Beginner in the present moment

[Nick_98]

I want you to notice yourself looking at the screen right now and be extremely conscious of that because that's what I've been doing for the last 3 days. 
Good ! Now you know what I'm talking about. 

To keep it simple, I will ask my questions then rant on my situation afterward it's up to you to read the whole thing or not. 

Why do I feel less confident and not " Good in my own skin" after being present for 3 days ? 

Is there something that's called developing confidence in the present moment rather than "yourself" ? 

When will I achieve that confidence , after one month/ 2 months ..etc .. ? 

When you started self development , did you feel less confident and more vulnerable to attacks from the world ? 

If you're an enlightened person , as I've read , I have probably zero mystical experience , you are more likely be laughing at my questions right now , but all i want you to do , is to put the context of being a beginner into your own vision and answer accordingly , and from your past/experiment. 

Background Before/after practicing being in the moment  :

Feelings that let's say " I " feel most of the day : Happiness , Confidence, Good in my own skin. 

Feelings after being more in that present moment : Nothing,Happiness,Sadness,Anger,Frustration,Confusion,Doubt , Not confident, Not good in my own skin-authentic -vulnerable to any attack.

It feels like I was a lion with teeth , and now there is no lion and no teeth. I practiced being present like this , trying to be present in each moment during the day, touch , sound , perceptions , feelings and labeling them as " frustrated" "angry" "happy" , what I realised in the workplace is that I've started to act less confident towards many people , Even tho I label feelings and be mindful of them and try to get to this present moment , feelings  of doubt is probably in the back of my mind. and this doesn't help me in a practical way , maybe it does help me with focus here and there , but socially speaking, I for the first time never felt that i'm doubting myself until i have become fully present , my attitude has entirely changed to be less efficient even tho I'm more present , but the feelings doesn't drive me as much which makes me less cooperative. It feels weird because I've always been flying with my states of my feelings and usually because it was a happy feeling most of the time it resulted in a more efficient result in my own point of view, thoughts on this ? 

Edited April 11, 2020 by Nick_98