Identity is dying and I keep expanding Im scared as hell

[wakeel55]

So throughout this journey, something really scary happens to me sometimes. My consciousness (ME) expanding outside my body and I FEEL LIKE DYING, like its really painful, its like im getting stabbed inside, really feels like someone is killing me. So i FURIOUSLY clench my muscles so that i wont drift off into the unknown. This situation has happened to me 5-6 times throughout my 2 years of inner work/healing. I am aware of the fact that if i just let it go, an "amazing thing" will happen. But i just cant seem to let go, it is intensely terrifying. Probably the most terrifying thing i have experienced. But deep down I know that someday i gotta let it go. So my question is, is there any way to not feel the pain of death? should i find a legit guru to guide me? should i find spiritual friends? I have 0 spiritual friends, i dont know anyone who knows these things. Thanks!

[Recursoinominado]

No way around it, buddy, just face it time and time again until you can go all the way.