What's wrong with me?

[Shiva99]

I've been noticing a pattern in my life that keeps coming back over and over again. I basically am motivated to take action as soon as my basic needs aren't met, but whenever they are met, my motivation drops and eventually it completely dies out. When my basic needs aren't met, and when i'm almost out of money etc, i try to find ways to get by. Most of the times i succeed in this, and i get a lot of excitement out of it. It's kinda weird because looking at it, in those moments i'm in a constant battle, and it's not something to be excited about at all, but somehow i am. I also get excitement out of earning money by not doing a mundane 9-5 job, but by getting it another way. Some examples of this might be making profit with cryptocurrency, getting lucky gambling, or selling stuff on Ebay for some profit. Now i know the gambling is not good, and looking back it didn't bring a lot of good times, but the excitement about getting money in a way that is not just by a mundane 9-5 job really excites me a lot. 

I've had plenty of times were i had enough money to sustain myself for a long time. However, for some reason these are the most boring moments for me, and i like it a lot more when i'm on the verge of being broke, surviving by finding alternative ways of income to sustain myself. Is this wrong? I don't think a lot of people feel this way. 

[Thought Art]

Hmm, 

Have you heard of the difference between 'Toward' and 'Away From' motivation? Learning this help me with similar thing.

I took a glance at this, is seems similar to what I am saying : https://coachingleaders.co.uk/towards-away-motivation/

Let me know if this helps!

Edited April 6, 2020 by Thought Art