Possible explanation for requiring more drug than usual?

[Nahm]

@electroBeam

I believe (all speculation here) that upon inspection of the reoccurring thoughts which are in discord with feeling, what would be found is that there isn’t any “unique atypical high tolerance” situation. I think you’d find that you are using the substances to suppress the discord between thoughts & feeling, and it is leaving you feeling uneasy, frustrated, unhealthy, and ultimately revealing a desire to align the peace, love, & creator that you are, with the working, surviving, creating & accomplishing you do. I feel a not so subtle “cry for help” in your thread. To me, it reads as “I’ve realized this is a fucking dream - and that’s awesome - but wtf - why isn’t life ‘lining up’?”  How to “line it up”? That boils down to aligning thought with feeling, as feeling is the guidance and therefore must be abided by, must be listened to. You have passion, creativity, desire & are very open minded. What I believe is desired, is vision, to answer the question, “how do I align the infinite dreamer I know I am, with this dream, this life?”. 

When in life is the resolution not “that thing” we’re so sick of hearing? Yep, I know it well too....and here it comes....

Make a dreamboard. Before doing this, thoughts are coming and going, as if if behind our head. We’re aware of them, but it’s kind of hard to ‘see the bigger picture’ when it’s not in front of our eyes. Dreamboarding get’s every thought, of everything you want, in front of you. You know all to well that thinking about doing something, is not the experience of doing something. You’d have to do this, to experience what I’m suggesting. You also know, wether you care to admit it or not, that not a one of us really ever “grows up”. We convince ourselves of this, via responsibility, pressure, deadlines, etc. We all to often succumb to it, at the expense of the relationship with our inner being, our inner guidance - that which you desire so strongly to never feel discord or disconnection with. We’re all in truth God’s children. Nonduality, yep...and yet, he who assumes the upper hand over inner being, does so at his own inevitable peril. Chronic discord of thought & feeling leads to a pretend seriousness, grandiose nonsense, resentment, bitterness, stress, tension, etc. This leads to dis-ease, turbulent relationships, etc. Everything, in terms of feeling, we don’t want. The kick in the balls, is feeling - guidance - told us this since day one. But one can get so lost in the woods, so deep in the pressures of surviving, that a rather simple thing seems blown out complicated and practically unfixable. One accustomed to pressure & efforting their way busting through brick walls, at first struggles to appreciate the effortlessness of a simple dry erase board, vision, and the unconditional love and magic of reality. 

I suggest you ‘take back your life’, and your happiness - that is, the relationship between you, and You, if you will. While the materialist paradigm and the believing of such thoughts can suggest to the contrary, this place is a dream. Put anyone, or anything, ahead of your relationship with the higher self within, and nothing makes sense anymore. Nothing clicks. The spring in your step & the joy in your heart just ain’t there - and that was what “worked”, what makes it all cohesively function like butter. Talking about your light here, your joy, your livelihood. 

I’m not suggesting you make any sudden changes, or that there’s actually anything you need to do. I’m suggesting that the dreamboard will reveal to you a series of “ah ha’s”, which reveal to you that your whole life, every experience, has lead up to a perfect culmination of the realization, and the illumination of the path of actualizing it, with natural passion & conviction - with a newly discovered knowing - of what you actually want to do, and what it looks like going forward. This would flush out some emotional misunderstanding in identity, resulting in profound understanding arising within you, making practices like meditation peaceful and fruitful, without any desire for substances. It doesn’t occur in a moment, but overtime. Again, if I’m off, or outta my place here, apologies. I just think you’re a cool, smart loving dude, and I love ya. There’s an “above my pay grade” reason I call it a dreamboard. I didn’t “think” of that my “self”. 

 

[electroBeam]

41 minutes ago, Nahm said:

@electroBeam

 “I’ve realized this is a fucking dream - and that’s awesome - but wtf - why isn’t life ‘lining up’?”  How to “line it up”?

Definitely! You psychic! 

