Beautiful Realization

[Bittu]

So yeah, as some of you may know, I'm in a mental hospital.

Anyways, there is this old guy here, close to his 80s. We got along really well earlier, and he even gave me a cool bracelet in exchange for a cup of coffee.

So. He has aggression issues. He basically just gets angry randomly and starts hitting the table, etc. The nurses are really chill with him since he's so old. Everyone likes him.

He just randomly got angry at me, and threw a CD case at me that hit the wall and broke apart. I backed off and got a little weirded out at first. The nurses told him to go to his room to calm down a little bit, and now everything is fine.

And I just broke down in tears.I realized that it's love. He is expressing love. He has not learned any other way to express his love, so he gets mad. I'm sobbing as I'm writing this post. I'm just like. Wow. Speechless. Full of love and gratitude.

[SoonHei]

@Bittu spot on. a story I read about the Buddha comes to mind.

 

A man once spat at Buddha. The man got so angry that he spat at him. Buddha wiped the spittle off and said to the man, "Do you want to say something more?" Ananda, the disciple who was sitting with Buddha, said, "What are you talking about? Has he said anything? Just give me the order and I will take care of him. This is the limit, that he spits at you!" But Buddha said, "He is trying to say something and he has no language for it. He is trying to say something and his language is powerless and his inner impulse is intense. He couldn't say it so he has said it through actions." This I call compassion, that Buddha felt sympathy for the man because his language was so powerless. The man was trying to say something, he was trying to express something and he was very angry. He couldn't find the words so he expressed it by spitting. When someone comes to me with love and holds my hands, I feel so much compassion: he is trying to say something but language is inadequate. That person is trying to say something by holding my hands. When a person is hugging someone language is inadequate. Man is so helpless and he is trying to say something, so he brings his heart close to the other's because he cannot find another way.

 

Buddha said on that morning, "I feel compassion, so much compassion. Language is so inadequate, Ananda. Man's heart is trying to say so much and it cannot manage it." He simply asked the man, "Would you like to say something more?" What more could the man have said? Now it was difficult to say anything. The man left. In the night he repented so much that the next day he went to Buddha to apologize. He fell at Buddha's feet and started crying. Buddha said, "Ananda, do you see how inadequate language is? Now again he wants to say something and he is not able to. Yesterday he was trying to say something and he wasn't able to and he behaved in a certain way, and now again he is behaving in a certain way. Ananda, language is very inadequate and man deserves great compassion."

Edited May 6, 2020 by SoonHei

[Bittu]

1 hour ago, SoonHei said:

@Bittu spot on. a story I read about the Buddha comes to mind.

 

A man once spat at Buddha. The man got so angry that he spat at him. Buddha wiped the spittle off and said to the man, "Do you want to say something more?" Ananda, the disciple who was sitting with Buddha, said, "What are you talking about? Has he said anything? Just give me the order and I will take care of him. This is the limit, that he spits at you!" But Buddha said, "He is trying to say something and he has no language for it. He is trying to say something and his language is powerless and his inner impulse is intense. He couldn't say it so he has said it through actions." This I call compassion, that Buddha felt sympathy for the man because his language was so powerless. The man was trying to say something, he was trying to express something and he was very angry. He couldn't find the words so he expressed it by spitting. When someone comes to me with love and holds my hands, I feel so much compassion: he is trying to say something but language is inadequate. That person is trying to say something by holding my hands. When a person is hugging someone language is inadequate. Man is so helpless and he is trying to say something, so he brings his heart close to the other's because he cannot find another way.

 

Buddha said on that morning, "I feel compassion, so much compassion. Language is so inadequate, Ananda. Man's heart is trying to say so much and it cannot manage it." He simply asked the man, "Would you like to say something more?" What more could the man have said? Now it was difficult to say anything. The man left. In the night he repented so much that the next day he went to Buddha to apologize. He fell at Buddha's feet and started crying. Buddha said, "Ananda, do you see how inadequate language is? Now again he wants to say something and he is not able to. Yesterday he was trying to say something and he wasn't able to and he behaved in a certain way, and now again he is behaving in a certain way. Ananda, language is very inadequate and man deserves great compassion."

Thank you for sharing <3

 

There are many people here who speak just gibberish language but I can feel the energy behind the words to some extent. One of my friends here just speaks of past lives as if hes living them right now, and as if I'm understanding everything even though I don't get his words.

Great for opening the mind to everything

Edited May 6, 2020 by Bittu

[SoonHei]

@Bittu <3 <3 <3

hope you're doing well champ

[traveler]

Why are you in a mental hospital if you dont mind me asking?

[James123]

2 hours ago, Bittu said:

And I just broke down in tears.I realized that it's love. He is expressing love. He has not learned any other way to express his love, so he gets mad. I'm sobbing as I'm writing this post. I'm just like. Wow. Speechless. Full of love and gratitude.

Great attitude. He is you. This life, including your body is imagination. You are not your body, you are the thing that is aware of body and here. You will never die or born. Don’t worry. You are the king and creator. 

[SoonHei]

5 minutes ago, James123 said:

You are not your body

but you are ALSO the body

 

the sand is sand

but it is also the sand castle

[James123]

3 minutes ago, SoonHei said:

but you are ALSO the body

Learning is Step by step. 

 

2 hours ago, Bittu said:

And I just broke down in tears.I realized that it's love. He is expressing love. He has not learned any other way to express his love, so he gets mad. I'm sobbing as I'm writing this post. I'm just like. Wow. Speechless. Full of love and gratitude.

And all is love. Infinite consciousness is love, pure love. 

[Bittu]

Hahah, thanks for the answers. One of my stranger mystical experiences :D. Getting thrown with a CD box by a old guy and realizing its pure love. Lol.

2 hours ago, traveler said:

Why are you in a mental hospital if you dont mind me asking?

I should write a post about it here. You know how society thinks of you if you even talk about mysticism.