affraid to work even as a cashier and things like that, it doesn't matter how people look at you (the ones you went to school together e.c.t.) but what you will get is some stability. Not being dependant is so much worse, trust me. 

Get you curriculum vitae in order no matter what little you havee and then try landing a job. For that there is some self-dev videos on how to have an ok resume and things you need to do or not to in a job interview. It is so so relieving that you acctually have a job, ather than if you don't. 

There are no job opportunities in my small town, unless I get higher education. Things work more dirty in real life than you'd believe. Being a cashier would be a huge blessing, but nobody would want me to be a cashier. I got some reputation here because of my mental illness. I'm living a hard period. 

[Applegarden]

Just now, Aquarius said:

Things work more dirty in real life than you'd believe.

Is that a hidden insult to say i don't know how the world works, i live in a country with one of the smallest density of people in Europe... fine i guess, ill let that slide. Another option is a drivers licence (costed me aound 1000 EUR with 30+ driving lessons from 0), but that may not be immedieatly available to you or maybe not at all, however you DO know. Tell me the number of people in your town. In my town there is 8 000 people approx. And i know i could find a job in few places without needed education. Of course i work in my field (food production), however it is still blue collar work.

 

Just now, Aquarius said:

I got some reputation here because of my mental illness. I'm living a hard period. 

I already adressed this here.

Just now, Applegarden said:

it doesn't matter how people look at you (the ones you went to school together e.c.t.) but what you will get is some stability. Not being dependant is so much worse, trust me.

 

Just now, Aquarius said:

Being a cashier would be a huge blessing, but nobody would want me to be a cashier.

But you hint that YOU want it, or anything. Usually people whom i know who aren't working doesn't even bother to look for a job and throw excuses. 

And yes i am challenging whether you say is really true, or you don't really want to work. Trust me, this is good for you if you acctually keep attempting, regarding your circumstances.

Btw i work 48-72 hours a week and i was heartbreaking at first 4 years ago when i had to, now its ok, it has helped me grow personally also and i am about to graduate uni while working.

Best of luck out there, i know it gets hard, but please, hang on.

Edited May 19, 2020 by Applegarden

[Aquarius]

29 minutes ago, Applegarden said:

Is that a hidden insult to say i don't know how the world works, i live in a country with one of the smallest density of people in Europe... fine i guess, ill let that slide. Another option is a drivers licence (costed me aound 1000 EUR with 30+ driving lessons from 0), but that may not be immedieatly available to you or maybe not at all, however you DO know. Tell me the number of people in your town. In my town there is 8 000 people approx. And i know i could find a job in few places without needed education. Of course i work in my field (food production), however it is still blue collar work.

Dude why did you get so defensive? I do not know you, so I didn't know! I'm sorry if you thought I insulted you..  

I just meant people here do dirty things like if you are a friend of a friend of a friend you can get higher on the social leaderboard. 

35k in my town if im right

thanks for writing all that and trying to help. It's just super hard for me. especially with all my psychiatric medication..

32 minutes ago, Applegarden said:

Best of luck out there, i know it gets hard, but please, hang on.

Dude thanks for not letting go of me! I work from home right now on my art business but I want a job in GSM. I want to learn a bit of phone decoding and all that stuff, IT things. That would pay nicely. But I'm good with computers.

Or else I need to work in wood factory which is not really female work. And people who don't like you will make you suffer there. Big dogs, we call em.. you know how it works.

Again not trying to insult you. What i meant is that you must know how it works. You are older than me also. Much respect man. 

As a female it's also harder to find work. 

[Aquarius]

My day is good so far. I finished more than I thought I would, and faster than I thought it's possible. I think I will take a break now and meditate and gain insight on life. Or just relax. I have all day still.

Guys! Anything productive that I can do today? That is mildly difficult?

[Shiva99]

17 minutes ago, Aquarius said:

Guys! Anything productive that I can do today? That is mildly difficult?

I suggest getting into a running habit. Exercise is healthy, and it can boost confidence etc etc

[Aquarius]

18 minutes ago, Shiva99 said:

I suggest getting into a running habit. Exercise is healthy, and it can boost confidence etc etc

True! But maybe in two days cause I just got my medication and it creates fever from physical effort.  

I, however, might go for a walk. Not really feeling like it. 

