crazy identity, loser identity, cool austin identity, witty good at talking with women Austin, lonely austin, active physical exercise Austin and they are all trying to prove something so I have ocds about sending a text that confesses an aspect of my past to them that validates that reality and it keeps rotating so even if I do the ocd it will come back do I just accept that this is life? Agony? I mean the only other option is to discipline it out but it’s hard to have motivation cause it seems infinite