41 minutes ago, Nahm said:

@electroBeam

We convince ourselves of this, via responsibility, pressure, deadlines, etc. We all to often succumb to it, at the expense of the relationship with our inner being, our inner guidance -

 

Yep Yep great advice. So much suffering from this way of live.

41 minutes ago, Nahm said:

@electroBeam

I he who assumes the upper hand over inner being, does so at his own inevitable peril. Chronic discord of thought & feeling leads to a pretend seriousness, grandiose nonsense, resentment, bitterness, stress, tension, etc. This leads to dis-ease, turbulent relationships, etc. Everything, in terms of feeling, we don’t want. The

 

Yeah I do this a lot unfortunately. Even over meditation habits. 

42 minutes ago, Nahm said:

@electroBeam

dreamboard will reveal to you a series of “ah ha’s”, which reveal to you that your whole life, every experience, has lead up to a perfect culmination of the realization, and the illumination of the path of actualizing it, with natural passion & conviction - with a newly discovered knowing - of what you actually want to do, and what it looks like going forward.

Yep Yep that's a great reminder. And that's missing right now. There's no appreciation for the past, or now, just a push for the future. 

 

Thanks Nahm, for speculation that was a highly resonating post. Deeply appreciate your support and love.  ? ???

[Nahm]

@electroBeam ??

[zeroISinfinity]

8 hours ago, Nahm said:

@electroBeam

I believe (all speculation here) that upon inspection of the reoccurring thoughts which are in discord with feeling, what would be found is that there isn’t any “unique atypical high tolerance” situation. I think you’d find that you are using the substances to suppress the discord between thoughts & feeling, and it is leaving you feeling uneasy, frustrated, unhealthy, and ultimately revealing a desire to align the peace, love, & creator that you are, with the working, surviving, creating & accomplishing you do. I feel a not so subtle “cry for help” in your thread. To me, it reads as “I’ve realized this is a fucking dream - and that’s awesome - but wtf - why isn’t life ‘lining up’?”  How to “line it up”? That boils down to aligning thought with feeling, as feeling is the guidance and therefore must be abided by, must be listened to. You have passion, creativity, desire & are very open minded. What I believe is desired, is vision, to answer the question, “how do I align the infinite dreamer I know I am, with this dream, this life?”. 

When in life is the resolution not “that thing” we’re so sick of hearing? Yep, I know it well too....and here it comes....

Make a dreamboard. Before doing this, thoughts are coming and going, as if if behind our head. We’re aware of them, but it’s kind of hard to ‘see the bigger picture’ when it’s not in front of our eyes. Dreamboarding get’s every thought, of everything you want, in front of you. You know all to well that thinking about doing something, is not the experience of doing something. You’d have to do this, to experience what I’m suggesting. You also know, wether you care to admit it or not, that not a one of us really ever “grows up”. We convince ourselves of this, via responsibility, pressure, deadlines, etc. We all to often succumb to it, at the expense of the relationship with our inner being, our inner guidance - that which you desire so strongly to never feel discord or disconnection with. We’re all in truth God’s children. Nonduality, yep...and yet, he who assumes the upper hand over inner being, does so at his own inevitable peril. Chronic discord of thought & feeling leads to a pretend seriousness, grandiose nonsense, resentment, bitterness, stress, tension, etc. This leads to dis-ease, turbulent relationships, etc. Everything, in terms of feeling, we don’t want. The kick in the balls, is feeling - guidance - told us this since day one. But one can get so lost in the woods, so deep in the pressures of surviving, that a rather simple thing seems blown out complicated and practically unfixable. One accustomed to pressure & efforting their way busting through brick walls, at first struggles to appreciate the effortlessness of a simple dry erase board, vision, and the unconditional love and magic of reality. 

I suggest you ‘take back your life’, and your happiness - that is, the relationship between you, and You, if you will. While the materialist paradigm and the believing of such thoughts can suggest to the contrary, this place is a dream. Put anyone, or anything, ahead of your relationship with the higher self within, and nothing makes sense anymore. Nothing clicks. The spring in your step & the joy in your heart just ain’t there - and that was what “worked”, what makes it all cohesively function like butter. Talking about your light here, your joy, your livelihood. 

