Seeking Advice: Start or Not Start a personal hero's journey? development program

[Matt23]

So, there's a self-development program from the Flow Genome Project.  There's actually two, and if i do both now, i'll get a bundle deal and save $1000 (so I'd have to pay $2500).  I would really like to do it and would feel regret not doing it, but I also feel lots of anxiety when committing to it for a few reasons.  1. I still don't have a secured place to live in June  2. We're kind of in very uncertain economic times in the world  3. it's a lot of money  4. I don't think the added mental stress of doing this program, spending the money, and trying to move and find a new place would be good for my mental health and well-being.  

On the other hand, I think it would be a great challenge, though I still think it't probably not the hugest thing I could do.  Though I would see it as something to challenge me and grow me and find where my "flow" state is.   I guess I believe in it, but think maybe it's just too much for me right now.  LIke, I don't want to regret it forever and look back and be like "Fuck!  I missed that opportunity!"  But I also want to be kind to myself and be wise about it since I could do too much too fast and screw myself up more.  It's a lot of money. 

I could also do the shorter and cheap course ($650) and that wouldn't be so bad since it's not as big of an investment, and then do the other course next year (hopefully they and the world (lol, but kinda seriously) are still around next year).  That would mean I'd have to pay an extra $1000 for doing both courses.  

I heard a review (maybe two) that said they didn't get much more out of the second more expensive course as they'd like.  Though I didn't look for many positive reviews yet. 

I think it's something where I'd feel regret and a bit bad about not being courageous and not being the one who does things.  But then again, I could just do the one course and see how it goes.  I guess i feel like I'm being cowardly and not good and it feels bad thinking about not doing the whole course.  But I know my anxiety is alot when thinking about doing both.  Maybe I should just do it all and get it over with...  I guess I feel like I'd like to do it and then just do it and see how it goes.  If I fuck up then I'll fuck up, but at least i'll see.  I think I'm scared of doing it, but also feel lots of regret not doing it....

I dunno though.

I think I'd like some opinions but am also liking writing this out for myself.

Thanks for any advice.

[Neuroknot]

In my opinion you should ask yourself the following questions:  Does it really worth my time and money? Do I have to do it now? Is there something that can't prevent me from doing it? Am I in a position where I can choose?

This might be helpful......

If someone else makes an argument about why you should do it, just be careful not to look for approval, and look at your situation objectively as if you were seeing someone else having this "problem".

sorry for bad english

[Matt23]

No!  Thanks a bunch