I do cardio inside my home cause of huge halls.

I lost a lot of water mass and built muscle since yesterday. Ate tons of meat and ran about 10 km. I look sweet.

[Aquarius]

Today I will pick some more activities for my topics.

1. mental and emotional health:

• go to psychologist
• write in journal-book
• hang out with bf

2. beauty and body

• wash teeth properly
• make proper pedicure
• healthy looking natural face makeup

3. spirituality

• practice gentleness and gratitude
• say self-love affirmations
• pray for good direction in life

Edited May 22, 2020 by Aquarius

[Aquarius]

I almost finished for today. Only two items left.

I might have time for a 'work and job' section, for chores and my artwork. 

Maybe also 'subliminal progress' and 'projects' section. Will wait a week before all of this though. I would like to deepen my base needs met.

Edited May 21, 2020 by Aquarius

[Aquarius]

Maybe also a diet and fitness log. 

A friendship thing.

And a relationship thing. All for habits!

Oops and a study one  And hobbies.

[Aquarius]

Today I'll try adding more activities. These are notes to self but you guys can comment anything.  

 

1. mental and emotional health

• 7 cups
• talk it out with a trusted friend
• talk family stuff with family most gently possible
• give gratitude to family and their work they do
• be kind with family
• help family
• watch therapy cd's for teens

2. beauty and body

• take off all unwanted hairs
• search for a good hairdresser (not going yet)
• take vitamins and supplements for liver
• clean room
• make something beautiful (artistic)

3. spirituality

• reconnect with God
• be empathic with self
• be infinitely loving and patient with self
• write in journal
• do self love exercises in journal
• watch alphaomega on tv
• watch religious videos (and comment on them, have own opinion if someone is harsh and stage Blue)

 

[Aquarius]

@Applegarden I re-read your post, and wanted to ask you something..

Do you think your advice is right? I mean it helped me a lot on my perspective. But wouldn't it be better to get all my needs met before I enter the workforce? I have serious gaps in my needs that weren't met. And right now with the quarantine it's harder to get a job. I COULD try, but I wanna make my skills and assets stronger, so no one can refuse me. I also want a nicer work than the work I already do on my own. (vlog and art)

I am 22 and I finished school 4 years ago. I only worked very shitty and small jobs. And even there I was fired. How do you think I would do if I don't have a clear work ethic yet, good sleep and skills for work? Wouldn't it be smarter to do a course on something, however small or even free the course is?

Don't be too harsh with me. I do understand your concerns, but I just got home from the psychiatry a week ago. I am not in good shape yet. I could strengthen my body and my mind with daily exercises but.. it takes a long time, maybe 6 months or even a year. 

I do visit a psychologist for my problems. 

[IAmTheHolySpirit]

Absolutely everything in this list is useless except God. Seek god only and everything you'll need will appear. 

As long as God is not your #1, 2, 3, 4, 5, 6, 7, 8 priority, you ain't going anywhere in life. You are going to be stuck.

[Aquarius]

19 hours ago, IAmTheHolySpirit said:

Absolutely everything in this list is useless except God. Seek god only and everything you'll need will appear. 

As long as God is not your #1, 2, 3, 4, 5, 6, 7, 8 priority, you ain't going anywhere in life. You are going to be stuck.

Yes. Agreed. I just had this insight by myself today. God will show me the way. Thanks for that, @IAmTheHolySpirit!

I really hate this thread lol. It's kinda awkward. Getting stuck again. I shall do what God inspires me to do every moment. He is the Way, the Truth and the Life. 

Edited May 23, 2020 by Aquarius

[allislove]

It's all good now, keep going ?

[Aquarius]

10 minutes ago, dimitri said:

It's all good now, keep going ?

Thanks for the support! Going really fine in my evolution progress. I feel more like myself day by day.

The key to emotional health was to allow. The key to mental health was to write it all out.

The key to beauty was accepting. The key to self-care was to be aware.

The key to finding God was to seek him, and to be grateful. The spiritual path I am going on got much more mature when I got informed on how things are going in the world.

My observational skills were activated by a slight melancholy and bitterness. I do share more of myself than I should also. 

I'm getting there.. slow and steady wins the race.  

[allislove]

@Aquarius feel ya bro ?