I’m not suggesting you make any sudden changes, or that there’s actually anything you need to do. I’m suggesting that the dreamboard will reveal to you a series of “ah ha’s”, which reveal to you that your whole life, every experience, has lead up to a perfect culmination of the realization, and the illumination of the path of actualizing it, with natural passion & conviction - with a newly discovered knowing - of what you actually want to do, and what it looks like going forward. This would flush out some emotional misunderstanding in identity, resulting in profound understanding arising within you, making practices like meditation peaceful and fruitful, without any desire for substances. It doesn’t occur in a moment, but overtime. Again, if I’m off, or outta my place here, apologies. I just think you’re a cool, smart loving dude, and I love ya. There’s an “above my pay grade” reason I call it a dreamboard. I didn’t “think” of that my “self”. 

 

Holy fuck. 

Thanks for "forward". 

Yeah I say all Infinite Love. Blows your mind.

Will not avoid HtM and will not avoid full acceptance of MIND. 

Absolute Perfection. 

Time for "porn stash" but even 'porn stash" redembles truth, it pisses me off so hard never had chance to be devil. 

I blame rubber ducks. 

Edited May 2, 2020 by zeroISinfinity

[zeroISinfinity]

Go help. Fuck my life will rather bang my head against the wall. 

Why is so difficult? Most likely my devil won't survive it and it can't. 

Torn apart by this battle.

Tine to return Trutful Avatar back. Ah fuck the day I was born and had to go through all that for Truth I can't accept. 

Edited May 2, 2020 by zeroISinfinity

[karkaore]

21 hours ago, electroBeam said:

I eat eggs, tuna, vegetables like onion daily (for breakfast lunch and dinner, im a bit boring).

Careful with tuna. I wouldn't recommend eating a lot of it as it possibly contains excessive amounts of mercury - a toxic heavy metal that has a variety of damaging effects on your body and brain.

[karkaore]

19 minutes ago, remember said:

even if you can open a can of tuna with stile? 

Yes. Also, canned products are usually not the best quality. I wouldn't trust any brand either. I have worked in factories, I know how things are done there. It's really gross when you think about it.

I used to eat tuna before i dropped meat/fish overall. If you love tuna, I would suggest buying freah steaks of it. They are usually put there with all the expensive fish on ice. Make sure they are the best quality you can get in your market. Saving a buck or two on it isn't worth your health.

Edited May 2, 2020 by karkaore

[Nahm]

 

[karkaore]

@remember Have you heard of keto diet? If you are progressing towards vegetarianism/veganism it's the best one by far. I have been on it for a year now and have tried many different diets before. Overall well-being improved dramatically using keto. Wouldn't recommend anything else really. Eating one or two times a day, consuming less then ever before and getting more energy, less monkey mind, deeper meditation/concentration. Also, don't have to worry so much about the quality of your food as most of it is just nuts. I love nuts btw.?

[LfcCharlie4]

@Nahm  I've clicked on your profile to see if there was anything regarding Transmissions and your integration, and wow I'm going to stalk you more often!

You are like my hero, advising people on how to not only love they life they live, but simultaneously live the life they love and do everything they want to do from a place of love, happiness and joy. 

If I don't see an online funnel for a Nahm speaking event about manifestation, abundance, happiness all coming from a place of love in 5 years I will be disappointed Nahm!!!

[Nahm]

@LfcCharlie4 

Much appreciated man, and again, thank you, for all the kind words and also just for talking about the transmissions, for ‘getting it out there’. I’m reeling like an atheist who glimpses Truth the first time with those. The spiritual ego and bliss of it is too much currently. It’s much like a trip, integration, and backlash in a very short duration, like five minutes. Seems to be a full circle of conditioning, in that the body gives out from the love. More likely, some conditions held will be purified out. Both surely lol. I don’t imagine Ramaji is reduced to a pile of tears & joy and needs recovery time with transmissions...but I’d guess he was when it first started. ‘Who knows’. It’ll likely be on the website soon enough, along with the other stuff you mentioned. We shall ‘see’. ??‍♂️ 5 years sounds generous. 

