Mindfulness practice

[huan_mario]

Hello everyone, I'm new to this forum and new to the self-actualization concept so I'd appreciate your patience.

I have started practicing mindfulness a week ago. I'm doing mindfulness meditation for 20 min and I also do the exercise of flattening the thought illusion.

I noticed that I'm sometimes fantasizing during the day. I often see myself in some situations where I look somewhat cool, people admire me, I'm bold in some argument or fight etc. I also noted that it happens especially intensly whenever I play piano. I imagine myself playing in front of people who don't know I can do it and they are amazed (it sounds so silly ). I acknowledge that this is just my thoughts and mental images but sometimes it's so persistent that I just can't detach myself from it and observe. It keeps comming again and again, more intensly. And I hate it, it makes me totally lose focus, when I give into these thoughts I'm often irritated and I feel like I'm out of touch with reality and I'm neurotic.

So here are my questions:

1. I sometimes get so into it that I whisper some of dialogues to myself. Is it normal behavior?

2. Does mindfulness practice help with not giving into these and actually having less of them? 

3. These fantasies are basically images + sounds, I see myself talking with someone or doing something. Now, when I want to the mindfulness cycle on it do I split this fantasy so I focus only on the image (or sound of this conversation) or do I somehow focus on this whole thing? I have tried both but I can't seem to grasp it properly, neither feels right.

 

 

Edited May 18, 2020 by huan_mario

[Amit]

2 hours ago, huan_mario said:

. I sometimes get so into it that I whisper some of dialogues to myself. Is it normal behavior?

1.Yes it's perfectly normal. 

2.Mindfulness can make you more and more aware of these thoughts to the extent that you never get too absorbed to be unaware of them. So you can always choose to come out of unuseful thought streams. 

3. Focusing on unuseful fantasies is going to make them coming even more and more, so whene you are mindful of having them, try to let them go smoothly, maybe write them in a dairy. 

2 hours ago, huan_mario said:

Does mindfulness practice help with not giving into these and actually having less of them? 

Edited May 18, 2020 by Amit
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