Hello,  I am stuck in my life and I am not able to understand what is wrong because apparently nothing is wrong at all.. About me: I am 30 and living in a lower middle class family and we hardly make ends meet. I stopped my studies after high school and after that done nothing in my life. I've been in depression for a long time but then it got normal. I spent a lot of my time after high school in thinking thinking and thinking. There is a lot but now I am grown up enough to actually "Grow up" in my life. From last 3 years I am trying to do something for myself and my family, specially my mother and my father. I want to give them the life they never had, and don't even think of. I can write and I have written content for many websites online and they appreciated my work, but I can't work. It sounds silly but yes, I can't work, I can't write. I overthink a lot.. for every new project my thoughts are, will they like my work? what if they rejected my work? what if they will not give me any work for long term then how will i earn? etc etc etc.. Then I thought about working on my own blog/website because I know content writing, SEO and stuff. I know exactly what and how to do, but I am stuck.. Again like a loser..  I spend my time in front of computer screen and I know where to start I know what to do, I start doing that too.. but then again.. I stop doing it and I find myself wasting my time again.. and I can't help it..  I know the answer is to just do it... just start it.. etc etc .. but how? Please motivate me.. help me..  I feel that I am weak physically and emotionally too. I need complete isolation but I can't  Things just keep bothering me, hot weather bothers me.  Am I depressed again? I make to-do lists, time tables, but I never ever follow them. I badly want to follow them but I can't.