Also - the q n a, or even just some dialogue, and the transmission after, super clear now how 1 + 1 = 100 in that regard. Thanks for helping me see the light there. ??

[Raptorsin7]

@Nahm @LfcCharlie4 I got my first transmission yesterday. You'll defs be hearing from me about in the coming weeks.

I'm either going to going off about how amazing it is, or I'm going to sink Nahm out of spite ?

[Nahm]

@Raptorsin7 Hey now!!

[LfcCharlie4]

@Nahm Awesome man! Just out of interest who was the transmission with and what transmission did you get exactly? 
 

And, yeah I guess not lol, they give them several times a day so I guess it would get impractical ? however, it’s not “them” giving them, just simply being a channel, trust me people think I’m a crack pot when I tell them ? 

 

Yep, it very much is similar to a trip, in terms of integration and backlash you’ll face, which is why doing them everyday is counter Intuitive, a bit like psyches (not that I know). 
 

Im glad man, you already have helped 100s if not 1000s of people on here, and the transmissions will just allow that even more so. 
 

I always love a holistic teacher, and someone who encourages us to go and live life however we see fit, and your teachings seem just like that, I think it’s time during my dopamine detox tomrorow to draw up that dream board  

 

@Raptorsin7 Who with? I personally wouldn’t expect many “results” unless it’s 1-1, the coaching is so so key imo. 

[Nahm]

@LfcCharlie4

 

With  @Raptorsin7.

Thanks, and again, spot on. ‘Channeling’ was / is precursor experientially speaking, and it took about 3 days to think straight again. ? Second time, maybe 1 & 1/2. Once a week would probably be better for a while. Appreciate the kind words, but I’m just havin the most fun I can, like you. Rock that dreamboard mate ✊?

[kag101]

On 5/1/2020 at 11:33 AM, electroBeam said:

hmmmmmmmmmm.

I'll give ya bold answer back lol. Probably better this answer then to give you some generic bullshit like oh i want to be successful or a good little meditator.

There's 2 main things going on. Meditation(focus, attention, concentration) and thoughts.

When I ask myself and inspect why I do this. The answer that seems quite authentic is the following:

There's a 'fight' or competition between 2 sides of a pendulum. The first is to drop all thoughts and dissolve into nothing. To expand, be unlimited, be infinite.

The 2nd is a desire to create. To ejaculate or let out 'shakti' or pure creative energy. Its like sex, you leave it in and the energy builds and wants to be let out. Its hard to get any deeper than that, but its a love for form. A love for contributing or creating form. Like creating beautiful masterpieces.

When I go hardcore with the first, the shakti builds up, and wants to be let out. And so i swing to going hardcore at my work. Then after going hardcore at my work, a depression from limitation lingers. Its like yes form is beautiful, but you've gotten too immersed in limitation and form, time to drop it. 

Also just doing meditation all day doesn't feel quite right. It feels like without creation, I don't know, its not how its meant to be.

And so I flop between these 2. Last year I flopped between these 2 by working hardcore for 2 weeks, then working less and meditating hardcore. This year I'm doing meditation and lots of work on a daily basis, and so now the flip happens daily. Which is much better because the depression and building up of shakti is more balanced. But its still pretty darn hard for me to balance it. Naturally I feel like oscillating between saying fuck you to meditation and fuck you to work every 2 weeks. Who knows maybe I have a mental condition.

 

Of course there's also egoic survival needs like making money. But really when i think about my biggest challenge, its forging a life that can balance these 2 pendulums. If I do a job that doesn't allow me to express formlessness's beauty, and doesn't allow me to meditate, its not an ideal life. And so my end game is to have such a life. That could mean a career as an inventor(what im doing now) where I express formlessness's beauty through inventive ideas, or it could mean a game developer, etc.

From your description, I don't think your healthy nor balanced. Ponder if you're on the right path.