Day of self inquiry and my dreams of last night

[StarStruck]

Yesterday I went on a long walk and did couple of hours of self inquiry. I got in a couple states of terror but no breakthroughs. It was mostly confusion. I went back home and to sleep and I had some interesting dreams. It was a weird dream, I cut myself open from the spine up to the brain to look where my consciousness is. I obviously didn't survive that operation. I saw my dead self in my dream and I realized I wasn't the body but I was kind of sad because this operation was just meant to investigate myself, not damage my spine and brain and die. What did this dream try to tell me? I had couple of other dreams too, somebody told me I shouldn't be a victim. I can't remember much from it.

I guess the question at hand is, how to let go of the ego and not damage oneself physically. Spirituality is about spiritual death, not physical death.

Edited April 18, 2020 by StarStruck

[Javfly33]

You already dead! No need to harm anything. Observation and a quiet mind is the skill you´ll need to master .

[StarStruck]

@Javfly33 thanks.. I still don't see it, but it takes time I guess.